months ago this person fucked me over hard. I'm not going to go into too much detail, but it was at my last workplace and it ended up being quite a bad experience for me as I lost a lot. My hatred for him is....strange. I know who this person is and I can look this person up on the internet, however when I think of doing it there seems to be a block, like my body is afraid of seeing his fucking face on my screen. Is this pure hatred or trauma?
You're just a retard.
>>33735913>fucked me over hard>bad experience for me as I lost a lot.Fuck as in sex or screwing your life over? You mentioned HATRED and LOSS so I assume its NOT sex related.>Is this pure hatred or trauma?Sounds like trauma at most but the way you wrote this shit is so conflicting to be accurately judged. >I'm not going to go into too much detailYou have to if you want accurate answers. No details from you then no accurate details for pinpointing it either.
>>33735913It's trauma. Hatred isn't real. Whoever that person is, they taught you something, this was a lesson for you. The problem isn't them. The problem is how you're handling it.
>>337362071. Screwing my life over2.lets just say that I was in a training course with people that I really liked and I got suspended from this course because I revealed something about my past to them. I thought I was doing the right thing but apparently I was “tainted” and I should resign to save everyone the trouble. This motherfucker didn’t even give me a chance to explain myself. He just met me, shook my hand and then essentially told me to go fuck myself. I started fucking drinking the same day I met him. Not restarting drinking, but like my actual first fucking drink. I couldn’t go back, I lost my career, potential friendships and lifelong experiences because of this person.
>>33735913Have you considered murder and rape?
>>33735913>. I know who this person is and I can look this person up on the internet,Buy why would you even do that? Pray for your enemies, and then move on and do something else.
>>33736991If it's related to some criminal charges or drugs, then the guy is right for firing you. It's zero tolerance policy for that crap, so no need to plead your case.
>>33736996No, he hasn't Satan. He's not a conservative so chill. Go back to /pol/ with that.
>>33735913>>33735943>>33736991Yeah sorry OP, but you are a retard.Obviously looking at the face of someone who massively pissed you off is going to re-trigger you. No shit? And why are you looking him up on social media? To make yourself pissed again? What exactly do you expect to happen by doing that?Also, no one can "make you drink". That was your choice to turn to substance abuse as a coping mechanism. It was also your choice to tell some guy in a professional setting that you're a pedophile or whatever you told him, which was also an idiotic decision. Take responsibility for your retarded actions and learn from them.
>>33736984>hatred isn’t realTell that to the all the hate crime victims.
>>33737217>>33737007Im not a fucking nonce alright. I was basically in a job where the organisation values honesty and integrity however its also a job that scrutinises a persons past affiliations with certain groups and sites. I had this stupid fucking weight on my chest throughout my time with them because I also value honesty aswell and they didnt know certain things about me. Then I disclosed it through a report.
>>33735913The consensus is you're a fucking retard. /thread
>>33738997What did you think would happen? These people are trained like a computer code that see anything as "if x --> then y". Your honesty doesn't matter here. Use this incident as a lesson.
>>33739048I thought they’d give me some fucking leeway. I thought they would at least give me a chance to explain why I did the things I did. I thought that if I came out with it they would consider that as a mitigating factor.
>>33739064Can you elaborate what group and/or site you affiliated with (or at least some hint as to what it did)?
>>33739117Far right.
>>33739064Inscribe it in your head as a future reminder, because this will keep happening. If you lie, then lie all the way. You can't lie when you get hired and then decide to just admit your lie and expect any form of empathy or understanding. They are robots following a script and can't deviate from it.
>>33735913I'm probably late to the thread but literal psych here.It's trauma. You are afraid. You are currently in control and seeing the face of the person who took control away from you jeopardizes your sense of safety. Yet, you feel compelled to look him up. You feel the compulsion because you want to confront your trauma in order to retake control. As long as you don't, the fear of losing control remains.In other words, you want to get over your trauma but you are still not ready.Do you understand rape victims now? This man probably didn't pull down your pants and put his dick in your ass to relieve himself sexually. But imagine if he also did that? How long would it take you to recover?But trust that there is a way. If rape victims can get over their trauma, you definitely can. There is a proven way to do it, and I unironically autodidactically improved on that way. Currently writing a book.t. browsing for inspiration.
