I don't know how to choose 1 topic to sperg about, I'm not really good at anything except drawing, which AI can do too. I can stim in a stressful environment so factory work would be perfect for me but I'm a woman so my application even to a factory got ignored. I worked fast food for decades but I'm allergic to bread and the oil fumes give me schizophrenia so fuck that. I studied 3 different things and still failed. Video games, gardening & industrial equipment, and hair. Vidya and beauty was just utterly humiliating to attend. I don't know how will I make it without my husband. I was cucked out of my entire savings in the hopes of graduating something that leads to a better job than public embarrassment waging and dealing with abusive druggies and browns in kitchens. After having kids am I suppose to just drop dead?
>>33815437Why do you fail at video games, gardening, industrial equipment, and hair?
>>33815437You could try applying at a plant nursery and see how that goes since you have shown interest in plants. I love plants.
>>33816129Aspergers migrantcel. Not prostitution myself to the correct persons, not sabotaging enough...
>>33816533So apart from the current druggies and browns you also worked with annoying women and weak men? >Not prostitution myself to the correct persons, not sabotaging enough...From this statement I assume you have integrity. Are you good with with numbers and capable of communicating formal information?
>>33816864I will stay strong but yes, this is not what I was taught, to always be placating without boundaries and sabotaging my own team. It's like we live in a social scoring system already, but they really don't value effort, integrity or team work. Team work to them seem to mean>lie to your coworker about tasks and procedures>keep the very minimum staff to overwork and then quickly replace them>gang up on new employees until they develop paranoia and pains>make fun of and exploit people's vulnerabilities infinitely>once you trample over and scapegoat everyone, you can join the top dogsI don't want to work in these environments. I can remember numbers, count okay, type quickly, speak clearly or loudly and formally too but simplistically rather than fancy.
>>33816971Social scoring is my suspicion because I worked publicly with cameras. I have a stim which is embarrassing, biting my lip or mouth because of OCD so people trigger my compulsion to work like a robot and want cleaner and prettier surroundings. That's how I got psyopped into attending a beauty course. Through 2 jobs I was breadcrumbed >beautiful coworkers with long hair meanwhile I butchered my own hair with chemicals and bad cuts out of craziness>new workplace, barely any pretty coworkers but the rare occasion someone pretty with cool hair showed they bullied meSo then I thought, might as well get bullied by mean feminine women with cool hair... I obviously wasn't good enough in this course because I just started it but I still got humiliated by smelly, stinky clients and nobody told me right before that I shouldn't enroll if I don't already practice doing hair. Somebody wanted to help me and she got hurt, often I got ghosted and told someone will come let me do their hair but then didn't. I also was excluded from parties, which I didn't mind, but they kept humiliating. I'm scared somebody stalks me and wants me to be a criminal and prostitute because I can't succeed in any career. I have anger now but can't even Karen because I find it too cringe and gross. Some people would want me to rage out at a competitor but it was not outright said, only implied. This is how women's jobs are I guess. Also not autistic and smart enough for coding and the tech bros just use AI art, my ideas? Who cares, they also have ideas, or can use AI. I just know that somebody out there is keeping me in my cage but I don't know what to do anymore, I have to accept that I'm not academic or talented & modern enough. I should have just stayed in fast food after those raids, maybe that was my initiation? I thought about suicide there, got addicted to soda and food, got an infection, got coworker putting alcohol in my drink, possibly even spit into it, I fractured my hip on a slip
>>33816971>I don't want to work in these environmentsNo one wants to
>>33816971Would you be opposed to working in construction doing estimating or administration?Estimating is what I do and some days it feels like all I do is coloring blueprints on estimating software, with your preference for drawing it could be a good match.The numbers and details are important and clear communication is necessary but verbose language is not necessary.Plenty of shitty people in all fields but a contractors reputation is harder to shake off than most so the bad ones are quickly spotted.Don't give up. It only gets better if you try.
