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How do you cope with getting m(...) 10/25/25(Sat)04:47:00 No.33853430

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How do you cope with getting molested? Anonymous 10/25/25(Sat)04:47:00 No.33853430

I keep telling myself that my experience was normal enough, but even amongst this cornucopia of fucked up people, I almost never see anyone talking about it.
Where do you even begin with therapy for something like this, when the mere idea of putting your name down for an appointment feels like inviting the one who did it to come take revenge on you for blabbing? When you know you won't be able to talk about it anyway, even if you wanted to?
Where do you even begin trying to pursue a romantic relationship when you know the first instance of intimacy is going to send you into a panic? There was a time where I could cover for that shit under guise of being a mousey virgin but that ship has sailed and idk wtf I'm supposed to tell the next person so they don't ask too many questions. And even then, how are you even supposed to even BE in a relationship, if not formfitting yourself around being whatever your partner wants you to be at any given moment to make sure they never even have the opportunity to hurt you?
What is love? Baby don't hurt me, unironically.

I genuinely feel like I've been mandella effected into a universe where I've been retconned as having gotten molested, it's so fucking weird. Like I always knew what happened, but I avoided thinking about it enough that I never connected it to that word, and now that I have and can see how it connects to the way I am as a person, I can't stop fucking thinking about it and I've forgotten how to fucking function.