How do you guys either accept your station in life or work to change it? >Have a job I should love but absolutely hate and makes me miserable >basically useless to society because I refused to buy into the credit system, meaning I can probably never meaningfully own anything>reasonably healthy in the sense that I'm not constantly looking like I'm dying, but still ugly and out of shape (5'9 265, losing weight so I'm down from like 280 but more for lack of eating than anything)>Single virgin pushing 40, probably always will be due to being extremely insecure and basically becoming petrified when talking to women unless I have 100% confidence that she has no interest.>I have IRL friends and I appreciate them but I feel closer to my online ones, and I'm not sure if it's because I'm able to be more real around them or if I'm more comfortable around them because I can be someone I like when I'm online>At that time in my life where people and things I've had throughout it are going away, and it's been tearing me up seeing these things slowly fall away>Mood has been getting a lot darker both towards myself and others. I regularly lose sight of people's humanity, both mine and others>Been getting meaner, more pessimistic, and lash out at jabs and digs when previously these were things I could enjoy and take and dish in stride.>I don't think I'm in a dark enough place to seriously consider hurting myself, but I'm scared because I know I'm not in a good spot>Any time I think to myself about trying to get out of whatever hole I'm in, something in my head points something out that shows how pointless it'd be>have an intense distrust for therapy and therapists and while I'm not one for conspiracies I do not want to be a drug zombie because feeling nothing at all is "better" than feeling badly I just want to do something that makes me happy with someone that makes me happy somewhere of my own and I know that I'm never going to get that but don't know how to deal.
>>33894536I won't read threads by morbidly obese monstrosities who complain that they can't seem to fix their lives. Such a mystery!
>>33894536Nice larp bro.
>>33894761I wouldn't say morbidly but ok.>>33894914God I wish.
