I'm fucking tired of thinking about my older brother. Any time I do something, he judges me in my head. Any time I want to go somewhere, I imagine that he would hear and have an opinion about it.I hate it and I am tired of it.I have gone to therapy and so far, we've concluded that my fear is his belittlement. He makes a mockery of people. This paralyzes people (not just me) and needing his approval. He portrays himself as successful, easy going and a very good person, so when he mocks you, you feel like you've done something wrong.I know him very well, so I know his game, and I am in a place where I want to get him out of my head forever.Is my situation common? If so, is there a shortcut to solving it? Therapy is expensive.
>>33742815>Counterintuitive thinkingMental pain that you can’t find is stored in your body. Research pic rel and on YouTube. Do the crab pose and and it will start in two minutes. Very strange when you first do it, as your thoughts will COMPLETELY change.
>>33742815I will bless you with a resource that will change your entire perspective anonBut you have to keep it to yourself, because if you let any of it slip out you'll give up the game that gives you a fighting chance to unwedgd yourself from this malignant dynamic.Sam Vaknin on youtube. Learn from him. Open your ears and mind and soak what he says. It is highly likely you're in an environment with constant ambient abuse. Good luck friend. You will slowly learn more about the bad object you have in your mind.
>>33742815Have you considered stabbing?
>>33742953Interesting. This reminds me of when I was doing a meditative exercise myself 4 days ago, and I found that I had my best focus when I straightened, and almost arched my back and neck in a seated position. Otherwise I was seated in a hunched over position, as you usually are.I will try this. What I've found works for resolving trauma is to figure out what exactly you are afraid of, and observing how it feels to accept it, in a controlled manner. Every time I've done this, my anxiety immediately let up, forever.This particular issue with my brother goes back a lifetime, so it's hard, but I've resolved traumas that have gone on daily for 2 years, so this isn't too far off.
>>33742981I've binged him, unfortunately. Learning from him never resolved the fear, but it definitely made it MUCH easier to know what is going on. I appreciate the recommendation because it shows you know exactly what dynamic I'm talking about...
