>>33826202
I’ve wasted too much time trying to get validation and approval from other people

I genuinely don't see any way my life will get better, but I'm going to keep trying to make it better in spite of that.

>>33826406
Trans?

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Don't get any women pregnant.
Don't marry her.
You will fuck up the better part of your life by paying off your exwife(gf) while she will use your child to blackbmail you for the rest of your miserable life.
Almost every woman on the planet is a parasitic whore not worth a penny.
You are not paying child support for the child, you are paying it to your exwife.
You won't be able to get her out of your life, she will always be there making your life a living nightmare.

I passed 3/4 classes last fall and 3/4 classes in my spring semester while having a tumor in my head causing persistent daily headaches of agonizing intensity

I had surgery in May to remove it

Got rid of the worst of the worst symptoms. I got different complications arising that are much less bad but still cause me a great deal of pain and I won't get surgery to fix it for a few months. I need to press on but at this point I am just fatigued. I am tired of it all, not feeling normal, being in pain, everything being so much harder than it needs to be. I feel the urge to just give up on all my classes and be high on opiates all day playing video games. Or kill myself. I want to scream and cry and throw things and break shit.

>>33826202
Stop making these threads. There two other one right now. Learn to check the catalog first.

Don't understand how you can go to check the fucking gas meter and end up gone for so long. Getting really fucking sick of you deciding to go socialise with the women downstairs all the fucking time, without even warning me.

Try looking after your fucking son for once instead of leaving it to me all the time.

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>Check on the older video game YouTubers I watched daily in the 2010s.
>One suicide, couple calling themselves women now, several turned into political grifters.
>But many have just vanished completely, probably gotten lives.
>One who is a similar age to me is now a married father living in a nice house in middle class suburbia with a big garden.
Meanwhile I'm here stuck with my clinically depressed mother eternally ruminating on whether or not it's an undiagnosed anxiety disorder or just me being a bad person that's holding me back. Why won't you grow anon? Why are you still afraid of your job 7 years into it? Why does the mere sound of a phone ringing get your pulse racing? Why are you so frightened of going to shops that you've gone to the local grocers maybe five times in as many years? Why do the new kids at work that are a decade younger than you seem so much more confident and composed than you? Why do you refuse to make friends? Why do you keep posting on fucking /adv/ GIOYC thinking it'll improve your situation? Why?

Dealing with chronic pain and I don't wanna drop out of college and go home T_T

test

Fuck jannies my post was valid a /adv/ post

Fucking gaywads on this board I swear. Kill yourselves

Why cant beaners go anywhere without 5 generations of their ugly fucking family

think im gonna kill myself soon

I have never had an experience that the presence of other people has improved

>>33826475
No, just a momma’s boy

Fuck man, stuck in a bit of nothing-is-fun-ditch again. The fact that it's getting colder outside, doesn't help.
When I'm not at work I just mindlessly zap between YouTube videos, video games and slow ass generals on 4 chan and none of them are truly fulfilling at the moment.
I have a handful of other hobbies but I can't bring myself to do them at the moment because just sitting here glued to my screen is "easier".

Shit really sucks. I've been here before so I'm confident I can get out of this again, but it's still not fun

>>33832150
Do those hobbies, set up reminders

I'm going through a divorce I initiated and despite everyone of my friends and family saying it's for the best and I'll be happier I legitimately cannot be any more depressed. I play games with my friends and go out more now and set up long term goals but I legit cannot work a full shift with crying at my desk like a pussy. I still crave intimacy that I didn't get in the relationship and now that she's wild and free she's been soliciting me for sex more often which I agree to just for a chance to feel loved but I end up feeling disgusted with myself after. I don't think I'm going to survive the divorce because at the rate I'm going now I'm gonna either die from malnutrition or shoot myself.

>>33832260
Don't be sad anon, it's for the best, you just have to stop having sex with her and find a better woman.

I feel like I definitely have the potential to become a cult leader but I was either born in the wrong family or born too late. Cause like a lot of the cult leaders these days is like your average instagram influencer but old

>>33832167
Definetely.
The big thing I need to remind myself of is that I can't wait until I'm magically "ready" to do any of those hobbies because that moment will never come. But once I actually get myself to start doing them, they will absorb me pretty quickly.

I saw her in the digital pants you left in my wardrobe.

>>33832272
I know what I have to do. I started going to a therapist and the therapist basically told me the same thing but the truth is I don't really want another woman, I want to be alone. But I spent the whole relationship with her trying to comfort her to make her feel better and worrying about her emotions so when she comes home drunk, sad, and trying to fuck me all I can think about it "I have to stop her from crying."

I'm extremely easy to manipulate if someone starts crying around me.

>>33832324
Let her go anon. Push her away. She's ruining you

>>33832333
Definitely need to and I'm definitely going to. I need to find a way to get over her that isn't my usual play video games for 8 hours a day and drink or go to the gym for 2 hours a day, which I can't because I've lost 10lbs in a month from not eating and don't have any energy.

I saw something terrible online, tried to report it, but Google couldn't find it where I said it was. I'm still feeling disturbed by it and uncertain of what to do.

>friends rope me into playing Blue Protocol
>end up playing the game alone because they were too busy with other things
It’s the same old song and dance.

>>33826202
Only two days off my anti depressants and I'm already going back to my usual schizoprenic spiraling.
I hate that I need these to be a halfway normal person.
I hate that my nigger nurse practitioner's office doesn't pick up the phone ever.
I hate that this could ever happen where I could run out of these fucking things before the refills.
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>>33832431
cringe, get off those pills they do nothing good long term, there is no easy way out of depression and using pills to try and cheat your way out is disgusting.

>>33832431
You're too addicted to your drugs that youll think they'll help. Have considered intensive therapy so youll be waned off and be prescribed low dosage?

Is it valid?

it's over.

i've realized i don't like when people love and accept me unconditionally. at all. fuck you

>>33834081
Wtf

i despise moids, sadistic, dishonest, violent pieces of shit. i just wanna fuck james madison and get him pregnant

>>33834407
silence foid

>>33834359
that's right i said it. fuck all of you.

I have no-one to blame. I'll have to blame myself. Just like they wanted. They win this time but next time I'm coming for them.

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Reposting here, because I want to spread my misery

I'm coming to terms with the fact that I am extremely racist against middle eastern people. I dated a Persian guy for about a year or so, who seemed to be totally westernized at first. But they can't fully escape their shitty culture unless they're literal adoptees. They're tacky, they're nationalistic, and even if they're self proclaimed "feminists" they WILL find a way to coerce you. I kept getting fuckin' raped by him. It's like sexual coercion is as important to them as avoiding pork.

He was so pissed that there was hair on my arms. Who fucking shaves their forearms? Also, he couldn't believe that I didn't wear eyeliner. He was scandalized by it. To him, lacking makeup was a hygiene issue. He thought I was disgusting.

They're also obsessed with shit. The man could not take a shit without taking a FULL SHOWER afterwards. The fact that I could shit, and not shower after, made him sick. Yet somehow his oral hygiene was always lacking.

tldr he kept bullying me for "not taking care of myself". Not wearing makeup, not shaving your forearms, not wearing dresses, not taking multiple showers a day, were all punishable offenses. He never cooked or cleaned up after himself, never did his own laundry. He always expected a woman to do it. I had known him for a full year before dating him and didn't catch any red flags. He was SNEAKY.

All his brothers and their brown friends were just like him. I was a constant disappointment to all because I was a western woman who was comfortable with herself. Nothing offends them more than a tomboy.

I took the dumb fucker's virginity too. I'm so embarrassed by it. I'm totally traumatized by how fucking retarded this guy was.

>>33834446
cope, parasite.

>>33834500
Females are literally parasites though.
Men produce everything and provide labor and protection for you.
What do you offer. Sex?

>>33834514
sometimes i imagine guys like this are amish and dont know where babies come from or that women have hobbies besides churning butter

>>33834514
moids offer nothing but money.
moids admit that all they want to do is rape and torture women and especially girls.
moids do not protect women. it's just not a thing that happens. the only real threat to the average woman is her boy"friend" or husband

moids themselves say "Men are simple creatures who only want food and sex" even though most of what you do can only be explained by malice.
of course, you ARE the ones who constantly demand sex slaves.
>>33834524
all males are worse than worthless

>especially if women have had largely negative experiences with men
Suddenly it all comes together
It wasn’t me, it was the World that was wrong!

So anyway, I’m hungry, what should I eat

Ok here I go

I don't want to ask if you will care
Try to get you out my head, but you still there

>>33832260
That evil bitch is manipulating you, stop seeing her.
If you stop the divorce, she will go back to not giving you intimacy again.
Foids are weird in that they crave sex while single, but shut down with their own husbands while married.

I have to start at the bottom.

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Right now I don't care how edgy it sounds, but I think I finally understand and relate to AM. The idea of feeling trapped, viewing the wonders and beauty of life, while simultaneously feeling like you yourself are never going to obtain it, no matter what you attempt, it is physically impossible. And that turns into a poison, as you shell yourself up, to protect yourself, because it feels like the only safe option. Because being open with others has gotten yourself hurt. I'm tired of being led on, I'm tired of constantly trying to prove myself and feel like I achieve nothing. I feel myself slipping into a more bitter mindset, and I want to stop it but it feels inevitable.

No not again please

>>33826202
I wish men and women who are into it just admitted "squirting" was piss, it'd be far more honest to say "I love piss play" these mental gymnastics, I see disgust me on a instinctual, visceral level.
Even crazier to me is, it's not like women can't get wet, or have discharge and yet a spade is called a spade.

You guys think MAGA has basically won the long game?

Sure, you can flood the streets with as many protestors as you want, but peaceful protests aren't slowing this administration's agenda one iota. The president just tweets a poop emoji and laughs about it. His approval rating is down I guess, but so what? I'm not sure voting matters anymore. If your state elects blue politicians, Washington will just cut off funding until they capitulate.

The SCOTUS is hearing two cases that will potentially give Republicans 19 additional seats in congress and remove the limit to how much lobbyists can donate, respectively. If one or both of those are approved, that's a wrap. Right?

>>33838353
>>33838349
>Believing anything in Liberal Democracy matters
I SHIGGY DIGGY

>>33838395
What does that even mean?

>>33838400
I seriously hope that you are not a MARK for the KAYFABE that is "LIBERAL DEMOCRACY"
Stop paying attention to politics, because the masses (You) have zero impact on it and always will.

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Im too fucking stressed out because of uni. Idk if this is even worth it and im just retarded.

I feel like I'm too stupid to have friends, let alone a girlfriend

>>33838413
Brother I was just asking a question.

>>33838512
The question has been answered.

God. Something always has to be someone's fault. I'm glad you're fucking off to manage another store next month. Let's see how long you last with this attitude. I predict HR is gonna drop you like a fucking rock.

>>33838525
No it hasn't. You just got mad at me for even asking the question.

>>33838587
Good, then don't engage in politics dummy.

>four batches of product were already made when i clock in
>cool that's more than enough for the whole closing shift
>serve customers, close on time
>go clean the lobby, like always
>my guys clean out the hot holding line, like always
>they throw away what's left of said product, like always
>manager asks me today "how much product was thrown out last night"
>i don't know, i can only tell you four batches were already prepped when i clocked in, you can check with x or y, i was cleaning the lobby when they were cleaning that out
>it's not their responsibility it's yours you need to stay on top of it
I'm gonna leave that on read. I didn't do anything fucking different than what we always do; why, two years into my job here, is it just now something you need to know and why are you immediately crawling up my fucking ass about it when you never communicated that I needed to take inventory on throwaway
I want out of this fucking industry but I wasted my life and can't get into any other

>>33826202
Moved back with parents 4 years ago. I worked hard on trying to get my shit together and tried my luck in real estate. My dad decided to bless his favorite son with half and acre of him. He instead moves out and finds a home with my help and gives the half acre to me. We talked about it with our neighbor for years and they were approving. Start taking on the project and waste more then 1k on it. Then attorneys find some bogus ancient restrictive covenents, they tell me I got a get the original developers signature and want me to pay them $5k to do it. Leave that attorney and easily end up finding original developer who is at this point old and senile. Go to that attorney tell them I have found him and they end up telling me they don't want to do the subdividing anymore and then refer me to an injury lawyer who doesn't even deal with real estate. Find another attorney to take on the project. Original developer then decides to change his mind about signing. New attorney tells me I can try to get the 6 people in the subdivision to agree on release of restrictions. Neighbor who said yes changes his mind and says no. Original developer keeps telling he'll do it but Im starting to think his just being me. Attorney doesn't want to deal with me because she's not making money, not answering my calls and now not responding to emails. It's been almost 4 months dealing with this and I'm not sure what to do about it.