After my girlfriend left me rather blindsidedly, I have sought closure from her. What exactly made her hate me? At what point did she stop loving me?She never told me. She just decided to totally ignore me after the breakup.This has broke something in my brain. Due to not receiving the closure, due to not knowing exactly what I did wrong and why, I have developed fantasies of her sending me a lengthy message where she tells me how much of a pathetic retard loser I am and why I deserve to die alone and why I'm a horrible human being, and such things. It's getting unhealthy. I try to bait her into giving me such a rant, but obviously it doesn't work when she's totally ignoring me.Why am I like this?Why do I want to hear her say all these horrible things?Why am I so mindbroken?
It's called a broken heart. Your mind is grieving and thinks the best way to resolve this problem is to know the answers. You're actually thinking too logically here. Human interaction is sadly not a trial and error thing like mathematics, it's a bunch of vague feelings and shit. You definitely won't get a logical answer from a woman. You might think the next best thing is just to hate everything about yourself to cover the bases, but that's just hurting your ability to move on.Trust me, if there are any reasons, you will learn them over time with introspection. It doesn't have to be fast, she's already left. You'll learn to see the cracks in the hull once your ship stops being tossed in the storm. For now just do whatever you can to heal and give up on that bitch.
>>33831111I thank you for your words. Also checked.Since it has been well over a month since the breakup, I can only now look at this somewhat logically--it even took until today to finally take down the pictures I have of her on my walls and such.Time will... repair my mind, I suppose.
>>33831125Yep, someday you will be able to look at her pictures without it ruining your day. Women get over breakups quicker because they cannot comprehend the depth of love a man can have. Men's love will inspire operas, sculptures, or just stalking. A good way to get closure by yourself is redirect that energy in a creative way. Uncomfortable feelings are a better motivator than being happy.
