why do some feel loneliness more than others? to seek external support when they themselves or their family is weak?social interaction as a child was drug-like in stimulation (gay but true), now it feels like a humiliation ritual to try being normal and i dont seek it anymore when it was once the only thing i wanted.even if i choose to be as unremarkable/normal as possible just to get it over with impersonally, i can still feel the judgement in every breath i take. you cannot drink water without being judged. being undefined or ambiguous weirds people out even more and just leads them to project whatever micro-actions and appearances there are. being normal is gay. being uninhibited or trolling with my looks and in the gay canada will just lead to me HR or prison. i troll sometimes for my own entertainment but usually prefer to not revolt people.omegle is still fun. probably the closest thing to childlike social interactionatp i embrace being a sperg fully. years of persistent isolation have made my brain smooth. this is my chud dalit life. im the untouchable.
>>33894162Ever since the covid hoax I stopped interacting with the goyim cattle. I just look through them and pretend they don't exist. I don't even greet them or acknowledge their presence. I'm not staring either, I'm just looking straight through them as if they weren't there.My life has significantly improved. I am at peace.
>>33894345very cool
