I'm 28yo. Male. Lately I've been aching because two of my friends recently got girlfriends out of nowhere from one week to the other and now I kind of lost them. They hardly contact me and whenever they do, it's to tell me that they appreciate me and stop thinking about negative things (suicidal tendencies.)Other than the fact that my friends are bound to leave me sooner than later, I wanted to understand about love. How does it work? How does one manage to find someone just like that? One of them is already talking about making a life with that girl and all. Meanwhile I've been trying throughout my youth to no avail. Every time I got rejected. At first I thought it was the way I looked, the way I behaved, the way I approached them etc and been trying to mold myself in a way to stop looking and behaving like an ugly autist and still didn't manage to get one. Am I just on God's blacklist or something? Are some people just never meant to find love? Losing my friends just the week when my dad passed away is bad but being reminded by life that I'm a loser at love and will probably live my entire life alone is just the worst stab in the heart.At this point, I feel irredeemable. Of course these experiences built a sense of insecurity and low self esteem about myself now so I tend to mop all over the floor more often than not and hold tight at the slightest indicative of affection.I'm so tired. I tried killing myself the week before and been contemplating a lot during this last week. I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. I started regretting living this life of no worries and began urging for the need of responsibility and supporting a relationship to flourish just to know it'll never happen to me.
>>33891613sorry anoni saw this happen to a highschool friend & his best friendone of them got a girlfriend and the friendship got very hectic and distant
How did you make it to even 25 without telling your friends to all fuck off for being lame fags? Learn to enjoy being alone lol
>>33891613Its not your fault. This world is dumb. I feel like I'm constantly picking up the pieces for other people's fuck ups. Watch MHA. It outlines the battles we go through striving to be good in a world that isn't good.
>>33891613Don't know if you'd enjoy it but hugging my bodypillow of my waifu and imagining she's real helps me calm down a little bit when I feel lonely. I'm in the same boat as you although a little younger.
>>33891649I really don't wanna lose this friendship I have but it looks like it's heading that way and sadly I can't do anything to stop it. The moment I start socializing with new people and this happens.>>33891658I lived my whole 20s like this. My high school years were the best I had. Ever since graduation, I moved to a small town and there were not many people to converse and hang out with. At some point I was fine with it until recently and this happening honestly makes me think that I was better off on my own.>>33894177I feel you. I used to watch anime a lot with these people, funnily enough. I started picking it back up after I stopped consuming the medium. I realized I enjoy it with more people.>>33894211Been thinking about buying a daki lately. I do end up waking up hugging my pillow, any way.
>>33896985Yeah I have a waifu who's name I won't say here. I love her and have been commissioning art of her for a while now. Got a daki from the same artist and it feels nice hugging her at night. It's about as close as I can get seeing a naked women without a strip club or porn rn and touching her is nice. I do have a clothed side as well and sometimes it's just nice to cuddle and watch stuff with her. If you do decide to do this go to dakimakuri for good prints and an actual high quality daki inner pillow so you don't waste money. If you're gonna do it do it right
