>32>dropped out of HS, took GED, passed easy so I'm not a complete idiot but probably have a learning disability/autism>never held any jobs that were more than entry level>took my CDL A (semi truck) road test two times, first time failed for hitting a curb, second time (today) hit a curb in the fucking parking lot, before even making it to the real road, did way worse than before besides trying to mentally prepare as much as possibleI think I'm actually retarded despite having 105 IQ (taken by professional). Should I just kms? I can't seem to do anything because my anxiety just ruins me and everything devolves into a sensory overload. I don't think I can handle an office environment (the social aspect and now doubting my mental capacity), I tried trades and hated the work environment there too. With trucking I could just be alone all day, even it it's boring.The only thing I that gave me hope was that this CDL would get me a real career, and my GF, who I care about deeply but I'm considering breaking up with her now. I don't know how she tolerates me being such a loser. Shes not a winner herself but she mogs me in most aspects of life (shes likely autistic as well to some extent, and no I didn't plan on having kids)
