wow, how inspirational... another fag asking 4chan for help?I am the prime suspect to be made fun of; im gay, disabled, retarded, stupid leftist, kafka dickrider, self harming pussy, etc. etc.Basically, I need YOU to push me to be better by calling me names on the internet, ill give you some substance to make fun of since its what 4chan does best...>only able to find solace in self-harm e.g cutting myself, overdosing, drinking, smoking, vaping etc.>a homo, i cant help it, i like guys>very antisocial and have never had an irl friendship which has lasted longer than a few months>basically the DSM-5 in human form; ive been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, bulemia, avoidant and restrictive food intake disorder, generalised anxiety disorder, depression, major depressive disorder, oppositional defiance disorder, autism spectrum disorder, body dysmorphia, adhd and some other shit i cant remember the name of..... not to mention im on several anti-depressants and antipsychotics hah>in a load of cringe-worthy fandoms... (weezer, car seat headrest, the summer hikaru died, neon genesis evangelion, goodnight punpun, omori, cry of fear, classic literature, etc...in case you're not creative, heres some inspiration of what does/doesn't get under my skinaffective: stuff about me being a fag (internalised homophobia gonna kill me some day), stuff about my fandoms, stuff about my mental conditionsineffective: racial stuff, religion stuff, most slurs, rape jokes etc..so incels and NEET's do ur best plz
>>33830155>Cry of FearWhy is this Goldsrc mod suddenly so popular among women and fags?
>>33830155Thinly veiled humiliation fetish thread.
>>33830155I'm not even a bug guy but snugbug is cute.
>>33830155:o I.. Im sorry anon, i cant. I don't have that kind of evil in me. :(
>>33830922OP here, i wish it was. I just need help
>>33830917No clue, by suddenly how recent do you mean? Ive been a fan for a few years now..
You need a therapist. You are piloting a body of 23 trillion cells all cheering you on, our dumb minds can't do better than that.
>>33831102wish it was that easy, tried plenty of therapists and types of therapy including DBT, meds, social workers, psychiatry, etc.honestly starting to think the easiest solution is isolation thanks for the nice words though anon :)
>>33830155>only able to find solace in self-harm e.g cutting myself, overdosing, drinking, smoking, vaping etc.Is it numbing your thoughts, or do you feel pleasure in the harm?>basically the DSM-5 in human form; happy childhood, eh? I think I understand the bullying, but it doesn't work well. At some point you feel at least seen when someone is bullying you, or cared about. Beats being ignored I guess.
>>33831268>"Is it numbing your thoughts, or do you feel pleasure in the harm?"Both, at first it was to numb my thoughts, get unwanted emotions out of my head, then honestly i started to really enjoy it, putting cigarettes out on my hand or on fresh cuts genuinely gives me such a rush of endorphins, i really dont know where the line blurs between pleasure and pain anymore>"happy childhood, eh?"Close enough, my childhood wasnt as bad as it couldve been; neglectful emotionally and physically household, basically bullied out of several schools, couple attempts, gr00med online bc i tried to seek the validation i never got from my useless parents, SA'd when i was 11, in and out of edical facilities and therapy most of my younger teen years, could be worse tbf. atleast i had a house over my head most of the time
>>33830155>bully youit wasn't even worth reading all that bullshit you wrote, lol. Just do it or fuck off. No one cares about you more than you do yourself. You aren't worth bullying. That would require me to care.
>>33830155are you gay because moids have no standards?
>>33830155Seek therapy dude, this shit sounds self destructive as fuck.You can't make meaningful change about most of these things before you start accepting yourself the way you are. Trust me, I'm speaking form experience.
