Either way, it fucking sucks and is mentally destroying me. I need genuine advice.Context; I (M27) work full time at a job that caused me to burn out over time and it reached a point where I don't have the mental energy on my days off to pursue my hobbies or acquire higher knowledge for a better job/career. It's not that I don't want to, I mentally can't bring myself to it.Those issues were there my whole life due to being diagnosed ADHD but not of this severity. It's at a point where I'm physically not able to do sit at my computer and practice coding and instead do literally anything else (lay in bed, browse instagram, etcera).I've tried keeping my vape near my desk and only allowed myself to hit it while I'm studying, set timers, do small portions each day, all of these attempts to no success. The only thing that helped in the past was Adderall but I don't have health insurance nor the money to pay out of pocket for psychiatrists to prescribe me.Am I genuinely fucked /adv/? Is the only alternative at this point is to seek out a dealer and score fucking meth because the options are very limited at this point.
Can your current job sustain you financially? Do you really need to focus so much time on juggling hobbies and the whole self-improvement thing? I spent two years on a work qualification where I was studying daily and it was honestly a waste, all I got for it was a pdf, some letters after my name, and the thought that I'd probably have mentally developed better if I'd used all that study time on rest. I say this as someone who's starting to speak 50% of his sentences out of order and forgets basic words at this point out of sheer exhaustion. I mean saying the word blue when I mean green and taking several seconds and someone pointing it out to realise it. Never got that payrise either.
>>33732279Get some of those dick pills from the gas station, I did last night and fucked my gf silly to where she couldn't even move afterwards.
>>33732360>Can your current job sustain you financially?Yeah the pays alright; it's enough to where I can set aside money for savings and some entertainment every now and then>Do you really need to focus so much time on juggling hobbies and the whole self-improvement thing?I guess not really; it would still be an asset in the future in case I get canned from my job or find a higher paying career that's more satisfying to work at.I just don't want to be stuck in a life of mediocracy until something terrible happens that I'm not financially prepared for. Also my girlfriend will definitely expect more from me the near future and won't be content with renting a small house in the city for the rest of the life so there's also that.
>>33732279Um, yeah. Due to years of abusing Addy's yeah. You're pretty much fucked without those addy's now. Better get some medicaid and get your drugs before you die, or kill someone. Blame your parents for giving their kid Adderall and making you now chemically dependent and unable to live life without them.
