I currently have a cold. I know that I cannot work in this condition, but not being able to go to work feels like a loss of control, as if I were useless. I only started recently and was quite grateful to be able to help out quickly because a colleague was ill. I was hired through a temp agency, and they were impressed, in their words, to have gotten such a likeable, competent young man, since you never know who you're going to get from a temp agency. It's a good position to be in, as others depend on me and I was even able to score points in other ways. Now that I'm ill, however, it feels like a loss of control. And today I embarrassed myself at the GP's office. They have an electronic certificate of incapacity for work, and because I was afraid I hadn't remembered the details correctly, I came back later to ask for a printout, where I was told that I should have mentioned this before, so I left without saying anything else, so as not to cause any inconvenience. It feels like an embarrassment.But I'm so afraid of having the wrong date in my head, even though I know I heard it correctly, because I don't want to make a mistake. It already feels unfair on my part that I'll be sick for so long, but what can I do?
>>33835545No one cares. Do you just sneeze badly or?
>>33835608I have fever, cough up yellow mucus and feel weak :(Anyway, I also don't want to spread anything around
>>33835615Good luck, I'll pray for you, maybe a mask would be for the best. Have you told your employer about the details?
>>33835623Well, I am on sick leave anyway, so I will just come back when I am well.I work with vulnerable people, so I absolutely shouldn't come in order to not spread disease
Feeling worthless doesn't cause a lack of narcissistic traits. It horseshoe theorys back around and makes someone very narcissistic, because all they can do is think about how they mess up and how they are a piece of shit all the time. It's still me, me, me thinking, just on the opposite side of the spectrum.Honestly the entire image seems like bollacks that exists because someone wants to give a special label to their insecurities.
>>33835667>Feeling worthless doesn't cause a lack of narcissistic traits. It horseshoe theorys back around and makes someone very narcissistic, because all they can do is think about how they mess up and how they are a piece of shit all the time. It's still me, me, me thinking, just on the opposite side of the spectrum.Bull's eye! This is my actual diagnosis and what you describe is perfectly congruent with my experience.My therapist said the emotionally unstable part is the core of my disorder, and the histrionic and narcissistic parts are "strategies" which arose from that.For quite some time I desperately wanted to give myself worth by achievements and being more able than others, just so I am worth something.
Now I feel really like shit, cold sweat and all
