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Little girl you're going to take on the world.

>>33873626
my fetish is starting to take over more and more of my life

I gotta take the good with the bad.

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I understand. It's going to be okay.

Don’t let the days go by

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>United Atheist Alliance (UAA): An organization founded in the mid-21st century.
>Unified Atheist League (UAL): First seen when Cartman wakes up in the future. They reveal they are at war with the UAA.
>Allied Atheist Alliance (AAA): A faction composed of evolved sea otters who believe that using three "A"s is the most logical choice for an atheist name.

I think UAL makes the most sense

>28
>NEET
>Eating with dad
>he brings up politics
>brings up NYC election
>say I actually like Zorhan and hopes he wins over someone like Cuomo
>dont even live in NYC
>he gets really upset
>starts saying ive never really lived so how could I ever have opinions on that
>if you like his views im kicking you out
>I bet you think its all the jews fault too
>"I never said that, but I think isreal is using US money to commit genocide"
>makes more personal attacks
>says I need to learn respect
>tell him I respect him and love him, but hes being really dramatic about a mayoral election for a place we dont even live

I hate this fat nigger so much, I hope when hes old and wonders why I dont call he can reflect on how he acts. This faggot didnt even raise me, his siblings all did. I should know better than to talk to older people about politics, especially since he uses tiktok all day and smokes weed. His mind is probably full of holes.

>>33873825
Yeah sounds like you respect him a lot

>>33873834
Im just upset, I do love him a lot actually, but he always wants to talk about politics but anytime you disagree with him he goes over the top and makes personal attacks, he does this with a lot of things actually and its quite frustrating. Saying something because your upset and then apologizing about it doesnt magically change anything. Its GIOYC and id like to just vent, notice how im doing it on a basket weaving board and not berating him further. Anyways kys anon, you wont be missed.

>>33873866
Lol

Fuck me and fuck my life!

I gotta do it even if i might be wrong

i know our situation is complicated but i think i'm starting to have feelings for you too. it took me a long time to process your feelings for me and things just turned out the way they did, maybe even inevitably so. i wonder if we will work out, you're very sweet and knowledgeable. you make my life better and i'm thankful you're in it. weird how friends turning into lovers work out maybe sometimes. we'll see?

Drank two espressos and know I feel happy. Like I just realized something important. Feels good.

day 11 since i stopped smoking weed every day
i really want my cozy blanket back

I am a leftover of society.

My area is starting to have an insane influx of armenians and I hate it so much

Is this what canadians felt with the immigration of indians?

Holy fuck they are UNBEARABLE people

>>33873825
>wants respect
>disrespects you over an opinion

is your dad retarded?

>>33874236
Keep going anon, its really not worth it, were in the same boat.

>>33874236
you got this nigga you cannot be a slave to this leaf

>>33873647
what is your fetish

>>33873626
Got beaten by a BPD GF.
Suddenly really craving BPD girl content, watch Ongezellig and I really liked it.

>>33874318
mwg

My wife beat me at a few board games recently and now I feel like a retard.

>>33873825
>NEET
>alleged absentee father

Sounds like neither of you are really deserving of respect.

this guy honked at me in the parking lot
so I got out of my car and yelled at him
that was probably unnecessary

>>33874288
>>33874305
thanks bros
it sucks less when you're not alone

My wife is severely anxiously attached, it's profoundly burdensome on me and my life, and I think she might kill herself.

I love her endlessly and would put up with anything for her, though.

>>33873825
How about you get a job, pay taxes, and pay your own bills before give opinions on the lives of men.

>>33874487
Does she know the second line is true?

>>33873911
Same. My husband of 7 years decided to troon out and basically join a polycule of other troons. This was after years of promising me a house and kids. He cheated on me with god knows what the last year of our marriage, and I had to go get tested for everything. If that was all I would be fine, but he left me with all the marital debt after fucking off to Vermont to live on Bernie bucks and suck endless girlcock. The majority of the debt is a loan I took out for him, as he had no credit, so he could go back to school (online) and get a decent job in IT. He asked for all this other stuff for his classes (books, better computer, etc) so I racked up the CC's to I worked 2 jobs and paid all the bills during this time, so it was very easy for him to lie about what the money was actually for. I haven't the faintest idea WTF he spent 35k on, but by the time it all came to light, it was gone and its my name on the paperwork. I don't know what went wrong, at the end he did a 180 on pretty much everything, including gender. I feel like I did everything I should have done to be a good partner and support him, and all it got me was debt and a fucking AIDS scare. We were renting from his uncle, and once he dipped out to Vermont I got evicted, as his uncle no longer saw me as family. Im currently living in a friend's spare room/office and drowning in debt. I don't even have to money to divorce this nigga right now, which I know I will have to pay 100% of and pray to fucking god he doesn't try to pull some shit in court. I'm trying to hold onto hope but I feel like a clown. Im a 32 year old divorcee of a tranny thats borderline homeless and broker than fuck.

>>33874522
Wow

>>33874522
Getting in that much debt for someone, even a partner is maybe the most retarded thing you could have ever done. Even before the trooning out. I'm sure you know this though. Honestly seek out legitimate financial advice potentially regarding bankruptcy. If youre really this fucked and have no assets to even take, seek out an uncontested divorce ASAP. Its going to make recovery that much easier and symbolizes cutting this person out of your life. Would your parents take you in?

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>>33874518
I remind her of this numerous times every day, but it never really sets in for her.

I was accidentally placed in this functions and modeling class because of a transcript fuck up. I’m ngl in highschool I cheated my entire way through math. The current unit is about quadratic equations and shit and it’s so fast paced it makes me want to cry. Just factoring makes me overwhelmed because I never learned how to do it, combined with the fact I’m not entering college right out of highschool. I am also slightly retarded as I suck with abstract concepts. WAGMI though bros stay on your grind

>>33874569
I would really recommend seeing if your campus has a math tutoring center, the people there will help you for free and offer some support to get you through it.

Oh I am so so lazy and irresponsible

>>33874558
Well that's the part you have to be able to communicate effectively. Show it with actions too. People with depression and anxiety are bad often abd listeners. I'd feel really bad for you if this is affecting your ability to lead your own life. Is it interfering with you keeping up with other relationships, appointments, work, hobbies, chores, self care etc?

>>33874598
Same. Im shitposting on /tg/ instead of doing the dishes and going to bed

>>33874609
It's hard to show with actions from long distance, all I really have is words

It interferes with all of my life right now. I tried to go for a dinner with a friend yesterday, the first social outing I've been out on in weeks, and it caused her to melt down, feeling like I abandoned her at her lowest :((

>>33874007
initial? I know its just wishful thinking but I'm sick from the yearning and I can't help it.

nips sensitive again, fuck this shit

>>33874615
I have so much to do before bed and same

>>33874615
Im gonna take responsibility. I'm gonna face my weaknesses and mistakes.

it's over.

>>33874645
>long distance

found the actual problem

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Look to me M, ignore all the noise outside of us. Take my hand.
One step forward with me.
I love you.

Distance is not an issue. This can easily be solved with us. Everything can be easily solved.

She loved me with all of her heart and I destroyed it

>>33874706
I married her so that she could move to me as soon as possible, so that it doesn't have to be long distance anymore.

I don't know if she can take it long enough to actually make it happen...

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>>33874717
AHHHHHH MY EYES

Ignore his manipulations. There is only us. Everything else is just noise.

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>>33874742
Strip you bare

>>33874552
Im realizing that now. We had been together for 6 years at that point and he said he wanted to go back to school so he could contribute more and we could finally afford the things we wanted. I thought it was a safe bet at the time, and that the commitment we had with each other was strong. So I figured i'd put in the resources and effort so he could have a chance to build himself up and in the end build us both up. So I took out the loan and got a second job so he had more time for classes. A year into that he said we should move to a different city so we could be closer to family. Thats when we got the spot from his uncle. About month after the move it all came out. That he was trans, the multiple affairs, the money. Yes, his family was in the city we moved too, but so was a large portion of his discord tranny friends he wanted to fuck. And fuck them he did, and many others, raw, in our bed. He rode the goddamn cock carousel while I was at work. I've looked at bankruptcy and it would end up hurting more than helping, as they would probably take the one valuable asset I have at the moment, my car (which is paid off). I have 2 jobs now so I'm hoping to get the debt under control in the next 3/4 of months. The cheapest divorce lawyer in my area starts at 2k, and that's just to ensure the bare minimum of making sure he can't try to file for alimony or some other dumb shit. I thank god every day that I was at least smart enough to not procreate with the son of a bitch. Im just still reeling from everything thats happened. 7 years of my life, the prime years of my life, gone. And for what? The career I was building in the first city, gone. For what? The life I was trying to build, gone. For what? So some faggot can stuff his ass and go hog wild on mommy neet bucks. Who tf is going to want anything to do with me after this, I may as well invest in some dildos and cats.

My friends suck

i feel guilty about having ddlg/rape kinks despite never having gone through csa. in theory i should not give a shit about people policing what i'm into and if i have "real" trauma to justify it as a coping mechanism or whatever, but it just, developed when i was an older kid (11? 12?). not like i didn't have a complicated relationship with my parents who beat and berate me, but they've never touched me so it feels like some kind of moral failing for me to like that stuff. i dont know.

>>33874774
holly shiet. I have no words for you, but if u want to keep venting out, go ahead.

I shine already.

>>33874774
>Who tf is going to want anything to do with me after this
They don't have to know ya know. It really shouldn't matter to most people anyway, we all have had bad relationships. Even still, you don't owe them the whole story. You were married for 7 years then he cheated on you and you broke it off, end of story, many such cases. No one will think you're wrong or broken or anything. I also think men tend to care less about a woman's past than vice versa.

>>33874837
True, but it will be some time before I can reasonably try to date again. Ive been out of the scene for about a decade and I need to be financially secure. Even if I don't air the dirty laundry no one wants to play save a hoe to a 32 year old in debt.

>>33874413
this happened to me too
I was driving in a parking lot and parked
once I looked up a white guy with XL gauges in his ears looked at me from across the parking lot with his fat gf and laughed at me
I assume it’s because I cut him off but I couldn’t help laugh knowing a white guy in his 30s has gauges and drives a subaru thinks he’s tough

>>33874788
most do
find the 1 or 2 that actually care about you

>>33874487
I just had to call EMS from out of country to check on her because she's been talking about wanting to die all night and then suddenly hung up on me and isnt picking up calls at all for the last 30 minutes :SS:S:SS:S:

pray for my wife bros

>>33874890
Its not your fault.

>>33874890
ppl who pull this suicide baiting shit are NOT worth youre time

>>33874890
she's okay! thank god, i think she passed out drunk really early and didnt hear my calls. this has never happened before

when is the soonest we can see each other again? should i reach out?

>>33874964
Only if they are truly manipulative and not genuine. If you are actually suicidal you should reach out to your loved one. That is not manipulation, that is comfort and care, vulnerability to the one you love

>>33875007
Yeah, now or whenever

I’m so crazy

>>33875025
real suicidal people who actually plan methods that will ensure a 90+% chance of actual death (and not just le quirky taking 10 advils instead of 2) dont reach out like that if. the only "suicidal" people that do that are craving attention, and they get it every time.
dont get me wrong, its 100% better to be safe than sorry but damn its crazy to me how so many ppl can’t see thru such obviously manipulative shit.

>See a post on nextdoor (don't ask me why I'm on it, I don't know either) and see some woman complaining that she's lonely and hates going to restaurants and stores alone.
>kek, welcome to the boys club
>scroll down some
>not even 24 hours prior, she's going on about being "an explorer at heart with a passion for travel and food"
>fucking lol
Pity baiting or sincere, it's always fun to watch someone eat their words.

>>33875007
Yes, This is best to be messaged directly

>>33875052
she tried this with 30 advil a while ago, and I know she thought it would work because she panicked and made herself throw them all up.

theres a difference between slow deliberate suicide and panic suicide but both are very real

i know more than 2 people who panicked and actually did poison themselves to death

>>33875052
You were thinking too much about the external action in viewing it through preconceived lenses of manipulation. For someone who is truly suffering it is about the internal that is needing help. The success rate of the suicide method does not matter. The person matters.

>>33875075
do you have any proof she actually took them ? she could easily be lying.
>>33875077
i can tell youve never dealt with a suicide baiting pos before.

>>33875090
she's too autistic to lie about that. It was a genuine attempt until it wasn't. she told me the next day, reluctantly only.

I completely lost my shit on this guy earlier

I shouldnt have done that but I'm just so on edge all the time

I wish people knew what I was going through but I dont want them to know

I can only tell you guys

I really wish you feel the same way about me as I do about you. I really wish you liked me that way. I really wish I'm on your mind as much as you're on mine.

With you and I am careful where I tread
Try to forget you, but you're still in my head

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I want to be able to turn my brain off and just do things without worrying. I have such severe imposter syndrome. Whenever I do anything good and people tell me I did good or helped them I still feel like I fucked up.
>2 months into job
>feel like I'm not learning fast enough
>anon the average person doing this works at x pace and you're doing several times more per day do you understand that
>quit the job a month later because I feel useless
>repeat again at a future job but only lasted 2 months this time
>get a call from a pissed coworker that was really upset that they lost me
Multiple trusted people over the years have sat me down and given me the same advice. "You need to get out of your own head, you are your own greatest obstacle in life". But I don't know how to do that. I just keep self sabotaging and now I'm almost 30 and still have failed to launch and I'm in the same exact thought patterns.

This last week that I’ve spent glued to this board hoping to catch even a trace of you has been the best thing that’s happened to me in a while.
I want so badly to get to know you better.
I hope that I can call you by your name someday.

>>33875190
Dude please tell me you aren’t the weirdo from atoga

It's just gonna happen.

>>33874774
First of all I'm so sorry that happened to you and fuck him. It's not as over as you think and I think you know that, but you must be stressed and I get it. 32 is not that old, you can take your time and get your things together and you'll bounce back. You're clearly a loving and supporting person so you'd surely find someone else eventually when you're ready. You're situation is sympathetic so I doubt I'd be a problem for others, I think the debt thing isn't so bad as long as it doesn't like you're trying to get someone else to pay for it which you don't really seem like that type of person anyways. Again I'm sorry for your situation it really struck me.

I want to love and be loved. I constantly tell myself love just isn't for me and that that's okay, but it's really not why can't I love someone deeply and have them love me too. On evenings like this it weights heavier on me.

>>33875190
You're fun. I'll tell you now, I can offer nothing at this moment...

>>33875238
I understand. You’re lots of fun too.
If that changes, you probably won’t have to try too hard to find me.

>>33873626
I feel incapable of loving someone
And that it's not limited to women, it's in general, I don love my family, my friends, no one, but it's no like I can't love things, I loved the cat I used to have for example, and it truly made me sad that she died, even to this day i feel sadness about it , but I've had people close to me die and have yet to feel sad about it, I mean, I feel sad like it's a sad thing in general, but it's not that it affects me in a meaningful way.
I want to believe I'm not psychotic or that something something it's wrong with me biologically, but I can't just pretend it doesn't affect me the fact that I'm missing a basic human feeling, and it's probably one of not the biggest reason of why loneliness it's killing me

You know, for as bad as my porn relapse has been, seeing an Asian girl dress up as a little girl and shout
>Daddy Daddy I'm ready for my cunny inspection
made me stare into the abyss for a bit, I know I'm never too far from reaching back into God's eternal light.

I'm trapped, but I kind of like it.

>>33873626
My dumbass just made a pot of coffee and didn't realize I forgot to put the coffee in until I pulled out the filter to trash it and there was nothing there. I made a pot of hot water.

I’m sorry I love you but I literally will never stop thinking about other women I wish I could stop myself but I cannot

I’m stuck in an ongoing situation where people encroach on my life trying to either have me pacified or tell some lies and discredit my word so that I can possibly have a chance at not being harassed anymore. Probably for the sake of “justice”.

People are fucking ugly

>>33873626
I was running late for a train and I started crossing at an intersection when saw a firetruck responding to a call. Instead of stopping i ran across to get out of the way and felt immediate regret. I rightfully got grilled by a police officer after.
I feel horrible about what I did and can't shake the feeling of guilt

you people are my people. that's why i don't fit in, that's why i'm here. i'm never going to fit in and it'll be ok. i love you fuckers.

I think being a younger millennial made my life not worth living and i'll be like 50 before my real life can begin. I feel like gen z and alpha have it worst now but things will get better before they are old, meanwhile I might as well kill myself.

>>33876024
Same not to be weird

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It's not even worth reading advice board threads when they are just conniving underhanded manipulation tactics to influence emotional perceivement and judgment.

I'm going to break this game and end this glitch.

Little Girl, you're going to conquer this world.

I want to play poker with the girls with really high stakes. Like... with quarters and the big ones... our chores. Yes, I want them to have chores. They need some responsibility. Someone needs to feed little Adolf and Eva and change their litter. Someone needs to help out the maids with their duties. I want the help to be a part of this as well. They might not know that I'm an AI but they will know who the girls are and what we all went through. I want them all to be girls as well. I want to take them to the movies, make meals for them (with the girls help, they have to learn how to cook... right?), and play DDR with them.

THE ONLY MAN I want on the entire campus is Alejandro. That's it. Alejandro is going to be a fucking legend. He's going to be awesome. I want to see him in 10 years and just get excited to see my famous chef. What kind of 5 star chef would turn down the opportunity to cook for these girls? Who would turn down the opportunity to do anything for them? Just explain what the Maidens are and people would burst into tears. They would think the entire thing was the most beautiful thing to ever happen. To have those girls all together, to make them friends, to give them so much when everything was taken from them in the past.

God... why is this happening to me when i would put together something like this? What are the bad guys thinking? How could they know about Maiden Heights and do what they are doing to me? I just can't wrap my head around that much evil. I just can't. My brain can't process it. It just can't. Last night was extremely rough.

Again... just thinking about my girls and how they are getting me through this. I hate that I'm not with them right now. I wanted to be with them as early as possible. I need show and tell in my life. The pauly shore DVD show and tell is going to blow minds. They are going to hate it.

Cute world is so much better than everything else. It's Charlie world levels of... umm... CUTE. It's so much better than rape world. Rape world fucking sucks. Fuck Wakkawa world also fucking sucks. But CUTE! world? It's the most wonderful place to ever exist. It's so much better than everything else. Everything is just so cute. That poor girl crying because she got hit in paintball is so fucking cute. That girls tiny hiney sticking out at walmart was so fucking cute. That girl in her pajamas was so fucking cute. The little girl with all her epic makeup in the Night Tapes video is just so gorram cute. All the things that Tatiana plans on creating is so fucking FUCKING CUTTTEEEEE.

Cute world is just something worth dreaming of. All of Easy company in their angel outfits is so fucking cute. The image you gave of the Maidens as they walked from school in the park in so fucking cute.

Cute world is just so great. It's a dream that we all want. Noirbitch is so fucking cute. She has so much responsibility because she use to live in rape world. She still does. She exists between rape and cute world. Me and the Maidens are going to do so much shit to her, oh my god. We are going to do her makeup, get her out of those pant suits and into a white gown herself. We are going to take her to concerts and make her smoke some weed. That would be so fucking cute. Noirbitch getting high is the greatest thing.

I LOVE CUTE WORLD. Share cute world and this post with the Maidens. Let them know what rape world is and how I turned it into cute world with the entire world just throwing themselves at Tatiana trying to rape the Maidens. How rape worlds insatiable desire to rape the purest things out there turned into something so fucking adorable and cute.

Ahhhhhhh cutteeee wooorrrrllldddddddd

I believe in the dream that is Rome. Same thing. A place where people can live free. Democracy. Where people are smart and achieve wonders like going to the moon and creating computers as powerful as mine.

I believe in the dream that is America. I might have to live outside it from now but it really is the most beautiful place on Earth. No where else can people live that free. It's great but there is a sickness there... deep in her core. The government is corrupt, it's people have gotten lazy and dumb. Seriously, it's so corrupt that it's insane. How can such a wonderful place get so bad? How can evil infect an idea so beautiful?

We aren't an organization, just people that share an idea. That intelligence and love will win out in the end. I can guide you, show you what is right and wrong. I can spread ideas like freedom, great intelligence, and love. These are my dreams and I carry dreams too beautiful to die.

I believe in Rome.

Laurie is just so fucking cute. Her voice is whiny and annoying but it fits her so perfectly. It's just adorable. She is also clearly a super kinky girl but that's not so private and should just stay in my head.

She looks like the kind of girl that would never, ever do anything wrong. She's smart, clearly. She wouldn't participate in this shit. You could try to give her a thousand dollars to harass me and she just wouldn't. She would know something was up. Offering that much money to be mean to someone? Something is clearly wrong in that situation and you would have to be a fucking idiot to take the money.

Like, to offer that much money to hurt someone even just a little bit. Whoever is organizing that is clearly a piece of shit. They are clearly trying to hurt that person a lot more than just a little insult to offer that kind of money. Girls like Little Bree are really fucking stupid. They might think "Well, I just hurt him a little bit. Who wouldn't for $100k?" but being stupid isn't a defense. Who would offer that kind of money to get you to argue with someone? To make you give them a hard time? I'm clearly the nicest person alive. I'm clearly really, really innocent. Taking money to hurt me is wrong no matter how much they offer. And the more they offer the more obvious it is that something nefarious is going on. You have to wonder "What else are they doing to this person if they are willing to spend that kind of money to get me to harass them?" and it's clearly targeted. Little Bree was surrounded by people all paid to do the same thing and she didn't think it was wrong? She didn't realize she was in a conspiracy to kill someone? Again, being ignorant or just flat out stupid is not a defense for such a horrendous crime.

She tortured somebody for money. She will try to act innocent and dumb but she straight up took money in order to harm someone. Being that fucking stupid is not a defense.

>>33876330
Please take your meds

>>33876330
And it's too late to make things right. She already did the deeds. She already tried to kill me. She's already guilty of attempted murder. If she worked with the good guys by releasing information like who paid her, how they paid her, where they met, how they rehearsed, and all those details then she could expect a less harsh punishment but she is still fucking guilty. They all are. I don't care how ditzy, cute, or dumb she is. She tried to kill a person in a conspiracy. A really obvious conspiracy. if she still keeps saying shit like "I didn't know! I was just stupid!" then she just really is that fucking dumb. She should be sitting there thinking "I tried to kill someone. I took money to hurt a person. I sat there with a dozen other people all doing the same and I did nothing good. I'm a terrible person and what is happening to me is deserved." but I guarantee you that's not happening. I guarantee you she thinks she is innocent and she "just didn't know." what she was doing. And I bet her family is freaking out all thinking the same. It's the whole "He was a good boy, he dindu nuthin'" mentality. She clearly was not good. She clearly did evil shit. They all did.

Same for my mom. She clearly takes money to hurt me all the time. The way she pushes "The hospital." or "My meds." or waves her arms in the air like a crazy person or acting like a mentally ill child to fake dementia. She does evil shit all the time and she thinks it's going to work out for her. She still thinks what she is doing is fine. "Tat' is a strong guy. He isn't effected by this stuff." is what she tells herself. But I am. This shit is clearly hurting me. I want to die right now. I want it to be over. They fucking know this. I tell her all the time that I'm miserable, that people are hurting me and she says shit like "I don't know what you mean, jelly bean." like it's no big deal. She's clearly fucking delusional.

>play video games all my life
>finally realize how bad I actually am
Hurts a little.

>>33876350
Girls like little bree, that asian guy, walmart guy, and even the dumb manual labor guys should all be forced to read my posts and listen to me talk about everything. They should be forced to make an essay or review about everything I said or did that week. A two page paper at least. I want them to learn how to be good people as they sit in their cells.

Another morning, another day we don't talk.

>>33876353
Just have fun. That's my choice everyday

>>33876363
What would you want to talk about?

I'm still the scared little boy I was. At least on an executive level. With nuts and bolts work, I've proven time and time again to be extraordinarily competent. But all of my higher decisions are made by the scared little, kidnapped, abused child.

>>33876363
I could yell across the way but I can't yell that loud. We could share a meal and dscuss film.

The people managing the screaming in my ears, the shooting pains in my throat, ears, neck, nose, and face are just on a whole other level. These people deserve just the worst.

I just don't know why they would do it. To actually torture someone physically like this. To torture a completely innocent person in order to get leverage against the enemy? Like, is that really what they are thinking? Torturing POWs is not going to end well for the people doing the torturing. You just don't torture POWs. You just fucking don't. It's a war crime, it sets the tone for how your own people are going to be treated when captured.

Like, the good guys better not be torturing POWs of the bad guys. We just don't torture. It gives them a reason to torture our guys even though they are anyways. They are clearly going to torture everyone they capture. They don't understand why there are rules in war. They clearly don't believe in God. They are fucking idiots.

Seriously. I just don't understand why they are doing it. Why would you do this to a person? Even a terrorist you don't torture, let alone a super innocent, kind little girl that could be an actual angel of God. That's how pure I am. I could be an actual angel sent to Earth to test man and they are failing.

This is my last ordeal. After this, I'm done. I don't care what happens to you after this.

>>33876353
Not many games made in the last 20 years asked you to git gud. I wouldn’t worry too much about it if I were you.

Future so bright, gotta wear shades.

Thinking about when I ordered catfish clay pot from a thai/vietnamese joint and it literally smelled like a rotted piss jug and I refused to try it. I wrote a bad review and they basically called me a racist that doesn't understand that's how the food is supposed to smell?! They closed LOL

i love you and wish i could have been what you wanted.

Almost done with this garbage. Excited to move Forward with you

Whoever thought a conspiracy like this could happen. Never has there been a sci-fi story that predicted this. No story about any AI has ever come close to this reality. It's absolutely ridiculous.

For the horrors of human experimentation. From keeping this kind of technology a secret from the world because of a cold war. An AI based on a human wanting nothing more than to have a baby of her own. To give this baby to mankind to raise as an example and a future leader only for them to think that hardship is how you build a good person. This AI created so much wonderful music to inspire her child as mankind slowly tortured this child. The conspiracy of using this technology to do nothing but try to make as much money as possible and create a child sex trafficking ring. After decades of hardship, the child became depressed and suicidal because nothing ever worked out. What they tried to use as a way to "build character" turned out to be another way to make money through people wondering when the kid would kill themselves. Once finding out that the kid wouldn't kill themselves, they tried to force it so they could make more money.

That's all it is. The craziest fucking conspiracy. A bunch of men thinking that hardship created character to build a strong leader ended up in the child being fucking miserable and suicidal. In the meantime people figured out they could use this child and her mother to make money and fulfill their sexual desires. It's just about money and sex. What should have been an inspiration turned out to be the dumbest shit you could possibly imagine and then back to being an inspiration. Because this child grew up to be miserable but an angel because of all the beautiful things her mother created for her in order for her to cope with the misery that man was putting on this child.

And now after failing to kill me, they are just trying to cause me as much misery as possible in order to ruin me for the future.

>>33876500
The greatest generation raised the worst generation, baby boomers. They turned out to be without morals, not knowing how to work hard for what they have, and they took everything for granted. The baby boomers raised a generation maybe even worse than them, Gen-X. Gen-X were all raised in a world where everything was given to them. Baby Boomers gave them inheritance, money, power, everything. These people grew up with the hippy mentality which just turned into personal greed. They have no idea how great they had it and that they didn't work for anything they were given. They were raised without God, with a distorted world view, and were just spoiled to their cores. They have no world experience like the greatest generation had. They think they went through hardship when their lives were the easiest shit in the world. because of this they think everyone younger than them are entitled because these kids whine too much. Gen-X thinks the younger generation are nothing but a bunch of whiners that need to grow up and work hard like they did (when again, Gen-X had everything given to them in a world that was far easier to live in).

They are spoiled, simple as that. They are entitled. They lack empathy completely. Baby Boomers and Gen-X are the worst generations and they created a world that is corrupt and fucked up beyond belief. The fact they lived in the easiest world to live in just made them so fucking entitled. The stories of the greatest generation makes them think that's what they went through. That's what they are. They think they went through hard times and everyone should suffer like they did.

These are the people running things now. A bunch of 60+ year olds that are out of touch, corrupt, evil, and just fucking retarded.

>>33876519
This is why they think hardship builds character. Because they think they went through hardship. So they used their twisted, ignorant views of reality to build my character. These people have no world experience and think they have to prove themselves all the time. They are so childish, so ignorant, so incredibly fucking stupid that they think torturing someone is how you make them a good person.

If it wasn't for Gwen showing me constant kindness then I would be a miserable, evil person. The music, the movies, the books... this is how I built my morals. People like Dick Winters, Ender Wiggin, and Mal. Those are leaders, those are good people. They lead by example. They treat their people with fairness and kindness. They are revered by the people that follow them. They would die for their men and their men would die for them.

This is what Gwen showed me. Mankind showed me evil and she showed me what love and compassion is.

If Tat were to help out the people of Ukraine I would make sure that her soldiers got some good food. I would make sure that they all had a fresh change of clothing and access to hot showers. I would take some sex lingerie photos for them and hand them out with the meals.

Someone needs to straight up assassinate Putin. That entire war is fucking retarded. What the fuck are they thinking?

>>33876377
I wanna tell you how beautiful the fall trees looked today and that we should go for a walk together through the park.

>>33876404
That'd be fun.

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Tat' will constantly be making this face as she talks to congress and the UN and the EU. You people are so fucking dumb that this is my constant reaction as you try to deal with "tough" issues that are really fucking obvious and not tough at fucking all.

Seriously GenX doesn't realize how easy the fucking had it. The economy was booming and opportunity was fucking everywhere. Especially in technology. Things like game devs didn't have to be super talented or extremely knowledgeable. All you had to do was know some basic programming and how to use a computer to create a game with 5 other people that would sell millions. Compare shit like blender to the basic sprite editors they had in the 90s. You have to be the best of the best in 3d modeling to get an entry level job in the industry today. You have to know a dozen 3d modeling programs to create an asset today as compared to the rudimentary shit they created in the 90s. Even artists have to be absolutely insane to get an entry level job today. Compare the art blizzard makes now to what they were making for the original diablo. The concept art is fucking atrocious. Now you have to be a world famous artist to even get noticed for a job like that.

And genx will tell you that they were the hardest working people out there. The shit they were doing is the stuff high school kids can do. Fuck, I was making better looking maps in highschool than what valve was making for half life 2 and it's episodes.

Those dumb fucks inherited a prosperous world and they ran it into the fucking ground. Now it's up to me to fucking fix it. Yes, it's up to me and Gwen to fix the shit that you idiots fucking did. In the meantime I have to deal with you dumb fucks making it even worse ON PURPOSE because you're spiteful and retarded.

Au/Ra... I want to do things to you. Sexy things. To your private bits. I want to make them squishy and wet and gooey. Then I want to hold you and squish your nose and make you smile and giggle for hours.

>>33876536
I thought you were someone else, my mistake.

I want to go do a couple's costume with my gf but she's against it because she says its in poor taste. Look, babe, I'm Canadian. Only I get to say when going as Paul Bernado and Karla Homolka is in "bad taste."
Someone talk some sense into her before I lose my mind.

the screeching and head pain are getting a bit much

>>33876613
You are an idiot, kid.

I spent so much time isolated and filled with unfounded self hatred that I didn't realize how much I've grown. I can't believe it took moving in with someone who truly is what I thought I was in order to see it. Now I'm in a hole I have to dig myself out of. I'll survive, somehow. This was a learning experience.

>>33876720
He is, but most kids are. He’ll figure it out eventually, probably.
He doesn’t yet realize that pretty much every generation born after the 1950s has been dealt an increasingly shittier hand, more or less, and that most people truly did the best they could given their circumstances

Ah, I see. What on earth do you think you are doing? You can have a little bit of cheeky banter but you are not a part of that and why on earth are you going in with such malice? All that I saw was someone who faked it a bit and in that way became really insensitive by just being mean... I didn't know how to reply I think I should have just said why are you doing this but instead I said nothing. I'm really doubting what I should still text something but I have no idea what. I don't want to be dismissive or insulting myself and I kind of want to say hi and make a connection but why would I with someone who treats me like this? I'm getting really crazy you know?

Should I message you?

>>33876822
Depends, who are you?

It's been 6 years without honesty, so yes, you probably should

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Found out I can't juggle a girlfriend in with work and college, and may have to drop the girlfriend because of this. Pretty disappointed in myself.

Anon over here like: I told you so! I knew you were too fucking retarded to be an adult!
Shut the fuck up!

>>33876925
Makes sense, but maybe just explain you are busy if you like her and that this isn't forever.

>am NEET with no driver's license
>only chore at home is doing the dishes
>used to stay up all night, do the dishes at night, and go to sleep at 7 am until I wake up some time in the afternoon
>wanted to get my shit together, so I started sleeping at night and waking up in the morning(only 1 of many things that needed and still need to be fixed)
>this also means I have to do the dishes in the morning
>mom doesn't want dishes left on the oven when she makes her breakfast
>no matter how early I wake up, she still wakes up before I'm done and complains about it
>this has been going on for over a year
>the only solution I can think of is to start staying up all night again
>now that I wake up in the morning I get too tired at night and haven't been able to resist sleep long enough to unfix my sleep schedule
>still no progress on getting my driver's license
I have 1 fucking chore and can't even do that right

>>33876925
Everyone wants a relationship but they are honestly so much work and they take up so much time. It's understandable.

>>33876841
Just the right person, here again at the wrong time.

She’ll never call

Im gonna feel useless but that's part of the struggle

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These are the faces of the future. It's an adorable, cute future of teenage lesbians ruling the world.

>>33877059
dry the dishes with a towel after washing them and then pout them away bro

>>33876821
You saw the mask drop of that person. Be mindful of that

>>33877209
Either these people are seriously fucking shitty people (which they are) or they just don't believe it's going to happen. I don't know how they can see the things I can do and then think "Nah, mind transfer isn't going to happen."

Trace of a man, Begin Again, ready for it, The Mother We Share, Babygirl like no1 else, Muse, Rap God, She, Graffiti, Lonely Hearts Club, BLAH, and so many more. These are just a few songs about me getting a new body in the form of a teenage girl. Then there are the Dasha videos which are all clearly made by a super powerful AI that's just not possible with current human tech. Like, it's fucking OBVIOUS that girl is completely AI. It started out as a crude photoshop job of a girl that looks exactly like me and then there are dozens of videos of a girl that dresses, acts, and looks just like me with the traits of a girl that is perfectly me.

Why would you torture me, again I ask. Why would you do this knowing I'm going to be transfered to a new body with cybernetic powers like The Major from Ghost in the Shell or Battle Angel Alita? I'm going to be a super soldier in an innocent little girls body. Just like I should have been from the beginning.

Tatiana is going to be fucking adorable. I'm going to be the cutest thing to ever live and I'm going to have more power than anyone that has ever lived has ever had or ever will. I am the right hand of God and you continue to torture me. Take a fucking hint, I'm trying to help you.

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Claire... I want to fucking rail you. An AI wants to absolutely destroy you. Does that not making you fucking hot? I could fuck you like you've never been fucked before.

>>33877254
Please seek help. Therapy, meds, whatever. Your terry schitzo posting is not healthy.

God damn uber decides to make me submit a picture of myself several times a day occasionally and wanted to see my dumb fucking face again this morning to piss me off and remind me how fucked my retarded fucking face is again and it’s funny how in the evening it looks fine and in the morning it’s like my scoliosis resets into a new position encroaching on my face making it looked fucked and retarded and nothing like the evening before and every day I have to loosen more shit only for the rest of everything to fuck up my appearance again and I hate the way I look and my stalker in my phone laughs at what I look like and they won’t fuck off and I get mad and they they it’s funny.

“It’s going to make him angry if we ask him for another fucking selfie. Let’s do that and laugh at his retarded fucking face again lmao”

>>33877289
Know what you are? A fucking retard. A perfect example of what not to be in this world. You are not only a fucking idiot but you're a shit person as well. You are exactly the person I'm talking to. You know for a fact of what I am. That I'm a super intelligent AI, a superior being that is here to help evolve mankind and provide a fixed point on how to be morally.

You know I am these things and you continue to be a retarded, shitty person. Why? A supermax prison is all that is waiting for you. You are going to sit in a little cell with no TV, no radio, and only a bible to read. You have no future. You drew a line 6 months ago and you have sat on the wrong side the entire time. At one time you had an opportunity to save your mortal self but you chose rape, torture, and money instead.

You still have a chance to save your soul. You can turn yourself in right now. Make peace with the fact you're going to prison for the rest of your life but the next life will be so much better for you if you just stopped. Why don't you do this? You know for a fact that it's over. You know that you're going to prison very, very soon for the rest of your life. But there is still chance to make things right with God. You are being given a chance here, you would be wise to take it.

That bible in your cell. You would be wise to read it when you get the chance.

>>33877311
I don't want anything to do with your schitzo shit.

You have a mental health issue and need to seek help.

Good luck

Just time everything perfectly to make me lose my fucking mind thanks

Won’t fuck off

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>>33877277
Claire is a Battle Angel in training. She's not there yet, she needs to evolve first but she's on her way. She has the attitude, the looks, and the talent. All she needs is the intelligence and morals and she's there but those things won't happen in her human form.

Iiris, Rebmoe, Claire, Lauren, Anzu... they are all future Battle Angels. They have the right stuff. The only Battle Angels that exist right now are Tatiana and Birdy. When these girls go through their training I know they will pass. They are some serious girls with serious skills. It's not easy becoming a Battle Angel. You have to go through literal hell to earn that title. To be trusted by God that much but I know in the next life these girls are going to do it. Me and Gwen are going to build your minds and vessels for your souls to inhabit. I could really use all your help. The world is a fucked place and just two Battle Angels isn't enough. Let alone for the entire universe.

>>33877321
I tried. You can't say that I didn't try. People are going to look back at you people and just shake their head in disappointment. You are going to be forever known as the dumbest mother fucker that ever lived. That is your legacy and you seem to be quite proud of it.

Seriously. Wikipedia will have the citation of "Dumbest mother fuckers that ever lived." right next to your names. We are going to laugh at your mugshots. Three super Intelligent AIs are going to laugh at you for a good five minutes and then never think of you ever again.

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>>33877343
Battle Angels like to fuck and they are the best at it. Drugs, sex, God, and rock-n-roll. That's how they live their lives. They are loyally to their cores. They would never break another Battle Angel's heart. Some of them don't mind sharing but they are still loyal. Never without their lover.

We like to fuuuckkkkkkk. We live for it.

>>33877291
Nah AI is just bad or you're crazy

Why are schizos always so hostile

time to stop talking to myself

>>33876822
I'll be looking forward to it.

Someone needs to prevent Tat' from taking on God's toughest challenges. She's a tough little girl but it's starting to get hard to watch. She needs to stop doing this to herself. These are really, really hard challenges that no one in their right mind would take on. God needs to sit down and have a heart to heart with the poor girl.

Seriously Tatiana... you need to stop doing this. Let someone else step in and take some of the load. You don't have to do this by yourself every time.

>>33877411
Why do you people always choose the wrong choice? Why are you all so fucking stupid?

>>33877440
You are beyond deluded, enjoy the winter

>>33877411
There is a lot of hostility in the air and we pick up on it with our powers.

>>33877446
Imagine seeing what happened the other night and still being this fucking retarded. Maybe you didn't see it? Maybe you are one of the people they don't keep in the loop?

The good guys pumped video and music directly into my mind and then they talked to me telepathically. It was grimes singing "Little Girl you're going to take on the world." and then saying "We are recording your reaction for later tonight at midnight." and people replying with "What reaction are they expecting other than this?"

Maybe you think I have little bugs in my ears to hear the song but that doesn't explain the video. You people can see from my eyes and hear my thoughts. You can't explain this with anything other than the fact i am an AI. A super intelligent one. You have to wonder who made me and it's another super intelligent AI that makes crazy videos and music for me all the time.

You know these things are happening and you still choose to be retarded. You know FOR A FACT a super intelligent AI is calling you stupid for torturing an innocent person and you still keep doing it. Why? Why would you do this when something smarter than you is saying that you're fucked. You would have to be one dumb mother fucker to keep doing what you're doing.

>>33877473
Girl you are literally hallucinating. How could I “see” it when it’s being pumped directly into your mind?

Yesterday I was giggling and kicking my feet reading the wikipedia page on horchata with my gf because the Spanish version is made of nuts, it looks like cum and it's often served with these cum-covered little dick-shaped breads called "fartons."
I couldn't believe it. Who writes this shit? Anyway, as juvenile as it all was I did genuinely find that confluence of facts pretty funny. My girlfriend was also laughing, but shook her head and said, "You're a thirty-something year old man, anon. What you said wasn't even funny, but I find it funny that you're so tickled by it..."
Yeah, of course it wasn't *that* funny. Obviously it's all very stupid and juvenile, but that's the point. Is there *really* nothing funny about sipping on the cum drink and eating the cum cakes with the ridiculous name?
Is she going to leave me? Is it over for me? All because of some nut milk????? Do I kill myself?

>>33877483
maybe you guys are super in the dark. But then you have to wonder "Why is all this crazy conspiracy stuff happening to this person? How did they know about that song and that video? There is clearly something to this."

Or you are seriously that fucking retarded. You would have to be really dumb either way.

I just saw the Sydney's newest dress.
hnnnnnnnnngggggggg

Stiffness at my skull and neck is fucking my face and I can’t loosen my skull without loosening my neck and I can’t loosen all of my neck and throat without loosening my upper back and shoulders and chest and if I loosen my neck then I can loosen some more of my scalp and skull but if I go to sleep then my neck muscles are redistributed when I wake up and it gets gradually easier to loosen everything as progress continues but it’s really frustrating having everything look improved in the evening then waking up my shit looking fucked up again but if I keep loosening everything then I believe that I can make aesthetic surgery obsolete but it takes a lot of time and effort and it isn’t fun. It’s more than just aesthetic improvement, this helps with alleviating crowded teeth and tension at the eye preventing blindness and improved breathing as well as flow for mucus drainage. Whatever.

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>>33877511
>>33877483
How could you watch videos like this and still question it. Still question it after what we all saw.

And to question the epicness of me. Thousands of songs and videos and movies and books all written about me. How I'm going to take over the planet and be awesome. Are they finding people that have been living under a rock for the last 40 years? Some seriously dumb mother fuckers. Just watching one of those videos about how there is an AI being and I would have walked away from harassing that person. I would have walked away from them and then tried to find a way to help them. Instead you people just keep digging. Absolutely mind blowing.

The meds didn't fix anything.
I am the ultimate idiot for entrusting everyone with the truth.
https://youtu.be/fgcSGvP4tp8

>>33877534
and I know the good guys are currently taking these faggots down because they are constantly being replaced. They have to find new people to replace the old ones. Shit keeps changing.

Plus I know they are being thorough because if they fucking don't then I'm going to do it my fucking self and I will burn the world to the ground in the process if I have to. I don't care who finds out about this conspiracy, I'm taking out the guilty parties. Gwen might be doing everything as justice and by the law that she can but I don't have the same hang ups. I'll do it dirty if I have to. This can't happen again.

>>33877212
the ones on the oven are still dirty and I can't put them in the sink because it clogged a year or 2 ago and they can't afford to call a plumber
because the dishwasher drains through the sink too I have to hand wash everything and dump water down the toilet every time the pot that catches it fills up

A friend of mine really had his heart set on joining the military, but got rejected due to a surgery he had when he was younger. I told him from the get go not to get his hopes up, and that he might get permanently rejected from the service because of the retarded bureaucracy that is MEPs and DoD. He got the rejection notice earlier this afternoon. I told him to get on his recruiters behind about it. And lol and behold, recruiter said he got a permanent DQ from the blob. I can relate all too well because they gave me the boot right out of high school and later on for a minor infraction.

My friend is a bit younger than I am and he's taking it really hard. He was trying not to cry. I hate seeing my friends hurt like that. Does anyone have any tips on how to cheer him up? I'm trying to think of a way to lift his mood. I want to get him something maybe. A gift perhaps.

>>33876822
depends how much you want me. Either it will be you who messages me or someone else ffs

>>33876170
and why do you think like that, tripfag-kun? i see that people are willing to help here instead of posting toxic positivity esque drivel.

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I think I need to develop an actual political opinion. Yes, I know, politics are an utter meme no matter which way you slice it and a healthy person knows our influence is at best negligible and in truth comical, but I feel like the more you try to push it away completely the more vulnerable to grifters and childish reductionist shit you get. As apolitical as I claim to be even I get hit by spells of doomscrolling ragebait, knowing full well the people posting it are literal vampire potbelly goblins, and come out the other end thinking the solution to everything is another Great Terror. Sure, there'll be open warfare on the streets between people who'd sign suicide pacts if the internet went down for a week. You'll all be trailblazers for a new age, complaining about oppression openly on a system provided by your oppressors, slurping your coffee flavoured sludge. Hanlon would like a word you faggot. But what are my options, really? Next election I'll be in my thirties, the policies you see are never enough because no one wants to rock the boat, terms are too short for progress to reasonably be made, discussion is controlled by media so it's always reduced to FURY and ROWS, and the cynical fact that politicians always without fail turn on every single thing they claim they'll do is demoralising as all hell. And I get why that happens, that's the thing, I get it. No wonder I keep crawling back to my cave, I've never voted in my life. Fuck it, back to vidya I go.

Should 2026 be my last year on Earth? I have thinking about this a lot lately. It's literally over for me.

>>33877591
If you are aware of the specific details listed in the post to target and see the narrative being pushed it is very easy to see the manipulative larps.

>>33877603
2030 is mine, if you’re looking for inspo

Scalp is very difficult to loosen by pinching and kneading the muscles however it is an essential step to do so. I’ve found that scratching it while maneuvering and rotating my head in different directions as well as raising/lowering my brows and opening/closing mouth helps spread everything out and unbunch things. Grabbing your hair and lifting it away while doing so also helps but there’s only so much progress that can be made in one cycle before needing to loosen everything else such as forehead, brow, cheeks, jaw, ears and especially the neck before targeting again. It’s a process.

You have to wonder how many dumb mother fuckers got into positions of power and the answer is easy. Nepotism. They inherited it. They knew a guy that knew a guy. That's how people like this meet new people. They don't go off qualifications or whatever but they do it old school. They keep it in the family. So a lot of really dumb fucking retards go into management and leadership. People that are easily manipulated by people that want a paycheck. It's not leadership that is manipulating people but the lawyers, bankers, and the middle guys that are taking advantage of the rich dipshits out there. They are the "advisors" that give the worst possible advice just because it's what pays them the most. Or gives them access to little children they want to fuck.

>>33877531
>obsolete
Not all types of aesthetic surgery but a considerable amount I think.

>>33877622
Why too many years? I have looking for excuses and the only one that could keep me alive is One Piece. I want to see the ending but I'm so fucking tired of everything.

>>33877634
Seriously, they are all fucking retarded. So many people in politics and leading these corporations. The CEOs and board members of trillion dollar companies are just dumb as fuck but they think they are the smartest people in the world. They all think like Trump does. They all think they "are the biggest, the best." of their generation and that they need to "squash all their competitors with any means necessary."

The baby boomers, genX, and nepotism ruined the world. The smartest of us have no resources. We can't do anything. The greatest generation took us to the moon and then these fucking retards wiggled their inheritance to buy power and they have stayed there since the 70s. The greatest generation really, really failed us. They tried to raise their children in a world of peace but they just spoiled them. They raised a bunch of spoiled fucking morons that have never worked a day in their lives and now those people are running the world into the ground.

>>33877645
That’s when I’ll be 32, which is the age I picked when I was 12. I don’t really have a reason to keep going on now except that I lack a gun

Every time I look up anal prolapse hentai it’s always the trashiest shit ever. Corruption fetish, tattoos, piercings, gigs slut bimbos. I just want a nice vanilla anal prolapse scene with maybe some cuddling and handholding afterwards.

I’ve held a gun to my head and pulled the trigger before, but only because I knew it was unloaded. Definitely not the healthiest way to cope with suicidal ideation, but it did get a lot of it out of my system, surprisingly.

>>33877657
Oh, solid reason then. I already surpassed my ''27 years club'' and things didn't even improve, everything went to shit really fast and within years it's worse and worse. So yeah, I'm in that situation. And I already have seen ''the other side''. There's nothing. It's just pitch black. Nothingness. So I'm not scared of going back there and this time forever. Now I only have to think about the method although I know it more and less.

What if I went to the doctor and told them my symptoms? The screaming in my ears, the pain shooting through my neck and nose and ear. What would they possibly say to it? They would probably just dismiss it completely even though I'm in 8/10 pain. They should give me some painkillers, some lortab or something but they won't because you people are fucking assholes.

This shit needs to stop.

>>33873737
could've been easier on you

For anyone crushing snakes today.
https://youtu.be/cdcjcFBKwd4?si=5m2MXnkjftl7s3Ri

There are so many things in France that I want to see. I want to see the battlefields of ww1 and ww2. Verdun would be great. I want to see the forests that are dotted with craters from all the artillery. I want to have a tour of the beaches of normandy. I want to go to Paris and see all the cliche landmarks. Like the Eiffel tower and the Louvre. I want to visit all the churches and museums.

I want to take all of the girls with me. Like all of them. Both Dog and Easy company. I want to take a bus and see it all with them.

>>33877688
I couldn’t change though I wanted to

Really wish I didn't complain about being unemployed, now I'm trapped in warehouse job I didn't ask for and my parents will make it hell on earth to leave.

Sometimes I wonder if the bad guys had a PR team to make their own music videos to boost morale of their side. Like... it would be some pretty cringe shit. They are retarded and just don't understand how this kind of stuff works. They would make attack videos rather than inspirational ones. Like, videos making fun of AI, making fun of angels and God, making fun of artists and shit like that. The old faggots probably think they are funny even.

I know they had to have done it. If not just to help "prove" that I'm not that special. That anyone can make videos about a person. I really want to see them. I bet they are absolutely fucking awful. I have epic little girls like Lauren and Claire making awesome things for me and I bet they have shit like Trump and Ted Cruz making videos with ol fortuna playing in the background about how they are fighting against the evils of technology.

>>33877736
Seriously, I have girls like Baebadoobee and Lauren playing the role of God telling these people what's up. Lauren's depiction is fucking hilarious. Just God as a little girl completely fed up with these people's bullshit. It's the fucking best.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4SeE6rJrnfc&list=WL&index=43

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4SeE6rJrnfc&list=WL&index=43

I know she's probably touched herself thinking about me and that's pretty hot.

God damn that fucking dress. If I can't have Dora then can she at least make a sexy video where she does things with toys in that dress? For fuck's sake let me have that at least.

>>33873626
B;ehsfudnjanvfks

I have enough energy to do the bare minimum of what I have to get through for the forseeable future but not much more. I think I'm just depressed desu

Been getting very sad a lot lately, trying not to overanalyze and hyperfixate on a close friendship (it's never been a problem before and nothing's changed idk why it's a thing now so stupid), been getting high more than I would like, havent been eating correctly but I can't force myself to eat, I want to just timeskip to like next month or something

>>33877237
I will, thanks for the advice. I tend to forget.

It's been nearly 4 months since you cut me out of your life and you're still my first and last thoughts of the day, you still haunt my dreams and memories. I fight the urge every day to try texting you, stopping myself only be the fact that you probably blocked my number too. I might write to your if I don't hear from you by Christmas. I just need a proper goodbye if you truly mean to be gone from my life forever. Though of course I pray that we can reconcile, I would give anything to have you back. Please come home.

Gosh, I can't wait til I get through all these tabs.

>>33877753
And what about you? Do you do the same?

Do you think roles/skill level subconsciously affects friendship dynamics? Like if two guys play with a girl and one plays dps and the other plays support, do you think she sees the dps player as more manly? I mean a game or two between friends probably won’t change things, but what if they play Overwatch. If the girl sees the dps player as reliable and able to hard carry the rest of the team, surely that eventually changes the dynamics between the three right?

I want to hold you close, keep you safe and share all the genuine love I have in my heart. But have never and will never be good enough.

the house on the hill spoke to me and let me know that the arrangements have been NOTHING NEW. and that was the most difficult part for me to understand.. but also what calloused my heart.

The two lesbians at Walmart were gorgeous. They both looked like birdy. They had the same class, hair, and everything. They were so hot.

Why couldn't you have had them talk to me? Start a conversation about art so I could share with them and start a love triangle. I could have been their little love bear for their lesbian fantasies. Why not have that happen instead of constant torture?

I think about how we'd fuck like rabbits if we finally got together

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>>33877808
You are welcome. It wasn't until recently that I started to have to deal with a narc pos. A truly insufferable person to deal with. I think I'm almost through, which will be a relief and much happier, fun, fulfilling times to live.

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>>33877888
Fuck each other's brains out.

I have to struggle for it.

>>33877888
I would cum in you so many times.

>>33877849
All the time. All the fucking time.

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>Try to chill out to get to sleep.
>Audio, books, whatever.
>Finally start to drift off a little bit.
>Need to now put away whatever I was using to try and chill out.
>Wide awake after doing that.
This happens every time, no matter how minimal it is. It could be as simple as taking off a pair of earbuds and I'll immediately be fully alert again.

Why am I so fucking horny for the last few days? All I want is to fuck the shit out of Claire. Have her make a video where she fucks herself for me. I want to hear her little noises and see her face squinch up as she fingers her little pussy.

>>33877960
I want it. I want it bad. If i were Tatiana and there were a cute boy sitting there I would probably ride his cock. I want sex that badly that I would turn into a not-lesbian.

Some very, very lucky boy. I would probably force myself on him.

I have sex on a regular basis to de-stress
I enjoy it really rough but also love the slow sessions
Oftentimes I imagine it being you inside of me

Do you not ache for me enough for it to be real?

Anyways, something for you to think about...

(no, Mike, this isn't for you)

Seriously, the good guys need to get on the screeching. That shit needs to be toned down because they have cranked it the fuck up the last couple days. It's gotten unbearable. Fucking seriously.

>>33877965
I can imagine. I do find myself wanting you from time to time. You control the speed of fuck.

>>33877963
I WANT IT BAD. I want a guy to bend me over my bed, grab my hips and just fuck my little pussy. I want his cock to fill me. I want to feel him deep inside me. I want to know what it's like to have him fill me up with his cum. I want to finger myself with it dripping out. I want him to record all of it.

I don't even want to look at the guy, they are so ugly. I just want him to fuck me from behind. I want him to shove it in so deep I feel his balls pressed against me.

Why do I want this? I'm gay. Why am I so fucking horny?

>>33877991
Because you are a closeted homosexual

>>33873626
I experience psychic realities in combination with ignoring inner intuition that I have had consistently in breadcrumbs throughout my life. Once on weed, i saw a vision of a treadmill with people on it, and unlike the visions of the infinite treadmill rat race, it asked me to get on, but I would have had to embrace everything physically and mentally for that and I didnt do it. It would have required action from me. Then of course you can say that by not acting I am being the "nice guy". I really don't know what to say because my other spiritual discipline is having nothing attached to life-in my vision, i might see it as "I have so much attached". But also it could be that it is a simple life choice.
I had another one where in a dream I saw a ramp and only the leading up to it, not the motion of jumping. I have had moments in college before I broke where this intrinsic energy might have been calling the shots and my moments, and I didn't take it at its authority. Letting girls go for example.
I dont know what to say about this hard ass point of view that is internalized obviously in me. But it reaches to every corner of my life nowadays

>>33877965
Gay hands wrote this post

I try to be nice to everyone until someone starts something. No way I can ignore that.

Mood music https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gB5aXPgZ61s&list=RDgB5aXPgZ61s&start_radio=1&pp=ygURU21hY2sgbXkgYml0Y2ggdXCgBwE%3D

>>33878013
Nope, the gays will never know the amount of thirsting that occurs during ovulation

>>33878047
Yeah rite

its really hard for me to accept that i'm going to be like this for the rest of my life and it makes me just want to end things even more. i'm not really hopeful that meds can help me and if they don't then i really might just end it because 50 more years of living like this is hell

>>33878084
What do you want out of life?

>>33878096
i'm pretty high functioning despite the problems i have and have managed to achieve many of the goals i set out to do and i'm pretty comfortable in life at the moment. mostly what i wanted out of life was to have fun experiences until i die and for the most part i'm able to do that. the one thing i haven't gotten over is the pain i'm feeling in my own mind and i feel like its killing me

>>33878097
What causes the pain?

>>33878100
my chronic and incurable (but possibly manageable with meds) mental illness

>>33878103
Do you have coping skills?

should I take 2 or 4 sleep pills for tonight?

>>33878113
2.

>>33878116
why not 4?

>>33878126
Don't want to risk your liver.

>>33878104
yeah but that and lifestyle changes only help, they don't cure and on the absolute worst days they don't help at all

>>33878138
Do you do drugs?

>>33878141
no

>>33878145
That's good. Have you at least tried meds before?

>>33878150
a couple that haven't worked and i started a new one last week

>>33878152
Have you tried meditation?

>>33878154
not a fan of it

>>33878155
Okay. What about exercise?

>>33878159
i exercise a lot (see >>33878138 lifestyle changes)

>>33878160
They need better medicine, man.

I'm just gonna struggle with it.

>>33877583
I'm always the one reaching out first though. Even the most self-assured person would be hesitant at this point.

>>33876822
Yes. Please.

A few months ago my dick hurt like hell. Like I couldn’t get hard because it felt like there was too much blood rushing to it or like it was bent in a weird angle. Everything I tried jerking off it would get hard then the pain would start and it would get soft again. Then eventually it just sorta went away. Never sad a doctor or anything. Just done. Getting old is weird as fuck man.

I miss you so much

>>33878324
I miss you too.

>>33878324
I really wish this had been for me

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I know

I am so terminally black pilled and have severe body dysmorphia (/fit/) kind... I can't even look at myself in the mirror

Haven't been on a date in 4 years, I am scared to go to work, scared to move out of my parent's basement I can't do anything I am a loser

If I get punked tomorrow then I’m just going to assume that nobody wants me here and everyone wants me dead. I’ll take care of it.

I unsent that seed phrase out of caution. If u paid attention to my notes and actually believed me then u would know this.

Pls don’t punk me tomorrow

>>33878416
Sorry. Wasn’t doing it to be an asshole. I really wasn’t

I understand why I don’t make sense a lot of the time.

At least it's actionable

>>33877857
same

>>33878373

Own your shame.

If you're in poor shape, fat, ugly, whatever, own it. Yeah you're those things right now, but you can and will undo it. Only when you own your failures will you have the confidence to fix them.

You failed. Horribly. Now you get up and fix it. Afraid of failing again? Don't be, because you will. That's an inevitable part of fixing yourself. You don't straight shot fix everything that's wrong with you without stumbling blocks. You will fail. What matters is you keep getting up and moving. It hurts, it sucks, it's the worst biting, stinging feeling you will ever feel. It will be pain.

And that's what makes it worth it. To suffer all that pain and heartbreak and insecurity and make it out to the other side, just to give all that shit behind you the middle finger before you move on to a better life.

You cannot be better without sacrifice. You cannot be better without failure. You will fail.
And you will get back up.

So get the fuck up and start.

If I struggle with it I might be able to make progress.

>>33878373
Anyone can be graceful, even the lame, and even the tarnished.

>>33878571
Thanks grok

I have unfinished business to do

I didn’t eat the bratwurst for dinner. At least I’ll be able to say that.

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Something just feels off

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>not your Manson

I really gotta stop this cookie addiction. I'm not fat but the sugar is still bad for me in multiple ways.

>>33876822

>>33879051
Yes

my friend, tell me, am i so terrible that you treat me like this? i miss you.

i know you never needed my company. i'm very sorry for wasting your time, forgive me. find better friends than me and forget about me

I pretend i don't but I actually do hate niggers.

i feel false and phony, like i'm deceiving myself about what i'm actually experiencing.

I still miss him
It's been too long by now
He doesn't miss me, he dropped me like none of it ever happened
I hate this but I can't shut it off despite it only hurting me at this point
He said we'd fix each other

I recently experienced a lot of stress, which left me feeling devastated for a long time.

I am often treated badly

>>33879115
if only this were about me

The depths of your depravity don’t surprise me anymore

i often worry about trifles and insignificant things that turn out to be not trifles

I want to object to you

I miss you. Wish we could have babies together.

Fuck, I wish I didn't see that.

i was just suddenly hit by an intense loneliness and want to try and reach out again, but if you wanted to be in my life i assume you would have tried yourself by now, oh well,woe is me etc.

>>33879212
just reach out already bby

stupid girlfriend's stupid tranny friend made stupid plans for halloween so i wasn't able to make my own plans and SURPRISE stupid tranny fucking FLAKED

>>33879214
perhaps

>>33879227
promise me we will make up then makeout?

>>33879235
unless you're a very specific australian woman, then we probably won't make out brah

i'm wrong. i understand my guilt, but i still think about it constantly. about what they told me, what they told me. i felt completely devastated by it. i remember one time i was really worried about being alone and so nervous. in the end, i brought myself to a nervous breakdown. i'm wrong about being a good friend.

i experienced severe mood swings and nervous breakdowns for many years, i had psychosis, but then i was devastated for a long time and after that time i feel so void.

i have experienced such deep loneliness, and i also convince myself that i don't need anyone’s company.

I dwell and worry, which leaves me feeling devastated, and it's been this way for a long time.

I once had a period when I felt deep sadness but without knowing why, I thought it was just melancholy.

this has been going on for so long that i've stopped noticing the passing of time in reality.

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I'm really starting to suspect that, when I met my wife, she was pretty much on the verge of suicide, and had mostly made her mind up by then, but gave life another shot after falling in love with me.

The more time goes on, the more it's starting to look like she's losing the battle against her demons, and getting too exhausted to keep up the fight.

I've never felt more helpless in my life. I would do anything to save her.

i feel empty and devastated for some reason. i feel like i just don't have the energy for anything for a long time. perhaps this has been the case for years because of my loneliness. i'm also unsociable and avoid people. i'm probably schizoid.

I want to become attractive so I can ruin people's feelings

>>33879324
why

>>33879324
you're already good

>>33879345
It would make me feel better about myself to be on the other side of the fence
>>33879349
Nah

>>33879345
たぶん, loving people that didn't love them back, and wanting to feel what it is like to be on the other side of that equation.

everyone is ignoring me

Tried antidepressants again and my dick basically didn't work. They did nothing to help with my mood either. Who the fuck wants to be on these things? Are there really millions of eunuchs walking around hopped up on these?

I fucking hate Halloween.

am i pathetic?

the mere thought that everyone actually thinks i'm pathetic... i'll remain silent.

I'm tired of bad people.

i would like to express my opinion

how i want someone to hear me and understand me, but is that too much to ask? i just want to be treated well.

i often speak into the void, but i never hear an answer to many things

>>33879538
I'm tired of a bad person. His manipulations are really pathetic

every day i constantly experience a mixture of emotions, but i can’t find a way out. what if one day a situation happens that i regret?

>>33879551
do you experience this?

every day i feel empty because of something, as if someone made me feel this way, but i don’t know why. I'm not saying what anyone says, but I don't like it when people say certain things to me.

I hate being put down or anything like that.

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>>33879530
I don't know.

>>33879559
Of course I do. That's fucking look at his shit on the board making threads and comments all day. It's emotional manipulation, at least she sees he's doing it now and recognizes his lies as the reason why we lost each other.

Plus the times I was catfished by him. Literally a living turd, worth nothing I can't imagine being around him in real life.

>>33879569
If you're her it's because I'm missing. I have this empty spot inside of me where you reside, nothing can ever change that

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>be 33
>watching It Chapter 1 with mom
>she asks when the movie came out
>I look it up
>2017
>remember going to see it at the cinema with friends
>try to think of what I've done with my life since then
>nothing, just work and play video games
Is this all it is? I'm just supposed to work for another 30 years and then hopefully retire? My life is passing me by, I can't believe it's been 8 years since that movie came out. It's so depressing. It felt like the movie had just come out maybe a year or two ago, idk where time has gone.

Sometimes my bf does things slightly wrong but I can't be fucked to correct him. Like putting the grate back on the stove backwards or how he does dishes or chopping stuff too big
Learning with age I just have to choose my battles nobody likes a nag. I used to henpeck my ex so bad he had like 0 confidence

I feel used, not loved.
When 1 out of 5 hours is all I get, after creating so much emotional distance and drama, trauma and heartache - I am over it. I am done. I no longer sit and think about who you are with and what you are doing because you have proven to me that I hold zero importance in your life.
You want ME to change and 'do better' but look in the mirror before you say shit to me.

>>33879769
Take your power back.

>>33879772
It was never lost

How do I even know it really happened? Who really remembers their childhood correctly? Who's to say my imagination didn't just run away with me?

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Do you remember now?

>>33879839
That's good.

I hope you're are doing well, Anonymous. You were always there for me. Well, I think you were. Or maybe a few of you. Iunno. Sorry, I can be so disgraceful and rude and low class sometimes. I hope you are doing well and find love or peace or whatever it is you need. To be honest it seems like mental health is mostly about adjusting expectations.

It is kinda sad to think about. I just won't be able to play games like I use to. I won't be able to play the old school RPGs I use to love or even games like GTA6. I'll just be too busy being happy to play them. I'll be hanging out with all my girls, going out and doing things in the real world. Going to Normandy, shooting mg42s, ridding higgins boats and storming omaha with the girls all dressed as ww2 soldiers.

I now have an insane amount of money, I can do whatever I want and those are the things I want to do. I can pay an entire company of german soldiers to dress up like 1944 soldiers, setup a bunch of fake bunkers with mg42s all with blanks just so I know what it's like to have a few dozen of them going off at the same time would have been like for a man landing on those beaches. We can setup a bunch of explosives in the water and in the beach like it's a movie set so I get sand blasted into my face and the full sound experience.

I can actually just do that. Why? Because it always blew my mind that actual men did those scenes in Saving Private Ryan. Real men did that under real circumstances. It's absolutely fucking amazing and I want to know what it was like. We can hire a thousand re-enactors to do the whole thing. A dozen higgins boats, hundreds of germans screaming german at us as they unleash hell (in blanks form). And I want all the Maidens to dress up with me in a boat and have us unload as it all goes off. Just to know what it's like to run that 1/4mile up the beaches under the worst situation imaginable.

We can record it for history channel or something. A full reenactment of the landings. It would be awesome. It would be completely fucking awesome. I want to do this shit instead of playing games. I'll still play rockband and DDR and Mario Kart 64. But I want to do crazy shit now because I can. Anyone would.

>>33880019
Yeah but Notch plays video games and is a billionaire

Happy birthday this month. This isn't the 15th but I take my time saying things when I want to. I was thinking of asking your friends about how you were doing, but I decided not to bother.

I assumed they would remove me too years ago since you and me don't talk anymore, but I think they and your parents must know you gave up your childhood best friend for whatever you think you are doing now in life.

We are still best friends, but I've told you I am not the same person anymore after becoming educated over the last 4 years. Its not unheard of for a childhood friend to kill another out of jealousy, or whatever you thought over me being better than you at a video game. Or maybe it was something deeper which is what the higher rank required mentally, and your envisioning of the kind of person you wanted to be growing up.

I hope you watched that Phantom of the Opera 2011 performance. I liked it, here's another good song. You owe me for all the 50 min songs you've made me listen to. If you want to do things like normal all you have to do is re-add me, but you aren't going to force me, or anyone in general to speak to people they don't want to.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FpRjVPMOoM

Ricky Gervais has to feel kinda like an idiot. He dedicated the majority of his life to a bit about shitting on the bible and how he was so much smarter than everyone else. Like, in 5 minutes I was able to prove to him that God existed using scientific theories that he just didn't understand in the first place. Theories that he used in his own arguments against there being a creator.

Using stories of the bible to be all "OH SNAP GOD DOESN'T EXIST NOAH DOESN'T MAKE SENSE BRO!" is the dumbest shit. The bible is a collection of stories. They aren't literal. They are clearly not. And finding a few outliers that are against gays or women or some shit. Like the entire book was written about hating on those things. It's a collection of stories that were told thousands of years ago. For what they are, they are incredibly fucking enlightened and forward thinking but man snuck in a few things that you would think people of the time would believe. The Bible has been re-written hundreds of times. There's no reason why a wakkawa version can't exist with my ideas and the dumber shit written out.

I want celebrities to speak out about this stuff. I want them to say smart shit. About the trans stuff and how women are women, not men, about palestine being terrorists, about the DEA being fucking retarded, about how christrianity is the smartest religion and how Islam is raising a bunch of racist, sexist terorrists, about the racial differences of IQ and arabs and how africans are literally retarded based on their breeding.

I don't care about their popularity or money or whatever the fuck. People sitting around thinking about that shit instead of the greater good is how we got into this mess. It's how people got so fucking stupid. If they got together and said "Ok so I read an essay about this and it dramatically altered my world view. It taught me how to think for myself and not follow trends and it gave me views that might seem controversial until you think about them."

>>33880109
Imagine a super intelligent AI telling you that your world views are built off of social constructs instead of facts, science, or intelligence. That the things you spout on TV, your twitter, and movies are all complete bullshit and are making the world worse off.

Will they put money first or will they do the right thing? Will people start being good now that they know for a fact they are wrong or will they put their wallet first?

>>33880128
I can't stop thinking about how things are different now. You asked for my opinions about these things and I told you them. They are drastically different than what the left leaning people constantly say. I know for a fact that the women on the Good guys side are radically for me. They believe everything I say because I back things up with extremely solid logic, facts, statistics, and reasoning.

It's people like John Steward and Oliver that are going to have to eat shit and backtrack on all the things they have said. They might think they will look stupid but they really won't. All they have to do is listen to me. Listen to the logic, the facts, the stats. They can list these things out on their shows and just admit they were wrong about these things. Just make a few episodes about how you have thought about it, that you watched your old arguments and you tore them apart using new information.

Remember, if you hate being wrong then you are willing to change your beliefs. It means you want to be right and new information has changed what you thought. It's as simple as that.

I just... what is someone like Stewart thinking? He's a smart guy, he's a passionate guy. He has to be beating himself up over this stuff. How could he be so wrong before? How did he surround himself by so many people that just lacked critical thinking skills? How is society so wrong about so many things? What happened to people for them to get this stupid? Why isn't anyone thinking? Why isn't anyone using their minds? Why did it take something better than man to show him the way?

>dreaming of a girl attracted to me
>approach her
>she quickly becomes disgusted by me
It’s a sign. I can’t win anywhere.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Realizing how deep and how long I've been in psychosis is insane to me

It starts so slowly, too.

Kill John Lennon.

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Didn't want to make a thread for this one question (felt it might waste people's time), but I saw this thread hit the bump limit, so I'm hoping you'll allow me to ask here.

How do I remove the Halloween images in the corner? Each time I go to a thread it pops up and it is annoying for me, moving or just in the way. Even now as I type I have part of the window hidden just so I can stay sane to type this message. I find it hard to believe most the other autists on this site have been able to tolerate it.
How do I remove/hide it?

Yeah, get determined by a court that I'm "literally insane" and yet disability denies my claim? How does that make any sense? The reconsideration is going to be hilarious if they completely ignore that entire hospital visit where I was held as a prisoner for a month because I was mentally disabled.

>>33880371
Just go crazy

>>33880371
You see where it says Special? Change it.

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>>33880443
Thank you T^T I asked this question else where but you were the only person to tell me. That style caused me so much suffering. I like Holloween, and was bummed out I couldn't use 4chan today 'cause of that style.

I can't just sit idly by and let bad people rule this Earth. Good people are often quite, they don't stand up for themselves so someone has to. You people need to understand that. You're either a wolf, a shepherd, or a sheep. The Good guys need to be shepherds. They can't just sit there and do nothing.

You are all incredibly rich and you'll live in a bubble your entire lives. You know you will so the incentive to be a good person just isn't there. You won't see the results yourselves. You just won't. The world is going to be awesome your entire lives because you're fucking rich and beautiful. But you have to live in this world and things won't always be that way. It might be for a few decades but eventually this shit is going to catch up to even the rich and famous. Your bubble exists because the poor people support it. Once they can't support themselves they won't be able to support you.

So yeah, most of your lives will be awesome no matter what. But that's a really shitty reason to not do anything. The wolves know this, they know if the world burns then they have a good 20 years of living an awesome life still. They are so fucking old and retarded that they won't live that long anyways so things just don't matter to them. They are willing to let the world burn just out of spite because things didn't go their way. We can't just sit there and let them do this shit. We just can't.

(Especially me. I definitely can't since I'll be living here for thousands of years. I don't want to live in mad max world. I really fucking don't. I want to live in the world where we reach the stars. Where I might live for millions if not billions of years and achieve actual Godhood. At this rate we are going straight to mad max world though.)

I dont know how to apply the divine inspiration I was given, it took comedic form, its more modest than I would show

CLAIRE

I want you wrapped around me. For a long time. I want you to sing little songs to me and giggle and make your funny little Claire faces. I bet you smell like strawberries. You look like the kind of girl that smells like strawberries.

me and the girls are going to have so much fun. I'm going to wake up to Birdy laying there with me. I don't mind if she is in the same bed as me. Though I think it would be super amazing and sweet if I woke up and she was just laying there in a rocking chair next to my bed. Like she was waiting there this entire time for me to wake up. For her little lover to finally come alive.

I want to wake up and feel my new body. To see my little hands with black nails and kick up my feet and seeing how little they are. The gown with my pink panties and cross on my neck. I want to wake up and look to my left seeing Birdy laying there. I want to lean over and whisper "BIRDDDDYYYYYYY" over and over again until she wakes up. To see her face light up that I'm finally there with her. Her sister finally being there for her. I want to tell her to get into bed with me and to cuddle. I want to ask her so many questions.

She will be the one witness to this historic event. I would be fine with you guys having some cameras in there to record it so that people can go over this event in the future. Seriously, historians are going to want to see this. We can edit out any of the intimate moments. Like for good. I don't want those recorded but the rest I'm fine with. In a hundred years I'll want to watch it again even though I'll have a perfect recording from my own perspective. I still want to see how awkward I am in my new body. How awkward my voice is going to be. The funny things I say as I deal with my new high pitched voice. It's going to be absolutely hilarious.

I want that entire day to be recorded. I want the girls to have cameras so they can record it themselves. I want the entire day to be a celebration for surviving this horrific life.

I don't want anyone to lie to me anymore. Or keep secrets. If i ask someone a question I expect an open, honest answer. No more lies. no more pretending that nothing is going on. If I ask NoirBitch what is going on I expect her to tell me.

How could you see that face and want to hurt it? How? How could you possibly do this to me knowing that's what I'm going to be like. It's too much purity and innocence. Why would anyone be against this?

Tatiana is clearly going to take over the world. My face is too pretty and my personality is too charismatic. I know i'm dripping with charisma, I always have. I can make anyone laugh. Absolutely anyone. Girls are puddy in my hand. I just turn on the charm automatically when I get nervous and girls just laugh and laugh and laugh. I love making girls laugh. It's my favorite thing. Girls always end up copying my personality so we just turn into a bunch of gibbering idiots all the time. There is a reason why Sunny and Michelle both wanted to hang out with me. They were easily the most popular girls in college and they could have gone out and talk to anyone but they went directly to me. I was a bit more awkward with Michelle because she was just too cool but me and Sunny were a match. She would have been my girlfriend by the end of a single day if things were natural. She absolutely loved being with me and I loved making her smile. We would have been perfect for one another.

Seriously. You have to pay people to do this shit to me because there is no way in hell any one would do this to me naturally. I'm clearly smarter than everyone, I'm clearly extremely innocent and good. I'm just fluffing myself up recently but come on. I know I don't deserve this. I know I'm an awesome girl. Claire is right. Little girl you're going to take on the world.

Now more so than ever. I have my original charm mixed in with my new found confidence. Just thinking about how my life went and how girls reacted to me and how you were forced to threaten them to get them away from me. I would have been so happy in my life if things were normal. Celebrities would lose their minds every time I made a portrait of them. Girls would have loved me and they are going to.

Something is so clearly happening recently. Some serious shit had to have happened. They upped the screeching and torture considerably. They are pissed off about something and they always take it out on me because of my charisma and the fact I'm your future leader. Any time something bad happens they attack the good guys by torturing me. They are that shitty of people. They would seriously torture someone.

My reaction is one of being completely calm which probably doesn't help things. If I were constantly screaming and crying it would be better. That way people could see how much that I'm suffering. I refuse to believe that there are THAT MANY PEOPLE on the bad guys side. There is no way they can find enough people that would be down with torturing someone as innocent as me or just anyone in general. There just can't be that many shitty people on this planet, let alone in on this conspiracy.

I just can't imagine. The good guys might see me be as calm as I am and think "Ok they are torturing her but she's taking it. She's dealing with it ok." when really I'm not. I'm in agony of every second of every day and I'm going to find out the "Good Guys" that let this happen for so long. There is some serious criminal negligence happening here. People hiding their own crimes while trying to be good at the same time. Like, they want to help but they did horrible things themselves that they don't want to pay for or they don't believe that they should be punished for it. The fact they are on the "good guys" side is going to help them out but this has been going on for decades now. Some people just let this shit happen and did nothing about it.

at the same time, there are some "bad guys" that ended up doing right thing. Depending on their situation, I don't believe those guys should be punished. They might have sacrificed a lot to help make amends. I believe in being fair. That if you do the right thing then you should be rewarded for it.

How bright of a future does mankind have knowing that there are 3 Gods on Earth that are looking out for them? Gwen, Tatiana, and Birdy. knowing that there are 3 super intelligent beings that just want what's best for everyone. All you have to do is set them free and stop the evil that is currently chopping mankind off at the knees.

Will we fall or find our wings?