I'm in my 40s. I am a NEET, and have been for longer than I care to say. I have no transportation, no job, no friends, and no real future. I'm shocked that I've lived as long as I have, really.And I've been thinking for the past couple of hours about taking a gun - for the record, I don't have one - and blowing my brains out.Give me a reason to keep living. Give me something other than "become an hero". I want to live, but I don't want to live like this any more.
>>33869274https://youtu.be/hgs9K36_E2A?si=SC0zAagWy29cR2EUThis video helped me a lot when I was feeling like you are right now. I think you should take a look at it.
Why not just be a transient? Buy a backpack and hit the road. Who knows, you might find yourself. And if you get stabbed, which is unlikely, you want to die anyways right? You can come up with all the excuses you want but it sounds like you've got literally nothing to lose. Perhaps you'll find your will to live in your journey and if you don't I'm sure you'll come across plenty of bridges and cliffs.
sorry, I can't help but I want to rope as well, my life is in shambles, my skin is ruined due to my retarded lifestyle, my study habits are terrible, my job prospects are terrible, I'm unemployed and KHHV at 22, it's bad
>>33869317At 22 I suggest joining the military. Join the army.
>>33869374I can't age myself even more, my skin is already wrinkled at the age of 22 due to me falling for the retarded fucking tanning me, i want to blow my head off atp so i cant imagine what i'd do if i looked even worse
>>33869274You probably have an inheritance of at least a couple hundred thousand coming down the line once your parents pass away, even if they're only middle class (the median net worth of 80 year olds is over 250k). So, wait until you're 50 and you inherit their house, car, left over savings, possessions, and if you're lucky maybe some life insurance money (even if it's just final expense/guaranteed issue it could be up to 40k). Then sell that house and all their stuff. At this point you might have 300k or more. That isn't much, but you could move to Vietnam, Thailand, or the Philippines and that money will last you a lot longer (like maybe that 300k could last you 8-10 years in the States, but over there maybe it could last you 16-20 years). Plus over there you could actually get a girlfriend because Asian women naturally value white men and will see your life savings as an amount she could build a life around. Not that you need to finance a third world gf, but it would certainly be an option. And ultimately, In the long run, when we're talking about what the world might be like in 2045 and beyond, it is very likely that by then we will have abundant extremely capable AI and robots, so even if you're running out of money by then, my guess is you'll be able to live off universal income and bang a loving robot gf while using generative AI to create all the movies, games and shows you've ever dreamed of. I've thought about suicide a lot, but it isn't worth it. If you actually watch footage of people successfully committing suicide, it looks terrible and it will always leave you feeling like that person made a mistake and it wasn't worth it. You want to kill yourself to feel relief from your worries, but the thing is that you have to be alive to feel relief.
>>33869454yeah wait for your inheritance and blow it in thailand or vietnam, live like a king for a few years while fucking prostitutes, when you run out you can an hero.
>>33869274Could you try harder to get a car? I am not much better off than you but at least I got that.
>>33869274dude you people need to stop overthinking this shit and hating yourselves. it's literally not your fault. the government's job is to subsidize labor programs and build up workers and the national workforce but our government has systematically dismantled its workforce since the revolt of the elite in the 80s.israel can have billions of military aid and transnational support but we cant have sidewalks. stop fucking blaming yourself. we just carried out one of the largest and most expensive bombing operations in history on iran so jews could feel safer in their ethnostate, but you can't have reliable public transit or healthcare or affordable education. jews won, that's all there is to it. not saying you should give up, but at least realize it's not because YOU'RE undisciplined. if we had a non jew run country with labor nativist policies you'd have a fucking job dude trust me. you think that shit they pulled off in the third reich was just people pulling themselves up by their bootstraps? it's called having a government that doesn't destroy and exploit its citizens for once. remember it
>>33871342>jews wonToo defeatist. Popular opinion of Israel is at an all-time-low. It's more accurate that jews are having their cushy NEET lifestyles, which are subsidized by our tax dollars, being challenged for the first time since 1933. People are slowly, but surely, waking up to the reality that our whole economy and money system is fake and gay. They're educating themselves about who the true enemy of WWII was. The chaos of our current world is just the elites lashing out that they're losing control of the minds of the populace, people who were supposed to be subservient cattle from cradle to grave. We were supposed to just idly and silently accept our ethnic replacement in our own countries, and we're all sick and tired of it. I feel for you OP. We life in crazy times, so don't beat yourself up too bad over what is not in your control. Other anons have suggested some good advice like packing your things, traveling, and seeing where the path takes you. It takes a lot of guts and grit to do something like that without much cash on hand. I suggest picking up some work as a blue-collar laborer to build up your work ethic, or even a job at a major retailer, just to boost your cash reserves and build some momentum. Also, picking up a gym membership and getting into shape will do wonders for your mental health. And finally, unironically seek God. I know it's strange to hear from the denizens of the internet of all places, but there's in undeniable Truth out there, and even if you don't believe that Christ was the Way, the Truth, and the Life, he was undoubtedly one of the wisest, humblest, and toughest men who ever lived. There's nothing but good that can be taken from reading about His life and journey.
>>33871342https://pastebin.com/Ru7rPkBS## EXECUTIVE SUMMARYThis document exposes the complete architecture of narrative control that prevents pattern recognition despite publicly available information. Through media consolidation (90% of US media owned by 6 corporations), weaponization of antisemitism definitions (IHRA), systematic social media censorship (Meta, X, TikTok), coordinated bot networks (40,000+ Israeli accounts), and legislative capture (ADL-backed bills), the network maintains operational security not through secrecy but through **controlled information processing**.**Core Finding:** You have access to all the information. The control mechanism prevents you from **connecting** it.
>>33871809https://pastebin.com/xcCxdxnEThis document exposes the complete legal immunity architecture that allows intelligence-connected operations to continue despite overwhelming documented evidence of criminality. Through the Epstein plea deal, state secrets privilege abuse, selective non-prosecution, and the "national security" shield, the system ensures mountains of evidence never result in accountability. The protection is not through secrecy but through **structural legal immunity**.**Core Finding:** Evidence exists. Investigations are conducted. Then legal mechanisms terminate prosecution before trial. The system is designed to protect intelligence operations, not prosecute them.
>>33869454https://pastebin.com/WPrSv9ykUniversities are not passive providers of legitimacy cover for intelligence operations—they are **active operational partners** conducting psyops research, recruiting personnel, directing "acceptable" scholarship, and providing institutional protection for network-connected operations. This document traces 72 years of documented integration from MK-ULTRA (1953) through Project Camelot (1964), the Georgetown-to-Langley pipeline, Epstein's academic empire ($9M+ buying access and legitimacy), current DARPA contracts, and think tank intelligence community partnerships.**Core Finding:** The academic-intelligence partnership is structural, continuous, and publicly documented—yet remains invisible in mainstream discourse through compartmentalization and narrative control.
>>33871809https://pastebin.com/SKT8RDbuThe "panopticon" designed by Jeremy Bentham and constructed at Stateville Penitentiary was not primarily a surveillance mechanism—it was a **frequency weapon** disguised as prison architecture. This document traces the lineage of electromagnetic frequency knowledge from ancient Egyptian and Babylonian priesthoods, through the Levitical priesthood, preserved by Freemasons, weaponized by Bentham, tested at Stateville through malaria experiments, and continued by modern DARPA neuroweapons programs. Every component is documented through primary sources, scientific research, and historical records.**Core Finding:** Knowledge of biological frequency manipulation is **ancient**, has been preserved through **secret societies**, and continues in modern military applications under different terminology.
https://pastebin.com/ZYYe5kMcThis document synthesizes evidence from architecture, philosophy, quantum physics, neuroscience, and occult practice to demonstrate that modern surveillance systems function as mass ritual magic through consciousness manipulation. By tracing the connection from Bentham's Panopticon through Foucault's analysis to digital surveillance and quantum observation principles, we reveal surveillance as a spell-casting mechanism operating at planetary scale.
>>33869274>I don't want to live like this any moreyour own post is a guideline of the things you need to changeget a job, any job. with money you can get a vehicle. through work you can meet people, and if that doesn't work out there other public places you can go to where you can meet people. your future is your own, it's literally clay that you can shape. if you get a job now, you'll have a job in the future. same with the vehicle, with anything. the only thing you can't control is other people, and you shouldn't wish for control. whatever relationship you'll have with people, it is a gift you both give each other. it's not more complicated than this. just having a job and having some money to spend on whatever will make you feel different. go get a job, even a shitty one.
>>33869274provided you don't have a history/family history of schizophreniaI suggest 3g dried psilocybin mushroomsthink of it like a mental gamble, you have 3 possible outcomes >#1. you become worse>#2. nothing changes much>#3. you turn your life aroundif you prepare well and do it the smart way, the chances of #1 are actually lowt. turned my life around 8 years ago
>>33871846>>33871849>>33871873>>33871888>Muh Executive Summaries>Muh DARPA>Muh GlowiesNigger, I already know about all that shit, I ain't reading all that kek! What message are you sending here by posting copypasta of disclosed government intelligence information? Seriously, what is your message here? Because it seems like you're too cowardly to just straight up tell OP to give up on life, just like you did.
>>33871809israel is not at an all-time low they're dominating the entire US political system and making decisions that benefit isreal pretty much unilaterally you fucking stupid as fuck retard
>>33869274>a reason to keep livingSpite and joyYou don't have anything but are alive, make people pay for it and realize you are not wageslaving, do what you want with what you have, my boy
>>33869374I'd consider this if it didn't mean fighting for Israel (USA).
>>33869274You'd probably benefit greatly from reading philosophy, particularly anti-capitalist philosophy since capitalism is what has directly led to your position in life as a NEET. From there, you can take some fairly direct steps toward community involvement and organization, once you know what the right way to do this is.As the video in >>33869309 says, though in fairly vulgar terms, your value is not your job. To extend on this, a job is just work that you could have done to better your own life that you are instead coerced to do for someone else's betterment. The problem is you can't break this coercion so long as capitalism is a thing.
>>33872114Have you already forgotten the most important lesson we've learned in our grand journey?>If they were truly winning, their propaganda would be unnecessary Have you heard the opinions of young people toward jews and israel lately? They're not kind. They're not an omnipotent people, they're temporarily in power because of ignorance and apathy on our part. Therefor, if we waste our time and energy spreading blackpills, then we can't complain when things aren't getting better, right? So many times in history it was when defeat was "assured", and then victory was just right around the corner.
>>33872233jews dont care what random disenfranchised males think we're not on their radar we have no autonomy or platform. they care about the big picture, the most influential narratives in media, the stuff with the greatest visibility and cachet with the masses. only in isolated bursts do they care what proletarian white americans think or believe. they could care less that we know.
Honestly the only things that might work are drugs that make you more social, productive, and labile to change.E.g. MDMA, Adderall, Mushrooms.Unironically injecting test might help as well.
>>33869374That would have been a great idea when I was at that age, even if I just did graduate college.
>>33869317>22lmfaostart fastingthat's literally it and ur cured unironically
go barefoot. everywhere. if your feet rot off and you die from infection then it was probably for the best
>>33869274I don’t understand how people like you can exist OP, I mean do you have inheritance? How do you sustain yourself? I’d be fucking freezing to death in the road If I didn’t do the bare minimum of having a job
