I was brutally tortured as a child by my adopted family. I believe it was their intention to fuck up my brain so badly that I would qualify for social security benefits as a minor, so they could cash in. I wish I could sue them, but I can't. Anyway, being tortured caused me to have a hypervigilante mentality, meaning that I try to right what I see wrong in the world. I feel kinda bad about it, but I've tortured some genuinely evil people throughout my life. A horrible bully in 4th grade, a homeless man who called me a bitch repeatedly in front of my gf on camera then walked away laughing thinking he was invincible, and even this psychotic demon child (I'll copy & paste what I said to my therapist later) who was about 5-8 years younger than me back when I was in high school. Unlike a psychopath, I actually am capable of remorse. I genuinely do try to better myself. Not only am I taking meds, but I'm also in a multiple kinds of professional therapy that I am very grateful is free. The /adv/ice I'm looking for is how do I improve myself, not get caught hurting evil people, or better yet, not interact with evil people? Thank you for your time.
Title: Demon Child (1/2)I'm about to tell a true story of me having to deal with a psychotic demon child (back in highschool) & how my nearly completely useless family set me up for failure (again). This demon child held me at knife point demanding that I pull down my pants, so that he could cut off my balls, feed them to me, & then cut a hole in my throat to grab my balls & make me eat them again until I die... I told the Tucson Arizona police this, but they refused to do anything about it because apparently it's ```not possible``` for a 11-12 to to be this violent. He also assaulted me 10+ times in the same day before I started breaking his stuff in retaliation. He tackled me from behind while I was sitting at my friend's computer desk, causing me to be THRUST into the hard wood desk, bruising my chest in multiple places. I had nothing better to do at my friend's place other than to use their family's computer, so I was persistent about fixing the problems this mentally ill child kept giving me. I grabbed one of the massive couch pillows to brace myself for being tackled behind again. Not only did I lock the door (to which he found a key for because it's his home), but this future chronically psychiatric ward patient also urinated on my leg from my blind spot, like a poorly trained animal, laughed hysterically, then ran off again with his d**k out. My first impression of him was him being in his birthday suit, sprinting indoors, SCREAMING obscenities! I tried to be patient with him because not only was he in middle school, but I also had a baseline respect for him because he's my friend's little brother, [but he pushed me wayyyy too far].
Title: Demon Child (2/2)While I was busy, he decided to throw away. every. single. pillow in the entire house, specifically just to hurt me more by tackling the back of my chair. He also stole my glasses & run off with them, and then locked himself in the bathroom laughing about how funny it is to steal from me. I was SO FURIOUS at this point that I kicked in the bathroom door & punched him in the face while he was on the toilet. He then threw a turd at me. I demanded to know where he put my glasses, but he wouldn't budge. I gave him an ultimatum saying that if he doesn't return my glasses, I'm going to make him regret it. I broke his PlayStation, every game, all of his transformer toys, cut the cable to his bedroom TV, stabbed his mattress dozens of times to rip it up, and then I found my glasses. Hidden in his super yellow crusty pillow case. I asked him where he put on my glasses & you guys probably won't believe this, but he claims that he came on my glasses. I was so disgusted by this that I was gagging & continued gagging all the way to the bathroom sink to wash them off. His laughter at this point was traumatizing. It's no wonder his brother had suicidal thoughts. I would too if I had to live with that demon daily.
>>33889026>how do I improve myselfThe usual dad advice that has been listed here many times. You'll have to be more specific about what you want.
>>33889026I doubt that that child was psychotic, but I get your point. On the part of your "hypervigilantism" I would just say that as you described it this seems legitimite self defense. Fuck these evil people. How do you know whats right retaliation? So first off the non-aggression principle applies. But if they start aggressing, then they deserve retaliation within proportionality to the offense. If this was not the case then no human society could function. Think about it.You sound extremely based to me. I am proud of you, just dont turn evil yourself and all is fine.
