Hello,I’m autistic, and lately I’ve been feeling overwhelmed about my life and studies. I joined college with the hope of learning and improving in my chosen subject, but over time, I’ve started to regret the decision. Every time I return home after college, I feel drained and depressed — the long commute feels like lost time I could have spent productively.Despite my efforts, it seems I’m not improving in my field as much as I had hoped. In fact, I’m worried that I might be losing my skills and motivation because of this constant cycle of attending college, commuting, and feeling exhausted. As a result, I often feel tempted to skip classes or avoid college altogether.I’ve been thinking seriously about whether continuing my studies this way is truly beneficial for me. Part of me feels that focusing on self-study and skill development at home — where I’m calmer, more creative, and able to work at my own pace — might be a better path. But I’m unsure if this is the right decision or if I’m simply feeling burned out.Has anyone here gone through a similar experience? How did you handle it? Did focusing on self-directed learning work better for you than formal education? Any advice or perspective would mean a lot to me right now.P/s - I'm pretty decent if not good with my work or coherently my subject.
