Genuinely how do I do anything in life if my brain is in constant stress and flight mode? I don't understand therapy, they are telling me to just ignore and reframe my anxiety but it just results in that, instead of crying all the time I get physically sick like non stop vomit and diarrhea. I can't fix my fucked up brain circuit by just thinking it's not there.On the other hand if I took their stupid mind numbing drugs I wouldn't be able to function either due to how functionally debilitating they are.I'm such a goddamn failure and I'm scared my partner will leave me for that and then it's back to being mindfucked by mother all the time.
Read CPTSD - From Surviving to thriving by Pete Walker, audiobook is on YouTubeRead JungLift weightsGodspeed I love you
>>33780594I have read jung and dont see how it relates.I have tried lifting weights and it didnt help much and I unfortunately also earned myself a chronic hip inflammation from it (somehow, I have no idea since I wasnt overstretching).Idk I may try cptsd book, but how come therapist doesnt know same stuff? Like shouldn't she relay it to me anyways?
>>33780572Yeah you disregard your emotion and feel bad. Takes a few months.
>>33780631Takes a few months to what? I have been like that for 10 years already
>>33780572Change therapist. Try narrative therapy.
>>33780747They are state assigned, I cant afford private service...
>>33780572I think the only outcomes are suicide or you escalate your mental processes to accept extreme levels of violence toward the people or generally he stewards of the system that is creating you distress which is then followed by either going to jail for carrying out said violence or turning in the kind of all-around predatory psychopath that we all initially despise.This might sound very abstract to you right now.What's the source of your anxiety anyway?
>>33780771I dont have inclination towards violence, and honetly I do like life, it allures me, I just wish it didnt make me freak out all the time. The more I read on anxiety stuff and thepies and such the less I understand why am I anxious all the time since there is rationing behind it that would make sense, they are all deconstructed.
>>33780828Most of therapy and such things is about ways to brainwash yourself into coping with your situation, submitting, it is never about changing it.Honestly, depending on your values you may judge a person who brainwashes themselves submitting as virtous and resilient, or scorn them for it.I am the latter type, I am an animal in a cage but I want to rip off and eat the arm that reaches in, not submit to it, you might be different and that's ok.You can also distract yourself from your anguish with a hobby that you perceive as virtous, however it is only delaying the inevitable.Like, I would advise you to follow what your heart and valor compass says to avoid the anguish, just don't scorn and mock others for their own way of dealing with it, when applied to certain situations however this last piece of advice can seem irrational, somebody helping a powerful systemic abuser is your enemy and is betraying you, he is your fellow and betrayed you, you should eliminate him but you shouldn't mock him, you can propagate your view on this adaptation to the younger generations.Submission has a higher rate of success than bravery, thus most people are helpless cowards, is another thing that I want to throw in there.
