It’s been 5 years since I finished high school. I have lost contact with everybody since. Except for my 2 close friends. Anyway, I’ve always been sort of a class clown. I was never bullied but sometimes made fun of. There were 2-4 embarrassing videos of me that someone else took (nothing insane) but just embarrassing. One was me saying stupid crap and the other was my friend choking me. Since high school I’ve lookmaxed like insane and I’m way taller (6’4). I never was a chad but now I’ve morphed into a good looking guy were I get compliments twice a year. Anyway, I’ve developed severe social anxiety, I sometimes am shy or scared to say something because I want to avoid conflict. Basically my fear is that I get someone mad and I become news headlines and then some how those videos get shown (those videos are 75% chances deleted and gone). My biggest fear is that my family sees it because around my family I act very shy and I ill never stand up for myself because I avoid conflict however with the public or with friends I stand up with myself in a humble way. I’m scared that if my family sees it, they won’t see it as a laughing matter but as a omg you’re weak and embarrassing. Literally every day random scenarios I’m scared of actions because of it.
>>33816694I completely understand this. Very relatable. Besides looksmaxxing, what else have you been doing since high school? What are you doing now?
>>33816709I have an amazing high status career. I’ve lookmaxed. Still live with family, not really social at all. It’s just I don’t understand why it bothers me now. Why every morning I wake up I get anxiety to drive and do what I have to do? The thing is, at night time after a long day, my anxiety almost completely disappears until I come back home to my family. I know for a fact that if I had money and independence I’d care less because if I were to see my family once a year I wouldn’t worry about that stupid crap and they would care less about it if it came true
>>33816694Send the videos to your familyCuz.guess what They don't care about your stupid ass
>>33816749Fuck u
>>33816728So you went to college? And with your job, doesn’t that give you good money and independence to do what you want?
