I recently found out that I have autism and yes, it explained why I always felt like a piece of shit.I can't maintain eye contact with people, I suck at humor and reading people. Altough I somehow managed to bag a goth baddie, despite having multiple panic attacks a day and started working as a sales agent for a small time firm.All the time, I feel shame and guilt, and I don't know how to get this sorted out. People say that I should be myself but I don't feel it's okay for me to do that. Even though I was working as a CSR in multiple companies for several years, I can't manage to keep a job since we are having a financial crisis in my country. People get fired left and right and jobs are difficult to come by. I have severe meltdowns and I can't keep up with all the shit that is going on. I can't talk to anyone about this since I feel like a burden every time I speak. Therapy is out of the question as I don't have any money on me.I needed to get this off my chest so please don't mind.
>>33833947I believe the 2020's are the testing phase God is putting us through. Hang strong man, we're gonna make it.
