Hello, i have been single basically my entire life, whether i wanted to or not is another question but this is both because i have traits that are extremely negative to women while also having traits i feel will also be further negative in dating. I can see myself becoming very abusive and distant randomly and in general using a woman and specifically her body as a object that allows me to relieve stress and sadness. I cant empathize with them either mainly because i feel i have dealt with far more bullshit than they have and i really dont care what they cry about, they arent disposable like me. Physical touch is a need and if they are denying it i will treat it as if they are denying me food or water, it is a death threat and will be treated accordingly. In general though, i would love to never speak to them again. I would love to never be around that gender again unless its for work. I could go on ranting about myself, society, and women for a paragraph or more but it doesnt matter, i think ive said my peace enough on it. Its in everyones best interests if i stay single.
>>33878472Unfortunately my brain seems to not agree with that, at all, and i get aggressive misery cycles and major suicidal idealization. I have tried to kill myself 3 times over the last decade. When i see an escort and i have a woman in my arms i feel human again, i feel like a normal person, i feel like someone who has a future and is worth a shit. I can literally feel like electricity moving under my skin, coming through my arms and across my entire body. I feel the weight of the entire world off my shoulders. This is with a stranger, who i know i paid, so i cant even fathom how extremely powerful it must be with someone you know the name of and share an emotional connection. This has created a lot of stress though, and costed a lot of money. I would love to find an alternative. One that doesnt use another persons body. I hate how i have to use another person to feel good and i would love for that to no longer be a thing. I dont want to go and bother another person for what is basically exclusively a me problem and a problem only i am dealing with.
>>33878472bump
I've been single nearly my whole life. Now obviously, single does not mean sexless. I'm just not the type who wants to be attached in a relationship.
>>33879390I havent been lucky enough to make that choice, i am apparently subhuman and considered the worst fucking thing ever to women so i basically have to use escorts tell recently where even that is failing. I dont want a girlfriend or anyone in my life for a massive list of reasons i also though just dont want to be miserable all the time too. I dont want to deal with this gender ever again. I just have zero motivation to live with the reality that i will never be with anyone and will never sleep with anyone unless i take a legal risk and spend $500. I hate it, and it causes nothing but pain
>>33880180Are you average looking? Why not just get a cuddle buddy on bumble or whatever
>>33878472>I can see myself becoming very abusive and distant randomly and in general using a woman and specifically her body as a object that allows me to relieve stress and sadness >I cant empathize with them eitherfunnily enough, there are plenty of men who fit this description and are in a relationship with a woman
>>33880212No, I am below average and I'm tired of trying to "self improve" tell I am considered normal. Any time I've used dating apps I get zero real matches in a year, it goes no where. Any time I try anything irl it also goes nowhere. The only way I can even get a hug is if I pay for it. To give you an idea of what that looks like I usually have to drive 45 minutes and pay $115 for a Handjob and a massage. Thats the cheapest. Second cheapest is $300/hr fs if I am lucky, I, of course, have to drive around 3 hours away to get that price. Where I live they charge around $500-$600/hr. It's rushed, their attitude sucks and I hate every moment of it. I never wanted to sleep around, I always wanted one person but that demand is apparently too high. I never want to be romantically attracted to women again all it causes is pain.>>33880231Yeah and according to women I'm worse than that by default so you are just adding more horror to already existing horror. Me having an attraction to them causes a lot of pain for both parties and on top of that we just don't live in a time period at all where I can get the super luxury that is a sane normal girlfriend that doesn't hate me.
