so bbasically my bf dumped me for being too needy and dependent on him so ive gotten into hooking up (cus he was too limpdicked during the relationship), but toxic hookups. traumabonding and masochism. and my emotions are swirly and my body has bruises (diff guys) and idk why but it feels like what i deserve after being dumped, but also it turns me on so much to b abused.. i want to ask my therapist to talk about this but is that weird? this is my 2nd appointment. i also got raped since the breakup too (got too drunk and got taken advantage of after clubbing like a retard). i just keep putting myself in toxic abusive dangerous situations. i feel like a stupid stray dog..any advice? :(
wow this is literally the premise of the hgame i'm developing and also the story word for word bar for bar of the girl i know who it's inspired bythe resolution of the irl girl was she had an abortion and it was a sobering experience where she realized this wasn't the life she wanted so she threw herself into finding fulfillment through work instead of male attentionso i would advise you avoid further stuffing yourself in the trash by finding something besides male attention worth devoting your time tothird eye blind wrote a song about this, i sing it sometimes when i miss her https://youtu.be/gRYZijLZR-Q?si=AG2mtNVcNLVVe2I1
>>33778067>end a relationship>instantly become a whorewhy do so many women do this?
>>33778128because many other men would kill to love and appreciate a clingy, needy girl. end rant
>>33778067>so bbasically my bfKill yourself now, you toxic, date “raped”, used up, alcoholic pos, reckless, clubbing-like-a-whore-while-getting-shitfaced-with-your-homegirls ass bitch. Get off this website
>>33778135There is no loving or appreciating a psychopathic girl with attachment issues and bpd who’s just using you
Uninstall neck from body irl, prostitute
>>33778128>deprived of fulfillment>desperately seek it out without consideration of long term consequenceswhy do so many people do this?not saying she isnt a whore but its not really hard to understand why. people enjoy being wanted for their body, and sex feels good. if youre in a vulnerable emotional state you do stupid things without considering the the long term.
>>33778175>whore sympathizer Kill yourself too. Btw only women do that>>33778128Unfortunately they aren’t human
>>33778067You unconsciously blame yourself for pushing your boyfriend away, and you've consciously convinced yourself that getting into these abusively toxic hookups is his fault because your relationship with him was more emotional than physical. You do this because truly accepting that you played a significant part in the dissolution of a relationship you cared about is too painful to process, so you seek out the inverse of what you had with your ex to simultaneously spite him and punish yourself. What you need to do is stop hooking up with anyone and work on figuring out why you are so codependent in the first place.
>>33778067The hair has so many layers of rendering it's uncanny compared to everything elseWas it rendered by ai?Anyway kys
>>33778142using you for what? lmao like you havw anything to be used
>>33778214this makes the most sense desu, i hate myself for being needy and dependent because it ruined things between him and i, even tho i wish he had a regular sexdrive or maybe he just wasnt horny for me? idk but my self esteem guttered cus of the relationship.ALSO IM NOT HAVING SEX i just meet kiss cuddle and get beat-up, sex is for relationships only even tho these guys rlly want it badly but no one wants to commit to me cus im too strange and clingy ,_,
>>33778306i drew it and thx i will<3
>>33778329>even tho i wish he had a regular sexdrive or maybe he just wasnt horny for me?The fact that you have to ask this at all suggests you didn't talk to him about the issue. Open and honest communication is necessary in a relationship, especially over things that affect you this deeply. Based on how you're describing it, it sounds like you became particularly clingy and needy in major part because of the sexual mismatch, which snowballed into codependency because you were worried he didn't care about you.
>>33778329>i just meet kiss cuddle and get beat-up, sex is for relationships only even tho these guys rlly want it badlyAh yes, blueballing a horny drunken guy while telling him to beat the shit out of you. A winning combination.Seriously, talk to your therapist and tell him ASAP, ideally get yourself committed.You are currently coping with your mental illness in a way that will see you end up in some guys trunk sooner rather than later, and probably count as acute self endangerment.
>>33778589i hate inpatient, it never helps, i always come back home even more depressed cus i left life for a wweek just to come back to loneliness and despair>>33778395he apparently had ED, he would always say too he just wasnt in the mood. but that makes perfect sense, snowballing into codependancy due to insecurities+sex being my #1 love language makes the most sense, now i feel empty and desperate xd im only22 ugh
