I mean im happy go lucky anon but from time to time my mood gets ruined when i remember i almost logged out irlgod that sounds gay
>>33872472EMDR is a meme BTW.(You) get STRONGER and that PTSD becomes easier and more manageable. WAGMI.Maybe see a Therapist or a Doctor or something. Suicidal Ideation is a bummer.
I've heard that some people get PTSD when they do something that is outside of their self-concept. For example, a country boy joins the army and goes off to war and ends up killing a bunch of people. It's so far out of line from what he thought he was capable of that it causes him huge amounts of stress after the fact.In your case, you probably never imagined you would ever do X, so when you almost did it, it was almost as if you were having an identity crisis. I'm not exactly sure of how to solve your problem, but I think an important first step is taking time to really examine yourself and understand who you are.
