tldr $400 would save my life, and I don't have any family or friends that are in a better sitch than mei am a happy kind person, but my lack of money is constantly throwing me into a hyper nihilist state of "who cares" (i.e. im about to get evicted, im starving, and im very far away from any irl friends) and this stressor is something that I cannot handleI'll have $70 to my name and feel great and fine, but when the 1st rolls around I know that I wont be able to afford it.I've worked my ass off in alaska and the midwest for 5 years; I feel perpetually broke still.Icing on the cake is that I am epileptic. I completely ignore my -70k medical debt at this point, but is still a constant reminder.This is bullshit!
Money feels like a tangible measure of success. Haha funny bank number go up, and you feel like it proves you have value in the world, even if it's five bucks you happened to find tucked in a couch cushion.
I think that's a major major issue on my relationship with money. I love and I am loved, and people like having me around and I like having people around. That fucking number man
>>33778802>why does money affect my will to keep goin?because your basic needs arent being met. you said it yourself >about to get evicted, im starving
>>33778967see options above^
