>be me>mentally ill>depressed and anxious all the time>meet girl who is similarly fucked up>instantly click and we start going out>first time i felt loved in my entire life>have a breakdown six months in>nothing had happened, im just ill>she blocks me, gets aggressive, never wants to see me again>i get put in a psych ward for 2 weeks, overkill and the worst experience ive ever had>after a month or so we talk again>we rebuild the relationship slowly, i dont blame her>we avoid making the same mistakes, we learn from each other>9 months in, doing good, ocassionally fight but never to a breaking point>we have a bad day together, mostly my fault, acted like a baby which made her mad>we have a bad fight, however end the day on a good note before i leave>things had been rocky the last week and a half, i had a couple of minor fuck ups which even if not major justifiably made her mad>a couple of days later i have an attack like i used to, hadnt happened in forever>get pushy through messages, i dont really have anyone else to talk about this, shes my support>ask her for help, she gets aggresive and thinks i just want attention because shes mad>we fight, same sequence again, tells me she will block me everywhere except dms for a week and then we will talk and see if we keep going>tells me i manipulate her and dont care about her, even if im always trying to make her life easier since i know she struggles like me>tells her family all I want is sex even though we barely ever have it, and i always ask if she actually wants to because she doesnt really have much of a libido, me neither>now her family thinks im basically a psychotic rapist and wont let me back in her house>she had promised she wouldnt leave again after i said i was scared of itWhy would she do this? i did make her mad, that I understand, but why leave?She will be "back", but we wont be able to do anything together anymore.Should I just let her calm down and not trust her anymore?
>>33862167Mind you all of this was on the phone. Both times I had a breakdown. She'd never talk to me that way in person.
>>33862167god this is horrible read, anon, did she have bpd? i hope for the best, God bless you
>>33862167this is awful anon, i understand it is painful but this sounds like one of those situations where you need to leave and not look back before things become catastrophic :( u seem like a cool dude if u like louis wain, its never too late to make new friends and grow ur social support network
>>33862167it baffles me how women get into relationships with people like you while i'm handholdless at 28 like what? i actually have a personality and i don't have regular mental breakdowns, skinny af, decent height, interesting to talk to, laid back, talented, into anime and shit, but i can't find anyone and will probs spend the rest of my life alone.
>>33862167Sounds like it was too volatile to work out anon. Sometimes meeting someone who shares many of the same struggles only amplifies them. Sorry for how tough it was though. I’d suggest waiting to meet someone new. Take a breath and let yourself be with yourself.
>>33865240Supreme gentleman is baffled
>>33862167Being depressed and anxious doesn’t cancel her female instincts and purposeDepression isn’t a loophole to skip mating ritualsYou either show value or antivalueWhen you show antivalue you get rightfully rejectedGet your shit together and stop acting like a sneaky fucker> i’m depressed, will you date me?Fuck off with that shitYou either bring her whatever she needs or you dontThere is no escaping this law of natureBtw she can still ruin you if you do bring her whatever she needs: you need to guard yourself as well
>>33864623I think so, I may have it too honestly.I pity her anyway.>>33865240All you need to do is make her have a nice time.Im also built and tall, and I have a nice job, so what? It's irrelevant in this situation.Most women just want someone to make them feel good and thats it.>>33866721I know this obviously.Thing is I do everything you say, I know how women work, but I still have these retarded illnesses that fuck my life up.My mistake was thinking that she'd understand because she has similar conditions.I never asked her to date me because I'm depressed really, I didn't expect her to.
>>33864696I mean i have friends, im not a lonely person in the literal sense of the word, but i do feel aloneI love her thats about itSo its over I guess?
>>33862167>be mentally ill retard>act mentally ill>surprised when people think you're a psycho
