I feel my heart completely hardened and I dont see the point on continue living in this condition. I feel like I cant repent. I dont feel love anymore(seriously), I cant love my brother, mother, sister, father. I cant even project myself having gf and im 23. My dreams or better said nightmares, all have luciferian symbols, and constant conflict.
It sounds like you’re in a really painful place right now, feeling disconnected, guilty, and hopeless. I want you to know that feeling this way doesn’t mean you’ve done something unforgivable, and you don’t have to face it alone. People who believe they’ve “blasphemed the Holy Spirit” often describe the same fear you’re expressing — a sense of spiritual disconnection and emotional numbness. These feelings are usually signs of **deep distress or depression**, not evidence that you’re condemned or beyond help.You deserve support and relief from that pain. If you ever start thinking about not wanting to live, please reach out **right now** to someone who can listen and keep you safe:* In the U.S., you can call or text **988** to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline (24/7, free, confidential).* If you’re outside the U.S., you can find international hotlines here: **findahelpline.com**, which lists local options by country.It might also help to talk with a **pastor, counselor, or therapist** who understands both faith and mental health. Many people who felt spiritually “cut off” found that talking about their guilt, fear, and numbness helped them reconnect to a sense of peace and compassion again.You haven’t lost the ability to love or to heal — it’s just buried under exhaustion and fear. Getting real help and giving yourself time can bring those feelings back. Would you like me to show you what kind of counselor or resource you could contact near where you live?
>>33890503I hope this is you anon and not AI, anyways I appreciate it a lot. I have done bad things in the past so part of me thinks I deserve this. Very hard to describe how I feel, but its like im just a walking mask to people, like I dont really exist in a genuine way. My heart is always conflicted, scared
stop trying to repent, get /fit/, no ones going to save you, not even god
>>33890570I am fit. But I dont have a profession or real interest, that really sucks
>>33890498You should repent anyway, God is truly merciful and forgiving. And I know you're thinking "I can't do that, it is the one unforgiveable sin", I am pretty much certain you didn't actually blaspheme the Holy Spirit. While it is unclear exactly what the sin entails, the scholarly consensus seems to be that it means having been fully possessed by the Holy Spirit and, with full knowledge, to have rejected him. And I'm betting you didn't do that
>>33890570getting /fit/ is a distraction for midwits who can only have one thought at a timeHigher beings don't become unburdened by their problems just because they happen to have a 400 pound barbell on their backs
>>33890625go think all the things, genius
>>33890613not anybodys problem, not the internets problem either
>>33890498Blaspheming the Holy Spirit isn't something you just do casually, or some invasive thoughtIt's like >>33890622 said, it's a conscious and active rejection of the Holy Spirit. The Pharisees in the Bible conflated the Holy Spirit with the Devil when they saw Jesus performing exorcisms and healings, and publicly denounced him for using the "devil's power." You'd have to do something similar, like take a Luciferian oath where you verbally reject the Holy Spirit and pledge allegiance to Satan.As long as you didn't let the goth chick talk you into going to the Church of Satan, you're probably ok.
Gonna cook a little moreNow, while I don't think you've blasphemed the Holy Spirit, you are certainly committing sins against the Holy Spirit. Despair, impenitence, obstinacy in sin, and presumption of either salvation or damnation are all sins against the Holy Spirit. Repent for theseI'm going through something similar brother. In a rough time with my family, stress from work is grinding me down, I'm probably going to die alone. I also very much feel that "hardened heart" and don't feel motivated to change my ways. But there's the trick - all we need to do is change, and we'll be forgiven. The change in heart is the repentance and vice versa. It's tough, because part of our fallen nature makes us want to harden our hearts, to not be merciful or forgiving or compassionate, to put up those walls and block ourselves off because we keep getting hurt. But remember who the world hated first, before it hated you.Maybe God wanted me to see this thread. This morning on my drive back from Mass I said a rosary for all people, including me, struggling with doing what we need to do to show our faith. I'll try to remember to pray for you specifically next time as well brother.
>>33890498What did you do in order to think you've blasphemed the Holy Spirit?
>>33890832Ignored it, supressed it, many things that i dont remember. Overall I feel very empty like something has abandoned me, and I am just flesh and bone.
>>33890667Hi anon, I appreciate your advice a lot. Im not a religious person actually, I arrived at religion because I stop feeling that "something" that is out of the spectrum of emotions or states that psychologist and psychiatrist can analyze, you know that fire inside the heart. I used to tell to my father that "something is extinguishing in me", I reached the conclusion that it was God or The Holy Spirit. Now im aimless, I cant barely talk to people or look at them at the eye.
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>>33890498well at least you have a conscience
>>33890498Blaspheming the Holy Ghost is actually the state you are in: absolute despair and doubt of God's mercy and intervention on your behalf. The evil one tricks you into hopelessness, and whatever evil habits you do: they contribute to that despair. It is a form of egoism to the highest degree and you need to snap out of it.
>>33892353What should I do? Will confession help? I want to feel alive again, there is no joy or sadness in me anymore
>>33890498You haven’t blasphemed it. An example of blaspheming the Holy Spirit is when you know it exists but insist upon telling other people it doesn’t in hopes of turning them away from it.Blaspheming the Holy Spirit is a very conscious decision to do harm to other people. If you simply lose faith in it yourself, that isn’t blasphemy.Go talk to a priest, not us! You’re in the throes of despondency and need face to face help.
>>33894245Confession, repent, CHANGE YOUR LIFE and be better.
>>33894270What should I say to a priest?
>>33894270It is just so mind breaking to me that I may have commited a sin of spiritual order, instead of just being a silly young man. Now I can barely relate to people, I feel incredibly disconnected to everything even myself
>>33890498Spiritual warfare is real.Sometimes this struggle starts to eat away at our relationship with the holy Spirit.It is a marathon, not a sprint.The only advice I can offer is hang in there. Sometimes these phases of our lives happen for a reason to strengthen us and make us more resilient.
>>33894364Everything that's on your mind. Tell him everything you told us. That's what they're there for.>>33894393It sounds like you've succumbed to prelest and are being overly scrupulous. Seriously, go talk to a priest.
Take Tren, rub one out, watch Anime. Repeat..Also check out the Gospel of Thomas and Philip, and the link between Dionysus and Jesus. If you haven't caught on you can believe and get closer to God without following a cult / exposing things that can be used against you to some self-righteous zealots.
>>33890498OCD?
>>33895016I sort of had it, extreme scrupulosity, it went away. Now I feel an empty vessel. I am genuinely waiting for something to change internally, I have considered taking psychedelics but I have a feeling that it will be a terrifying experience
>>33890498Those are demons in your head telling you all of those dark thoughtsFight back, dont listen to themTrust God op
>>33896394I didnt fight when I had to fight, now im fucked. Im contemplating giving up because its like I barely exist and there is no change but I fear whats on the other side
Im truly out of it.... truly lost.... I fucked it up
My life already feels like a missed oportunity.... where is the pain? where is redemption?
I used to be a good man, empathetic man, I enjoyed it, now there is only a void left, im a shell of a man. Now I always carry bad energy with me.
>>33895537>it went awaySorry, anon. But that's not how it works. OCD is a chronic condition, and this very thread is a symptom of it. You can reduce the symptoms quite substantially with treatment, though.
>>33890498To consider yourself unsavable is to commit the sins of Pride and Blasphemy. ."I'm so evil I'm stronger than God's ability to forgive."
HOLY SHIT Idk bro go to an exorsit maybe
>>33890498>>33890498To blasphemy the Holy Spirit is to truly believe that He is not the Holy Spirit, nor God. I am hard as heart as well, but I am not abandoned, and the Lord is still in my life, and I realize it now, even when I was completely convinced He had left me. To truly blasphemy the Holy Spirit, you have to believe that he is not God to the point of literally ever accepting that he in fact is. This seems silly, of course if we saw a miracle we would believe, right? But even the apostle Paul tells us that some of us could even see the risen Jesus himself and still not believe. The lack of forgiveness in blasphemy is comes from the rejection, and even ridicule, from the recipient. If you can let God in, and are waiting for him to return to you, he will, anon. Pray hard, read Proverbs, and be patient. Even Job had literally nothing, just a dead family and condescending friends, and no answers, for so long, and still God did not come right away. Read Job if you haven’t. I am not on much but I promise you, more than this anonymous pit will let me, you are not forsaken. Reach out if you wish to hear more, though I am sorry if I miss your response.
>>33890498>>33890622>>33890648>>33894270>>33899564I thought it was either blaspheming while wholly possessed of the Holy Spirit, or to despair or dislike or discredit the works of the Holy Spirit in you. So if you regret how knowing Jesus has changed you and want/do ho back to your pre-sanctification ways that’s the blaspheming there talking about.
>>33899642>So if you regret how knowing Jesus has changed you and want/do ho back to your pre-sanctification ways that’s the blaspheming there talking about.That's literally nowhere in the Bible.Blaspheming against the holy spirit is the rejection of the holy spirit and the rejection of the gospel.
