My therapy sessions are making me realize I truly do not enjoy anything in real life. The only way for me to enjoy something is if it can create headspace that I am not me and live elsewehere on another space and time. So my joy is entirely dependant on how much I can focus on running away from reality. My ability to cope with existence is entirely dependant on my ability to run away from it, to do something with my brain that drags me away from it all.Was I really just born to die? I really dont get it as to what the fuck am I supposed to do with it all. Everything I do irl is burdensome, painful and annoying, I can only feel happiness when it doesnt exists and I am completely submerged in my fantasies. Why the fuck should I even care what happens to my body at all? I can come up with anything. My ideal life would probably just be coma.
>>33836001Make art from your fantasies, or write stories. Take care of your body so you can create better, treat it like a machine you need to do maintenance on. Meal prep and go on walks everyday. Keep it simple and habitual.
Therapy is a meme. You know all the things that you need to do already, there is tons of information on the internet and ChatGPT. The only thing it is good for is venting if you have no friends to be your emotional dump. But that you can use ChatGPT for too. Without the other putting pseudo science in your head and hooking you up on expensive (for you or your insurance) sessions.
>>33836029Good morning saar, do not redeem the therapy saar.
>>33836015I dont want to create art. Creating anything into this world is meaningless. The key to all joy is being a mind only being. Art is just stressful. Even to just think about. Its all work work work>>33836029My therapy is state sponsored "rehabilitation" for people with disability. I need to show up for neetbux
>>33836039>art is meaninglessYou’d be surprised what you tap into when you make it. You can’t find everything in the mind alone. You are limiting yourself. It’s food for your mind.
>>33836029>ChatGPThello saar
>>33836045I have made it brother. It's pointless, I hate it. Even if I reach a goal as I imagined it I feel absolutely nothing. If anything frustration. I should have just spent my time in my thoughts.
>>33836001>>33836131Alright well I guess it's over as there is apparently no hope for you from your own words. Guess you get to continue existing or kill yourself.I often don't waste my energy on your types since it seems to go nowhere. I'm gonna enjoy my life while you wilt away into nothingness and I will never think of you again after a week at most.So actually do something about it or give up.
>>33836029so much information on chatgpt, saar
>>33836001A lot of this anxiety is a creation of wealth and abundance. Life can feel purposeless when you already have a roof over your head and food on the table. Struggle actually IS a purpose, to have to wake up every day and earn your life.
>>33836001>if it can create headspace that I am not me and live elsewehere on another space and time.Compare your actual life to this "headspace", figure out why you find so much joy in that headspace, whether this joy is even worthwhile or if it is based off of meaningless junk...You clearly are fantasising some sort of "ideal" life, and have put it on a pedestal - you need to really assess this "ideal" life and bring it down again. Figure out what aspects can be applied to your actual life, figure out what can't, figure out the risk reward probabilities, take back your own life. Trivialise the components that are unfeasible and frankly just bullshit
>>33836001Same anon, I've always (or at least since my teens) felt the same way, even when things are amazing for me it fades away after a day or so. It's gotta be some kinda sperg thing too because I always do stupid shit like act like I'm my favorite character in private. But you can't keep acting on these fantasies because if you're anything like me it means you neglect basic things about yourself like hygiene and just lay in your filth for months.
>>33838860I dont really fantasize about ideals. There is lots of nasty stuff there. But thinking is enjoyable while physically existing is not. Thats the key difference. >>33836984Lol you are acting as if I forced you here in the first place. >>33837005It is purposeless because I cannot feel joy within it, not because it lacks some grand reason. Not having to concern myself with survival is in fact the only reason to hold onto life in that sense that living allows me to continuously dream. The ideal though would be if I was just brain in the bottle and didnt have to bother with anything physical at all
>>33836001As a recovering shut in NEET that has mainly lived in their imagination for 9 years as their main source of entertainment, I can tell you that your perfect fantasy world will eventually wind up being a dull and repetitive demented thought loop focusing on the same themes and stories if you don't go out and experience the novelties of the external world. Whether that's through media, which is influenced by the creator's real life experiences, or by simply going outside and taking notice of the world is enough.Neurologically, your imagination is fundamentally tied to the memories that you have formed from the real world and to have never experienced anything real would mean you would have no imagination at all. Even by the fact of enjoying something in your imagination means you have also enjoyed it, or something related to it, in real life.
