How do you make it to 40/50+ plus as a single guy with no kids? Why should you care past that point? How do you care?
idk I'm 32, freshly single. Love alcohol and drugs, hate women, simple as
>>33863966How?
>>33864001every woman I've ever loved cucked me in the end, so I just lost myself in a drunken, drug hazed stupor and never came back. Every day is wake'n bake and day drinking day, every weekend is coke fueled regret.You'd never think it, but I'm a supervisor in a niche company that operates globally but I can barely supervise myself.
>>33863963Get things you're excited about. I'm learning piano and now I can sing a lot better. I'm writing books I'm excited about. Lots of other stuff too. Oh, also passportbro.
>>33864027Being a smart enough person to still function well while being under the influence 90% of the time fucking sucks.
>>33864027How the fuck do you function?>>33864036But I can't force myself to enjoy things
>>33864039Tell me about it, I wanted to kill myself since I was 15 but the thought of breaking my mother's heart is enough to stop me.>>33864044Cigarettes and energy drinks during company hours only.I'll tell you when I get liver cirrhosis or lung cancer.
>>33864044Don't enjoy them for the first year then.
>>33863966>I love drugs and drugs.Weird way to say I'm unhappy.
>>33864113what else is there when you have no meaningful relationships due to being a sociopath?No, seriously, tell me.
>>33864065>Tell me about it, I wanted to kill myself since I was 15 but the thought of breaking my mother's heart is enough to stop me.That’s about when it started for me too. I backslid pretty heavily into substance abuse after a terrible breakup too, but I at least don’t hate women for it. Just one woman.It’s genuinely scary how even when my mind is running at less than half of its potential that I’m still well-spoken and good what I do. Makes me feel like a sham a lot of the time.
>>33864120Explain to me how your response to my post was at all a coherent reply or at all even remotely related to my point.
>>33864128no shit I'm unhappy and my chronic substamce abuse being a symltom of it, Sherlock.I'm saying I have nothing else. I am mentally ill and my personality is fake
>>33864168Ok
>>33863966>>33864027Literally me but I'm 33 and been single about 6 months. TBF the last one didn't cuck me but she revealed something icky about her past and life is too short to spend it with some icky leftover chick.I'm a C-suite at a startup that's raised a few million. If I'm this bad now, when I get real cash after exiting I'll probably become a monster >>33864044If you're above midwit IQ and have decent motivation you can focus and concentrate on your motor skills and thoughts. It usually results in the bare minimum getting done and shitposting during work hours, case in point. But yeah this >>33864113 is our reality and>>33864065>I'll tell you when I get liver cirrhosis or lung cancer.This is our fate. I'm trying to quit weed, reduce the drinking to social only, and not buy ciggies to kill hangovers and fuel late nights. Not too successful but I have an accountability buddy and it's helped me spend a few more days sober than I would have, so it's a start.The real work is in filling the void I'm so desperately trying to stuff with drugs, booze and hookers.
>>33864185yeah it sucks man. Where I live weed is legal and I lie to my shrink to get the best shit + SSRIs
It’s pretty funny that being too smart for your own good and that drinking and smoking yourself stupid to poorly cope with it is such a universal experience. Wait that isn’t funny it’s sad
>>33863963I'm still only 27, but I don't see myself married with kids. I see myself in my 70s fucking cheap hookers in underground Asian brothels. So basically, nothing would be different.
>I'm so smart that I'm a alcoholicI don't know man maybe you're really fucking dumb instead
