I've never really interacted with people and have been a bit of a loner for most of my life. For me my daily routine consists of getting up at 4:30, getting dressed, packing my lunch, browsing this sister before work, driving to work, working 'till 2:50, driving home, maybe stopping for gas and groceries, preparing my dinner, taking a shower, watching anime and playing vidya for a couple hours, and then going to sleep. I don't really talk to anyone at work since the plant I work at gets a bit loud and I wear earmuffs for hearing protection. I'm also not interested in any of the wemon at work and have never really been attracted to any IRL girls aside from 2 back when I was in elementary and (maybe) middle school.I never played on the playground because I was terrified of how the other kids rough-housed and because one of my first school playground memories was some jerk kid (who's face I still remember) threw sand in my eyes. I just circled the perimeter of the fence my entire elementary school years and when I was in middle school literally all I did was read and draw. It was just something to do for me. Around middle school I became autisticly obsessed with Vocaloid music and games like Yoshi's Island and Pokémon Omega Ruby. I still think about those games at 20. I've always retreated into fantasy since I don't like to interact with "normies" and found things like football games, prom, and "hanging out" to be extremely cringe. The closest I've ever had to a girlfriend was Hatsune Miku and Lillie from Pokémon Sun. I can remember how I loved her when I played that game and couldn't stop thinking about her. Ever since I was a little kid I've always liked fictional wemon more than the real deal. I can remember watching Highschool DXD at 10 and seeing how hot Rias Gremory was. After that I felt like it was the tipping point. There was no going back. Am I lost? Is it over for me?.
>>33780933You just sound autistic, which I am not saying in a pejorative way you just legitimately seem to have autistic tendencies. You may want to see a shrink and get your dome checked out, because once you understand what's going on in your head you can adjust your life expectations accordingly.
>>33780933A man in japan married hatsune miku maybe you could do something like this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Akihiko_Kondo
