I was raised by a BPDemon mother and a pussy father. My cunt mother isolated me never letting me go outside or play with other kids because of pedophiles along with treating me and my father like absolute shit shit having meltdowns over something that happened decades ago and how I cheated her out of a attorney career keep in mind she can’t even handle a 20 minute trip to the grocery store without having a meltdown about it later. I was pretty much sabotaged at every point in my life and missed out on everything a child should be doing. I wasn’t even allowed to tie my shoes lasses because I would “break them”. My dad enrolled me for Boy Scouts at once I was taken a few times then my mom decided she would rather stay home and smoke pot or cry about some bullshit thing that happened literally years ago. The my dad started taking me then my mom apparently feeling bad freaked on him called the cops again and gave the bullshit excuse I couldn’t handle boyscouts. She also took me to countless therapists when I went selectively mute because of her insanity she was trying to get the coveted autism diagnosis which would clear her of past and future parenting failures at least in her twisted mind. A couple of therapist offered some sort of group play center she could take me too. She of course didn’t because she didn’t want to but gave the excuse I wouldn’t be able to handle it. Just one and on. My dad pretty much just accepted it worked more hours to stay away leaving me with her and told me that I should just accept it because it’s hard on him too and gave advice like stand up for myself against her while acting as her attack dog when I actually did. End result is a 21 year old schizoid who hates life and spends most of his waking hours day dreaming about other better worlds still listening to his parents fight over nothing in the next room and their ever coming divorce my cunt mother been talking about for 13 years now. Is there any coming back from this?
You ever watched the movie fight club?
Move out.
>>33732433I can relate so much to this except I believe my mother, as much as I love her, is a textbook NPD. I'm 30 years old and what I will say is that putting some distance between yourself and your mother is probably one of the best things you can do for your sanity. At 21 your life is just beginning you have so much potential dude, don't let anyone tell you there is no coming back from this. You need to focus on putting some distance between her and yourself and building a small, comfortable life for yourself. I also recommend getting a dog or at least some kind of pet, it can do wonders for your mental health.
>>33732433>End result is a 21 year oldgrown ass man who blames others for his own misfortune. Nigga you are no longer a child. That's three years past 18. You have the capability to shape the lifestyle and life you have now- that is in your hands.>listening to his parents fight over nothing in the next roomwow, news flash- you don't have to endure that! You can start living your life. How about you start researching cities with employment you can apply and get hired at? Pack up your shit and move? WOW AMAZING.>Is there any coming back from this?yeah stop being a crybaby bitch maybe? I grew up in a similar household and I wanted to get out of this situation- so at age 16 I started working in whatever jobs I could find so I could start being financially responsible and able to feed myself and get what I need so that I would not be under their control any longer. You? Complaining and whining. Listen to this guy >>33732457 and stop being a bitch already.
I too, was raised by a BPD mother.My days were but pain.But eventually, I've developed my own BPD. Much stronger and more migty than hers. She became scared of me, realizing I grew to view her as mere flesh than can be easily terminated if I ever decided I wanted to. One day I threatened to fire our house so a nice policeman came and I didn't ever have to come back home. I no longer speak to her. But she is still with me in my dreams where I make very good schnitzels out of her thighs.
>>33732433I can relate to some of this however add large amounts of alcohol every night and no father in sight.It didn't stop for me till I completely cut her out of my life, didn't realise till years later that the abuse emotionally and physically fucked me up, I thought alot of it was normal.I would suggest if you feel you can't live your life how you want then it's fine to let her go.
>>33732433What was done to you as a child is 100% Not Your Fault. How you deal with it as an adult is 100% Your Responsibility - with professional help if needed
>>33732598 put it more bluntly, but, yeah, you need to get the fuck out. It's going to be hard and it sounds like you were dealt a shit hand with noone to fall back on. I'm sorry and good luck. I've seen people climb out of this hole and go from working retail to $100K (wicked good for a rural area) in a few years. It's going to suck but it's possible.
>>33732433Write a book about it. Turn this experience into something that's helpful and healing to the other people like you who've had or may end up having a similar life. Write about what worked for you and how you got through it. If you can freehand a whole paragraph this easy, you could for sure write a book. I'd buy it.
>>33732433Don't judge it. And don't feel sorry for yourself. Take it with a grain of salt. No one's life is perfect. All of our lives are equally fucked just in different ways that you can't tell at the surface level. That's what I've come to realize about life. Everyone thinks their affliction makes them special not realizing we all have some kind of affliction. We all have negative emotions. We all have someone or something in our family we don't like. It's called duality. Good and bad energy has to balance out for everyone. We all have our equal share of good and bad, not just a few unlucky people, everyone. Just realize that this is your version of fucked. And be glad it's not worse cause it could've been. Be glad you weren't molested or raped or abused. She may have been a nut case, but she kept clothes on your back, food in your mouth and a roof over your head. She carried you 9 months and didn't let you end up in a group where you got molested for years on end so just be thankful for that and move out. It's about that time anyway. You'll be much happier and you'll finally be able to love your mom again without being drained constantly from having to live with her. I love my mom and gma to death, would die for them but I cannot, I repeat, I CANNOT live with them. If I live with them I'll end up feeling like you do. That's all it is though, you just need to move out and move on.
