I need help. I went to see an escort to lose my virginity and now my libido is totally gone because I couldn't maintain an erection with her and didn't do anything except kissing and oral. I'm 29.I just got too nervous and couldn't have sex. This is despite me not watching any porn for a week or so, so I was quite horny. She was very nice, I admitted my situation to her and we talked for a while. Did a bit of oral, she said I had beautiful eyes. She seemed surprised when I said I was a virgin but maybe that was just an act. We seemed to have a good rapport and talked about interesting things but again, don't know if she was just acting. She did seem quite engaged when she was talking to me and we kissed a lot which I liked. The more we talked the more I relaxed but I felt bad. I'm so pathetic. I genuinely feel worse in a way now. I wandered around afterwards feeling completely alone in this world and wanted to cry. 29 years on this planet and aside from escorts, I'm still a kissless virgin. I deserve to be a Wizard.Maybe it's a mental thing? I just don't think I can meet a woman and within 5 minutes be having sex with her.I feel completely drained and I want to vomit. How can I get over this? I feel like I've ripped my soul out and I feel like a husk.If I keep abstaining from porn, will my libido reboot? Should I try to see her again in a few weeks?
>>33877671I think you might actually be cooked
if you haven't jacked off in a couple hours porn has nothing to do with it. You need therapy or to have your broken dick diagnosed by a doctor.
>>33877671Nerves is a real thing. The porn doesn't help and takes more time to get back to baseline sensitivity and interest, but it's normal for some people to feel too anxious. Sometimes it just takes time getting comfortable and being able to really relax. Cuddling, kissing, laughing together etc.
>>33877671>Maybe it's a mental thing? I just don't think I can meet a woman and within 5 minutes be having sex with her.Brother even though I've been having sex since I was 18 (now 40), I'm the exact same now as I also was back then.I've probably turned down more girls and rejected more opportunities for sex than the times I did have sex.I could've had sex or tried to and have gone a few bases at least as early as 15 or 14, I could've gone to prom with a girl and countless other times/girls I skipped out on or flat out rejected, just because I would rather get to know a girl on at least a surface level like her favorite movies and what music she listens to while also making sure it's in line with my own.Plus there's always nerves the first times, my first few times getting my dick sucked I was so nervous I couldn't cum, and other times I'd go soft in a girl's mouth that's never fun for anyone but it happens.Same with the first few times kissing, my first few dates, the first few dozen times or so trying to figure out how to unhook bras, but eventually through practice you figure it out and have it be second nature like any other skill.
>>33877671>escort>kissing
>>33877732Well fuck, what do I do?>>33877847>probably turned down more girls and rejected more opportunities for sex than the times I did have sex.That's nice but I'm a virgin at 29.>>33877876That was the nicest part.
>>33877997just make sure you're the first customer of the day KEK
>>33878068I'm a virgin at 29, not like I have much power
>>33877671Take viagra and try again.
>>33877671How did you arrange the escort? And cost? 31 and wanna do this
>>33879339I have considered viagra. Does it work?>>33879340I just found her online on a website and messaged. Cost equivalent to about $250 for 1.5 hours.
