I don't know where to look, whom to ask, or what to do anymore. I beg you for some advice. I have severe issues with my sexuality, that is, with my libido. As far as I can tell, it's been like this forever. As a boy, very early on, probably at the age of 4 or 5, I started experimenting. But not only with myself, also with other girls. I remember putting it in (or at least trying to do so), at the age of 5 or so. I consider that too early; it also got me into trouble a couple of times. This continued until puberty, which is when I got pretty shy. I started masturbating properly, but always kept it to myself. It wasn't until early adulthood, probably around the age of 17/18, that I started doing more deprived shit. I started recording myself gooning, video chatting with other perverts, sending nudes to chicks from our friends groups. I am a lucky bastard that nothing ever leaked (at least no one has ever called me out on anything). My behavior changed whenever I found partners and I could actually get my shit together. But it always seemed as if it slowly creeped back to me. Now, in my late 20s, I realize that this deprived behavior and perverted thoughts will probably never leave on their own. I am conscious enough to understand that this is damaging; not only to myself but especially to others. Girls. They start hating me after a couple of months because I am too shallow and like them for their physical traits. The person itself is important to me, but it always leads to sex in the end. No proper relationships. Currently, I have it under control most of the time. But when I have a bad day, sleep too little, lack something... I start gooning heavily. Sending nudes. Video chatting with strangers. Oh please, does anyone have experience with this? I tried everything but it's always as if there's another personality in me, an evil one, that takes over when things are bad. And everything I worked on vanishes.
>>33827577>gooningOnly love matters bro, it's over.
