it's been 1 year and 11 months since I found out my ex wife was cheating on me for months, maybe years, while actively gaslighting me into thinking I'm crazy and insecure the entire time her affairs have been going on.Of course I dipped that exact moment, and my life has been spiraling ever since. I've become an alcoholic, a drug addict, started balding and gaining fat. I try not to think about it, have been actively going to therapy as well, but it doesn't seem to help. Nothing does. I'm 32 now, and had hoped to have a wife and kids at this point. Her family was going to leave us a giant house in the countryside.I've tried forcing myself into fitness, going out, 'glowing up', and all the other bullshit bring fed to me from all sides, but it doesn't work. I don't want to 'talk' to other women, the thought disgusts me. I don't know what I want except to strangle her for ruining my life.When does this shit end and when am I going to be free?
It won't end on it's own. It's up to you. Do you really want some cheating cunt taking up that much headspace? Does she deserve even a second of your time after cheating on you? She doesn't. I'm not gonna pretend my life is together and that I'm some jacked alpha and that working out and eating right will solve all your problems or anything. I'll just say that you've got to move on in spite of her. Fuck her. She doesn't deserve you thinking about her as much as you are. Fuck that bitch. Try and move on.
