Mental illness isn't real, you're in full control of your actions and even your feelings. Jewish "doctors" convinced an entire generation of women that they can act like cunts and that it's ok. There's just something wrong with your brain so it's all okay! You're just a poor little uwu bean that needs to be coddled and maybe have your body filled with pills.
In reality your head is full of demons because you let them live there. You keep entertaining those thoughts and people keep enabling you, which is why you're "BPD". It's the same thing with depression and other made up mental illnessess. Most people would be cured of their bullshit diseases if they went outside and practiced mental hygiene.
No I will not elaborate and I don't need to prove this, it's self evident.

>>33831652
there are some real mental illnesses
however, you're right about "BPD", it isn't one of them.
just take responsibility and admit you're a manipulative asshole

>>33831675
You don’t understand the causes of BPD because you wouldn’t have made such a statement if you did.

>>33831445
1/2

I match the symptoms of C-PTSD to a tee. although labels piss me off in the sense that they make it seem as if the disorder is the cause of your suffering rather than the effect of whatever you went through.

Believe it or not, there is a decent amount of overlap between this and BPD & cluster B, thus why I'm replying... Relationships come and go for me too. Usually, I'm pretty excited and hopeful whenever I first get to interact with someone who catches my attention, who I think is even remotely interesting / fun / cool/ desirable... I'm more than happy to invest in them, to find what they like, to open my heart to them and encourage them to open theirs to me, to make plans together and to make sure they have something to come back to at the end of a long day.

However, my mind is VERY susceptible to feeling disappointed and that's when my issues start to show up. It's almost as if as soon as I feel as if the other person can't live up to the messed up idea I have made of them in my mind, my empathy for them shuts off completely. I don't cause or wish them harm in any way, it's simply the fact that I couldn't give a crap whether they're doing fine or not anymore. I usually still pretend to care but deep down, I know I'm only doing it because it's more convenient / it's the "acceptable" action / I realize I'm mentally ill and can't control or help it in any way. I don't typically lose my frame, nobody even realizes what's going on in my head because I still act "normal" but ofc, deep down, that loneliness and ever consuming void, that feeling as if I'm not human and the guilt revolving around it all is killing me. It's sucking every drop of energy and vigor out of me.

>>33831730
2/2
Maybe this isn't necessarily the answer you were looking for but I want to be truthful with you. From someone who is actually going through similar struggles rather than a normie trying to virtue signal... I'm unsure if there is any easy answer or cure. What helped me was to first learn how to stop fighting against the tide. I noticed how bashing myself about how bad of a person am I was tiring and causing me more issues in my relationships than the symptoms themselves. This world isn't made for people like us. Expecting them to want to understand you is a pipedream, let alone accept it. If you can swallow that, it becomes a little easier to manage.

Isolating feels good since that's one of the few times where you can actually sort of feel at peace but we both know it's a temporary solution. I guess the only thing you could really do long term is to try to find the strength within you to still see beauty beyond the scope of what hinders you in the current moment and cling into that with all of your heart until the moment passes. That's a good habit to try to implement. You can't really do much more when you are filled with rage or sadness. Hope is the foundation of everything, you can only really lose the moment you cannot find any. Sounds cringy and all but it's true..

Another thing that somewhat helped me be more emotionally regulated was to try to find goals and build a life disconnected from the relational needs of my mind where I could retreat to in case nothing else works out. For example, right now I'm in the process of decorating my room, I like how it's going and that brings me happiness regardless of how everything else is going.

Other than that, I don't know what more to say. I really do hope you can find some peace and i'll be rooting for ya! okay?

>>33831780
thanks man, it means a lot knowing im not alone in this :)

>>33831445
have you tried lamictal?

>>33833122

Man I wish I had solid advice that fixes everything, but for me a mix of fighting for my life with DBT to control myself AND finding my person who GETS IT and is patient enough to let me safely practice open communication but also call me on my shit has helped so much. On top of being very aware of when I'm acting out, having my favorite person (gently but firmly) remind me when I'm being a little bitch is fucking unmatched. I've made more progress in the year we've been together than my years of muscling through on my own or with people who didn't understand me. And having someone be so patient and bluntly acknowledge when I'm pushing him away just makes me want to lock the fuck in and get my shit together even harder. For him and for us.
It is tough that the relationship issues that come with BPD can't really be worked on until you are actually in a relationship again, and that flare ups of long-cured problems (cutting, substance abuse, etc.) may resurface as a result. But doing it with the right sort of person is extremely important.

I see people on BPD forums do their DBT perfectly but they're with someone who doesn't really like them or is avoidant or doesn't get it, so I feel like it's good to remember we aren't always the issue either. And to the right person our passion is appreciated and loved, it just needs to be trained. Best of luck, OP.

>>33831652
>entire generation of women
im not even a woman lmfao get off your high horse incel

>>33834182
thanks so much, ive wanted to go to DBT for a while and have been using online resources to try and recreate DBT because i cant currently afford it, hopefully I will soon, best of luck to you too

>>33831675
BPD is a genuine condition, i do understand that my actions can be at times rude but i actively try to change, maybe if you spent some time actually learning psychology/psychiatry you'd understand a thing or two instead of dwelling in your mums basement all day fapping to women who'll never want you ㄟ( , )ㄏ