I have a very uncomfortable problem I think with human sexuality. I have come to fear to it / find it troublesome I guess. I realize its healthy to have it but as a heterosexual male, I definitely don't feel great about it I guess. I think this may stem from the fact that I have never seen anyone who I know to be sexually active actually have a healthy sexual relationship? All my friends that had sex earlier in life, had kids and in turn had issues come up. Either baby mama drama or other problems etc. So to me, sex = imminent ruin of your life. However, I realize that without sex, the human race wouldn't exist. I wouldn't exist etc. I want humans to exist and I want to exist obviously. I am not sure what caused me to even feel this way. Some people seem so fine with their sexuality and being a sexual being etc. But its never felt great to me. It feels like I have to feed a lizard in my mind otherwise it will make me behave in increasingly weirder ways. What can I do to improve my own relationship with standard human sexuality? I really want to know how some people end up with a positive outlook on sex whereas mine is all fucked up? The only semi-sex related trauma I can remember is being in early high school and the sex ed teacher showed us super advanced cases of STDs which freaked me out badly but thats it. Even more weird is that I am unfortunately also a porno abuser but I wouldn't say I am a rampant coomer. I definitely use porn and not masturbate a lot of the times because its soothing to me to look at naked women.
