I used to be a vague agnostic 23 year old until I had two episodes of THC-induced religious psychosisFirst episode came out of nowhere. I took a month long break from THC and decided broke that streak with a large hit. I was relaxing on the couch when suddenly my mind started repeating the feeling “you’re going to hell” over and over. My body started getting hot and my ears rang. I started to panic; it felt like my whole reality was shattered and God was just now revealing himself to me. I felt so guilty about everything I had done, even my lifelong porn addiction. My parents eventually came home to me panicking and then I started believing that the rapture was imminent and that I had to save everyone in the house by having them touch me. I then began to freeze and it felt like I was stuck repeating the same thoughts over and over. Time began to distort and slow and I thought I was stuck in a time loop that I couldn’t get out of. I eventually calmed down and came out of my high. I didn’t really know what to take away from the experience. Was it real? Was it a psychological-chemical reaction. My sister gave me a bible to keep with me as a gesture of comfort (1/?)
Second episode happened less than a year after. I went around 6 months without THC and my cravings for weed eventually broke me. I took a long hit from a cheap pre-roll and within minutes, the repeated message of “you’re going to hell” returned. I started to think about all of my friends and family and how they’re going to hell. I then believed that God was telling me to read the bible my sister gave me but I eventually got too scared and came to my parents. I ran upstairs and panicked, shouting “God is real” over and over. They were upset that I was going through psychosis again and even contemplated calling the hospital for help. That’s when the worst part came: like a human seeing a glitch in the matrix and realizing they’re in a simulation, I began to believe that the reality I see around me was in fact hell and that I had to kill a person in order to not permanently die in hellI began to scream and bawl my eyes out as I scratched my sister and I kept telling her I didn’t want to hurt her. Eventually my consciousness began to slip away as I once again went into a time loop where I was stuck repeating the same thoughts over and over. It was like constant deja vu and a sudden loss of consciousness every 1-2 seconds. Like before, i eventually climbed out of the high and went to bed(2/?)
>>33887281The following few weeks had me doubting reality. I wasn’t sure if it was just a bad THC induced episode of psychosis or if it was a genuine supernatural experience. I have since become much more open to the idea of God and I feel obligated to push my very worldly family towards him. However, I still hold serious doubts as to whether he existsEvery argument I see being made for him has been absolutely retarded. From “if God not real, then morality not real” to “Muh prime mover”, it all falls apart and are at best reasons to be open to the idea of God, not definitive proofIt doesn’t help that his followers are often absolutely retarded. They may not chop off their tits and believe girls can be boys but they’ll fall for the easiest propaganda, be it Israeli zogslop being fed to old people or pretentious shallow “retvrn to tradition” content that young people are eating up.What’s the hardest to get over is the fact that I can’t reconcile with what God does in the bible. People will point their fingers at hellenistic gods and proclaim them to be abhorrent demons but I honestly feel the same way when I read about God commanding israelites to impale amalekite children and infants. I don’t care if the people were given 800 years to turn away, it has always struck me as wrong. Same with the way God doesn’t command his people to turn away from slavery and instead permits it. Same goes with God allowing satan to ruin Job’s life, or allow satan to even roam the garden of eden in the first place.(3/?)
>>33887291Despite all of this, I can’t shake off the feeling that my THC-induced episodes of psychosis could have been messages from God. My greatest fear, aside from there being no afterlife that would allow me to love my mother and siblings forever, is the fear that hell exists and me and my family and friends are heading to it.I feel that if God exists and I were to die and go to judgment, I would have no excuse. He would tell me that he gave me clear messages and that I spent my time rationalizing a secular explanation for them instead of immediately changing my life.At the same time, I cannot understand why my experience had me thinking the rapture was imminent and that I could save my family, or that I was actually in hell and needed to kill a person. I’ve heard that God doesn’t intend to cause confusion in his messages. Anyway, what would you do in my situation?>Don’t do weedI’m practically 17 months sober and don’t plan on going back
>>33887276>Should I push my family towards God even ifThere are two possibilities:1. You had a religious experience.2, You had a psychotic episode.Either way, you have no business "pushing" your experience onto anyone else.
>>33887276>had two episodes of THC-induced religious psychosisYou're aware that this is psychosis. Encouraging it is the LAST thing you should be doing.
No. Never push
tldr>every time i smoke weed it almost snaps my mind in half>i keep doing it tho>should anyone listen to me about anythingno
>>33887276There are extradimensional entities and they use religion to manipulate people. Drugs weaken the aura so the entities have more ability to access you. So if you're going to do drugs, you have to be less gullible and manipulatable. If you hear a message like "you're going to hell" you should affirm that you are worthy and god is loving, so no you are not. Or simply declare that you know they are a malicious entity and that their words mean nothing except they should find something better to do or at least a more gullible person to go bother. In my experience if you stand up to entities they are quick to go away or be convinced by you.There are positive entities that use religion too that send positive messages to people. They might have useful information, or help people avoid danger, and just claim they are an angel or something so you'll listen to them, they'll communicate with you according to your belief system. So you can choose a positive self-empowering belief system, it is more practical than the fundie christian guilt nonsense.When you hear messages in your mind think of it like a call on the telephone, you have no idea who is on the other end, but don't assume it's god or a demon, it's just another entity like you that has thoughts and feeling of its own. Judge the message on its own merits. Someone who is tell you you are going to hell is just trying to mess with you.
>>33887276All cannabis-induced psychosis stems from a refusal to let go. If you are clinging onto anything then that one thing will repeat itself over and over until you let go, eventually letting go even of life and death.The content of the thoughts is completely irrelevant, it only tells you what you're clinging onto.
>>33887877Schizo babble
>>33887276Do whatever your god inspires Anon.
>>33887853He said he’s 17 months sober
Let me be blunt with you:Even if you wanted to convince your family of god, you sperged out twice in front of them. They will just think it's after-effects from the psychosis and they're right to believe so.If there is a reason you want to become a better person, don't let the existence or non-existence of god and hell stop you. Don't get hung up on that, instead do what you can do.Never smoke weed again, and stay away from psychedelics, your psychosis could easily develop into permanent schizophrenia.
>>33887276Honestly, it's probably learned guilt that you usually dismiss being manifested. Personally the few times I have gotten high the feeling that I am obnoxious that I usually suppress manifests. I feel like I gain the perspective of others as to why I am "obnoxious." However, when I ask others about it, it ain't real and they just kind of lol wondering wtf I am talking abt.
>>33887276If you do it enough God will come to you, guaranteed.
