I'll give an abridged rundown of my life so far leading up to 26 pushing 27.>plapped into existence>somehow mom turns out to be mentally ill and psycho after my little sister is born>didn't get affection and proper raising>dad can't divorce because it would mean financial ruin>be autist >ignore pursuing romance in high school just wanted to get into college >get into college>everything falls apart>learn that I'm ugly and undesirable>mom gets cancer >she goes fucking insane >fights everyday>get concerned for sister>stress too much have to drop out of college>mom dies of canadian healthcare >fall into awful pit of depression>get prescribed ECT appointments after years of failed treatment and wage slaving>last ECT appoint is tomorrow morning>apparently ECT is effective at curing depression but I'm not sure>I don't feel confident that this ECT has worked outAssuming it works how the fuck do I turn this around? How do I go back to college even with the scars of my first time in college and knowing I'm genuinely late?How do I turn things around and catch up?How do I find love despite being a hopeless autist?I'm not gonna lie. I'm the stereotypical incel neet minus the hatred of women. I believe I owe my little sister's love and affection for not being a full blown women hater.
>>33738333>mom gets cancerparasite cleanse, chlorine dioxide protocols
>>33738333I ended up working in a minimum wage factory after college and uni. Don't know your degree, but bear in mind that getting one does not equal employement in Canada these days.
>>33738526I didn't finish college. I didn't get a degree. I want to go back to college despite the scars to finish my degree if that is even possible.
>>33738581I know, I meant the degree you are pursuing.
>>33738641To be completely honest I don't know what degree I want. And part of me just wants to get the Liberal Arts meme degree just to say I finished college and be done with it.
>>33738333>How do I turn things around?One foot in front of the other. >But I'm behind!!You're going to fall further behind by spending time and energy to obsessing over the fact that you're behind.Sounds like the worst is behind you. Both my parents were clueless fucking losers, everything good I have for myself is in spite of them, and I lament not leaving them behind as soon as I could most days. You do the best with the hand you're dealt because the alternative is more inefficiency, suffering and misery. There is absolutely no clever solution or trick that's going to make you feel better other than just doing the work, being healthy and holy, and vowing to be better than your parents and be able to take care of your sis and people you care about. Do that and everything else works outs. Most of the trite advice about diet and exercise and leaving your comfort zone you hear on /adv/ works if you commit to it.
>>33738681>One foot in front of the other.Yeah I figured that would be the case. >Sounds like the worst is behind you. Not yet. I haven't gotten the last ECT appointment so I don't know if this ECT is a miracle thing that actually shocks a man out of depression.>Most of the trite advice about diet and exercise and leaving your comfort zone you hear on /adv/ works if you commit to it.I know about the diet part as I've lost a bit of weight. Not much but some just from changing diet.
>>33738333I won't read laundry list of woes threads.
>>33738653If you don't know what degree you want, then college is not for you. People who pursue degrees know in advance why they do it. They have the end picture in their head already.You'll just waste your time, unless you plan on getting government loans or bursaries.
>>33738718There's no such thing as being shocked out of depression. In fact being depressed is the correct response to a shitty life. A computer with an error code mean's the computer is functionally properly because it recognized an error. The problem is staying in that state for too long is comfortable and it kills you. There's nothing pills and therapy can do for you that sun, grass, honest work, and solemn vows can't do for you better. The light at the end of a the tunnel is a train that isn't going to hit you repeatedly, but like Rocky says you do get better at taking hits and getting back up because you have things and people you value that carry you through.
>>33738333Can't you get disability benefits if you're doing ECT?
>>33738748I get what you mean. I'm just hoping that ECT works because I don't want to be recommended medical suicide because Canadian healthcare.>>33738786I don't know about that.
>>33738786>Can't you get disability benefits if you're doing ECTJust looked it up according to AI I can.Too bad I'm having my last appointment tomorrow morning. I might report back on whether I genuinely feel better like it worked or not. If this thread is still up.
>>33738333People have snapped and done messed up stuff from having suffered far less. You okay?
Op hereJust had my ect. I don’t know if things have changed for me as I don’t feel any different.
