I'm about to turn 19, moved across the country for college two years ago to get away from my folks. Was an ok student my entire life, and then everything went to shit. I'm doing really bad. I've managed to fail multiple classes every semester. Just this month, I failed to do my part in three different group projects and pissed over half of my classmates off. It's not a big campus. I'm gonna have to see those people everyday until I'm done. My reputation probably sucks. I feel like shit. I wish I was dead. I don't even work or pay bills or anything. My parents pay for food and transport, one of my aunts lets me live alone for free in a place she rents out (her only condition is that I keep the place clean and I can't even do that), and my other aunt pays my utilities. It's a pretty sweet fucking deal as far as they go, but I still feel like shit. All I have to do is go to class and do my schoolwork, and I can't bring myself to do that either. Before, I at least had the motivation of getting out of the house and away from my lunatic of a father, but now that it's just me, I can't anymore. I don't have any friends and have never even kissed anyone. I'm incapable of scrounging up even a single reason for someone to like me. I just suck. I'm really fucking ugly to boot. I don't wanna feel so fucking terrible all the time anymore, but my parents don't have money lying around to bury me if I slit my wrists, and I don't wanna have to pay for alcoholism or any other kind of addiction. I have to get a job until the end of the year because I have to move and my parents can't afford big city rent, but I don't even have a resume. Never worked a day in my life and that's fucking disgusting. I spend weeks doing nothing but lying in bed, lying about how I'm doing to my parents, sounding fucking pathetic to any other rare soul that who bothers to talk to me, and wishing I wasn't me. How can people actually do things? How can people care enough to actually get up and do things?
Quit college n get a job, sounds like ur doing some useless degree oh wait they all are mostly - your classmates suck meet new ones then, billions on this earth to use n toss fuck n chuckStop lying to your parents, dog,.fess up and see if they got any ideas for youBladdida
>>33816563I'm studying computer engineering, and I only picked that because I'm ok with IT stuff, and it's supposed to pay really well. It's just that it's really fucking hard and I'm way more stupid than I thought I was. I'm already looking for a job though and hopefully I'll find something before december.
>>338166051. Computer science is a terrible career. Fuck the money, you want to sit at a computer everyday at work and then come home and sit at the computer? It's over bro switch careers2. Don't drop out, that's terrible advice3. Work harder faggotYou got this champ. I am rooting for you!
>>33816522I won't read tsunami, wall-of-text threads. Post a brief summary next time.
>>33816522in a similar situation, i don't really understand how people just do things. I hope lord Jeff Bezos or other technolord invents some mind controlling chip so i can be just a happy wage slave
>>33816972IT is helping people set up their email and doing tech support. Computer engineering is about designing microprocessors and complex components and requires you to take actual engineering courses which are way more difficult and boring than even computer science courses. I took CS and I knew some friends that took engineering and I know the difference in the work required for each. I’m glad I just stuck to programming.Is there an actual IT major at your college? Many students I knew that couldn’t cut it in CE or CS changed their majors to IT instead.
