Can't shake it, won't do it, but can't shake the despair and it's like my mind is paralyzed. I don't know what to do.
Let's play some Nintendo switch in the meantime hmu
>>33744216I don't really play video games much sorry
>>33744216It's part of being an adult.
>>33744216Get a bf
>>33744216Have you tried therapy or medication?
>>33744543no, I don't want it, everyone I know who felt like me and turned to that stuff is basically just a zombie. I hate them and don't want to be like them.
>>33744736If you insist on raw dogging life it's gonna suck believe me
>>33744736Believe me, I understand that fear, but when the alternative is taking your own life, it's at least worth considering
>>33744736Fair concern, I feel that I'm a zombie now
how much are you walking
>>33744216self therapy , best of luck , and if u aren't going on meds then for the love of god take it seriously actually DO , not just readhttps://www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/Resources/Looking-After-Yourself/DepressionThe biggest thing I would say as someone overcoming depression with no medication - give yourself a chance to win at things. This can be simple as chores, or perhaps winning in call of dity , or setting social challenges or looksmaxxing challenges if you're insecure about that.
>>33744216Thats a symptom. Do something about your depression anon.
>>33744216Asking how you feel I did this for 30 years, one day my wife comes home and she's like really pissed off. I asked her what's wrong, she goes on and tell me that some girl at work was complaining about her life but as she was doing it she was bropping my wife into it like they don't treat us right and we don't ever get things that we need and blah blah blah. All a sudden my wife goes into this rant about how good her life is and how it's gay that she was trying to push her crappy viewing life onto her. The rent was legit not a flex and I sat there and aw because her life is my life and for the first time I said to myself maybe things aren't that bad. That was the day my depression peaked and started going down. After that I was able to pinpoint things that made me upset and give up on them. I went from a full-blown atheist deconstructionist to an agnostic to a consistent Church attendee you just had a meeting last week with his priest about getting baptized. I went from the idea of never having children to having two kids and I love more than anything in the world. All the things that I thought would make my life miserable is giving me more happiness than I could ever imagine. Good luck friend I hope you get out of the pit it's not easy but it's worth the effort.
>>33745336Sorry for all the spelling grammar errors my phone is just auto correcting things into Oblivion
>>33744216I do this. A few times I got all the way to the point where I was gonna do it. Then I'm like, holding a knife or bottle of pills or whatever, and I realize I don't want to anymore. So what the fuck does that mean? At first I thought it meant I was just a huge whiny bitch, can't actually go through with it. Now I'm starting to think I'm misinterpreting my emotions. I just ASSUMED this feeling means "want to die"But If I don't actually want to die, then what does it mean?My point is:Explore the details of that suicidal feeling. I think it might be something else.
>>33744216Me too, try distract your mind; Maybe weird, but find a hobby. You say you don’t play video games but you need to have fun for your mind maybe play tetris. It help, or do something else to distract your mind
>>33744216If you can't tackle the root issues at this time, find something to distract you.For me it is probably going to be an online game if I am going through a really dark period.
>>33744216Are you taking SSRI or other serotonin drugs? They can cause suicidal ideation as a sideffect.
>>33746867Oh the Irony....>>33745696I think about suicide every day and I have tried on multiple occasions, one attempt involved locking myself in my vehicle and mixing ammonia and bleach and dry heaving for about 45 minutes until I finally got bored and spent the rest of the night coughing up blood.No shit there is an underlying cause, retard. It's a response to an emotion you have no other way to satisfy.
>>33744216Here's the thing about suicide anon...If you really want to die, don't worry, you'll get your wish someday.Death is inevitable. Whether you suicide now or not, you WILL die someday.So suicide is not a "way out." Because we all go through the cycle of life and death.In fact, you can say you're already dead.So knowing that. The only thing that matters is what you chose to do while you are here now. . Suicide or something else. Now or later.If you were already dead, and nothing mattered anyway, what would you do?
>>33750093Yes, it is very ironic that in many cases the drugs MDs prescribe for depression (among many other things) make the patient kill himself.
>>33744216look for a psychiatristtake paroxetine
Jesus loves you and he cares for you and wants you to live a happy life, come to him today anon and receive eternal peace