Oh, this s nice.

I think I tore my oblique muscle

It really fucking hurts

I'm thinking of you. I tried to resist it but I can't any longer.

I didn’t think I’d ever want a long distance relationship with someone this badly.

22yo, no friends, Virgin, never had a gf, working in a factory, monday to friday, i dropped out of college a few years ago, planning to move out of my parents' house next year, i don't wanna end like Elliott rodger, but i have a similar anger, towards myself and towards other people, i deserve a fucking life.

>>33919227
You got that bidet, Dawg? Life saver.

> the day you plant a good seed
> is not the day you eat the fruits

>post the cutest thing ever
>faggot replies to kill myself
Literally every time. You guys suck at this shit. If it's the same sounding guy every fucking time it becomes really obvious. It also means you're running out of time since subtlety is out the window.

I know it's going to piss a lot of people off but I'm going to ban pornography. Like, it's just prostitution. Guys are paying girls to fuck them. Just because you're recording it doesn't make it ok. That's like having a "Make your own porn." house where you pay $1000 to fuck a girl but you get to take the video home afterwards. It's just prostitution. That's all it fucking is.

Like, selfies and masturbation videos are fine. Couples making their own videos is fine (as long as they don't sell them. They do it for free). Pornography isn't a sin, God doesn't give a fuck that you jerk off to other people making it. What is a sin is raping a girl and prostitution is just rape with more steps.

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My godfather died last Sunday, 81, had been having health issues for a couple of years, had a good run. I barely knew him really, he and his wife would send me birthday cards every year but I probably only saw him once or twice over 20 years ago. Thing is, my family is so insular and my social life so non-existent that this is the first time someone I've known has died. Aren't I meant to feel something about it? My mother's clearly been affected, she keeps on talking about spiritual mediums and just said she saw an orb. I'd say her reactions are making me feel something about his death indirectly, but even then I don't feel I'm reacting enough.

>>33919246
Why do you have to resist thinking about her?

>>33919227
The president says exercise is bad for you.

>>33919257
I feel this way too, I met someone really sweet who has something in common with me that i dont think id be able to find in person. It hurts

>>33919257
what’s so special about her?

>>33919409
Grief is personal, everyone reacts differently to death. You're not exactly supposed to act or feel any specific way, it all varies a lot depending on the person. Your mother sounds very affected and I hope she'll be able to come to terms with the loss. I understand that there can be this "expectation" (I don't know how to call it) about being sad, crying, etc. when dealing with these situations but that's not how it always goes and it doesn't mean you don't care or didn't love the person you lost. You should deal with it however you feel like.

>>33919485
I've apparently read some of her most embarrassing thoughts, and they read like the thoughts of a beautifully sincere and loving woman who's rightfully frustrated by some less than ideal circumstances.
She seems to want a lot of the same things out of life that I do, and she makes me laugh. She sounds pretty hot, too.

>>33919409
I think it will hit you later when you realize the lost potential gains and see how this has effected your life as you age, but it is normal to not feel like you are missing anything when someone who is barely tangent to your life dies. He sounds like he was a nice man though. I hope your mother finds connection with your grandfather even if he can only talk back in memories and speculation. Tell your mother we speculate about what people might say all the time and are often confirmed correctly later. This is how we carry them with us into the future. Humans die multiple deaths. The final death is when the last person and/or last evidence/memories of us fades from the universe. Namaste.

>>33919504
How far apart are you?

>I thought crush was ignoring me
>turns out she thought she replied and was thinking I was ignoring her so she went and checked
This is so gay

>>33919508
Same continent, but pretty far from each other. It's a distance I would be happy to close if she wanted me to.

>>33919504
you read her thoughts? how

>>33919512
I feel you lmao I’d make a trip to this person, yesterday, and they are across the continent.

>>33919515
I literally read them; I'm not a mind reader. She posted them somewhere that we both post, and we discussed them.

>>33919519
Lol same. I think I will, eventually. I'm just a little impatient.

>>33919521
if you are same continent why not just take a trip to each other?

>>33919528
We aren't that close yet. I don't know where she lives.

I make 65k a year before taxes, I live with my mom, I'm a wizard, and I've never been close to having a close relationship with a woman. I'll probably kill myself after my mom dies and leave my savings to my brother.

>>33919535
Have you seen her face? I personally get worried about getting attached over text, because, it would just be so awkward if there was no attraction.

>>33919545
Nope, I haven't. I realize that could happen, but I don't think it will. She apparently has pretty severe acne, but I don't think that will bother me, least of all because she's getting treatment for it.
I do realize that a stranger being this attracted sight unseen to a woman who is very insecure about her face is probably a mixed bag for her, to put it lightly.

>>33919526
Do you talk?

I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. I look in the mirror and I'm proud of that person for making it this far, mistakes and all, but I feel like I've become different. I don't know how to be 'me' anymore. I've become so self involved that I miss living for others. It removes some of the pressure at least.

>>33919577
Only on a public forum so far. She's expressed interest in DMing me but panicked over it and hasn't done it yet.
I told her I didn't mind waiting, and she seemed to appreciate that.

>>33919588
Try Internal Family Systems therapy to learn about your true "Self"

>>33919572
Lol I’m a woman with acne and that made me happy to read anon I am manifesting a fairy tale romance for you

It all depends.

>>33919604
Lol please do, thank you :)

I wanted to kill myself a few days ago so I checked myself into the hospital. I didn't think it'd be how it was. Like psych wars lock down. It was really scary. They let me go the next day though because I acted as normal and fine as I could. I still am suicidal though so I'm scared . My family doesn't know where I was.

>>33919610
how does it make you feel that they don't know?

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>>33919010

How does someone become a king or pharaoh

Worthless ass bum schizos why do you exist again?

>>33919618
Hold the keys to power and create a institutionalized cult of personality around yourself that is hard to operate the bureaucracy of without you ensuring either your future rule or decades long collapse for the masses

Sorry about the bad grammar and punctuation. To rise to power you either need to get good at politics or become the leader of a task oriented caste that can overtake the system, essentially in this time that would mean befriending and creating a kabal with all the people currently working on robotics, but this is easier said than done.

Depends on the person...

>>33919617
They sort of caused my need to go. I guess I feel a weird source of power/control that I rarely ever have over them, them knowing. But it's hollow of course. I didn't feel safe at the hospital and I don't feel safe here so

>>33919662
Not* knowing.
Still as isolated and lonely as ever though

>>33919662
>>33919666
I'm sorry that happened to you, If you feel like being around your family makes you suicidal you should get away from them, you are still your own person, the world is waiting to be discovered and it'd be a shame to miss it. you now know for a fact a stranger on the internet pinged back when you put something out. its not just a void. there's something out there.

>>33919472
Because she has a boyfriend

>>33919694
I'd really like to. I'm in a very high col area and don't make nearly enough to move. Thank you for the sentiment. I know there's more beyond what I'm in but it's so far off, it's hard to conceptualize

>>33919010
White people, (and non browns in general,) is it normal for your mother to pressure you into giving her a lot of your pay?

> the fruit of doing it with passion is sweeter that doing for money

>>33919725
Not in my experience. I don't know how much race has to do with it. Sounds like narcissm.

If she comes over I'm asking to lick her asshole for like an hour.

>>33919725
You don't have to give it to her unless you live in her house, but you can move to gain autonomy.

>>33919747
In south asian culture, there's this pressure to take care of your parents and be their retirement funds, or that's what I get from my mother. I brought up earning money online and she got very mad and had this attitude when talking to me, because I didn't want to give her a cut of the cash I might earn, doing ALL of the work, mind you. She also brings up how its apparently custom to spend your first paycheck on an expensive gift for your parents, how she wants 25-50% of my salary if I get a very well paying job, how she wishes I could get her a mansion and fund her vacations all over the world. She's very manipulating and I think is trying to set me up for financial abuse of some sort, like beating me as a kid and being my biggest bully my whole life (emotionally and verbally) wasn't enough.

>>33919786
Set boundaries. Negotiate what you are willing to do. Make her do stuff in exchange. Cut loose if necessary.

>>33919659
Such a lazy thing to say. Everything depends on the person. It is like saying it is what it is. Meaningless noise.

>>33919795
>Make her do stuff in exchange
What the fuck does this mean?

>>33919802
Iunno, cook and clean, start a side business, raise your kids, take classes, study a skill (that is useful or can she teach to your kids for you). You can brainstorm more and create your own strange tradition. Whatever suits you. Life can be asymmetrically balanced sometimes.

You have my attention, what is new?
I don't want to fall, but it's you

It's not that deep.

>>33919836
Word, and it might stay that way.

I barely understood what was happening on the Bizarro planet in the underverse.

8-2, let's go.

Endless regression

>>33920092
Why?

>>33919326
I understand

>>33920096
It's just funny.
>you might as well kill yourself right now

Old age mental decline is one hell of a drug.
My grandmother now loves to speak loudly in public places about very inappropriate subjects, much like a toddler would. Whenever I take her anywhere, I am basically her tard wrangler. And then there's her frailty combined woth her horrible situational awareness which makes preventing her from falling etc quite a challenge. Her lack of even kindergarten tier street smarts means that she doesn't get basic concepts like "don't stare the gas station crackhead in the eyes" and she is a walking problem-maker.
Her vulnerability to scams is also an issue. We don't have her set up on online banking because she would lose all of her money in like a week.

>>33920126
Gerara here, man, shiet. Nom' sayin'?

>>33920132
Naameen?

>>33920149
Jellybean?

>>33920150
Im gonna go buy smokes

>>33920153
Please come back, father.

You know what if you hate me just have the fucking balls to grab a gun and shoot me already.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ObVQPBD0Uw

Pussy

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Do kids still sit and rewatch the same movie or video, or reread the same story, or replay the same video game constantly, or is that a thing that doesn't happen anymore with how much stuff gets pumped out on the internet and the general ease of access to everything? I remember watching a 14 minute stop motion video on YouTube around 2006 on loop for months, I can still remember most of it even now. Hell, the very first YouTube video I watched was Revenge of the Brick and I just watched that for at least a week before learning that you could search for other things. There's something endearing about this way of being, it's one of the biggest things I miss about childhood. You ever watch a 30 episode long LP with 10 minute episodes that uploaded bi-weekly back in the day? I don't know how I used to do it. I want it back.

Don't contact me again, and find another job. Fuck off bitch, you cheated on me so you need to go. No more friends for you. Stop pretending to "want to be friends" and never following through. You are a liar and a cheat. I hope you have a horrible life.

There's no other way im gonna have to use my brain.

I know I have common sense. I just have to use it.

Isn't it kind of sad to set your Steam to offline mode? Like you are hiding

>>33920442
Sounds like paine

>>33920464
Grow up.

>>33920464
I don’t think so. I don’t think I should have to broadcast whatever I’m doing whenever I play a game on PC.
I personally have Steam set to not log into Friends at all whenever I run it, and I just log in whenever I actually want to chat with or invite people I’m Steam friends with.

was doing better mentally after a bad period several months ago but its bad again, I feel nothing but anger and hatred and I hide it oh so well that people and coworkers would never be able to tell, I especially am finding I hate women, they don't like me so why should I like them

>>33920464
Makes sense, there's things I want to avoid too

Y'know, I'm glad I've tried moving on, as you continue to demonstrate that you're incapable of doing what needs to be done.

>>33920538
Which is?

>>33920545
They never get past this part do they.

>>33920553
Haven't seen it happen just yet.

>>33920538
Key word is tried

I know that. It's rough

this thread is better than my sex life (I have none)

Im sick of midwits and bad psychologists

I don't have to take it personally.

>>33920717
Cool.

>>33920731
True.

Why do they talk crap. Ffs grow up

>>33920749
Who?

I'm so suboptimal

They are clearly getting him to fuck with me or he would have sent the money already. His awkwardness is fake as well. He's trying to pretend to be awkward about it.

This shit is so fucking stupid. This needs to end already.

Thought I was nobody...

I have integrity!

Your avoidance is really annoying.

>>33920805
So do I. I also have patience. Even when I think something is never going to happen.
>>33920809
Vagueness isn't a good call.

I'm depressed that I wasted my life and even if I finished my works that I'll never get to enjoy them with anyone.

Also, I am a hypochondriac or dying.

>>33920553
Because it's some loser that a 6 left probably. Op is the one who's incapable of a relationship

Welp, AI is recommending suicide hotlines. I can't even get a machine to listen to me. I'm probably doomed.

>>33920464
I get daily offers from chinese bots if I don't.

>>33920903
Then become a alcoholic

>>33920809
I just want to be left alone, sorry.

>>33920749
People who slander and gossip aren't nice people. Don't listen to them or sink to their level.

>>33920909
I'll just try to find a way "out" instead

>>33920926
There is no way out of a actual depression. Like losing a child... Which I have there isn't any light at the end of the tunnel there's just absence and silence. So I drink

>>33920936
I think people are more like goldfish than you give them credit for. A good life and acceptance goes a long way.

Women will tell you that your only option is to move on then get mad and act like you never loved them when you do and find someone else who wants to be around.

Unfortunately, I have a terrible life and nobody cares about me.

I have empathy for rich people that think "Fuck this gay earth and all the people on it". It's not like you cared if Bezos or Musk would have gotten cancer and died horribly alone before getting rich. You wouldn't have cared or tried to help them. You would ignore them. Why should you get care? Monsters that only care about themselves, most people.

>>33920926
You are very cringe

The mean meanies are being mean. I want my mommy.

>>33920988
I want to end my life peacefully, not violently. Unfortunately, I live in a country where so many people want to do that that it would hurt the economy, so the governments take every peaceful option away, leaving only violent options. People only mock you if you talk about it. Which makes me angry. That makes violent options easier. Maybe I just need to talk about it more and more til I get mocked and angry enough.

I just want stability and to not have to worry for a bit

I actually do wish my mother didn't abandon me. Life would have been so much easier.

I'm glad my girlfriend broke up with me because she was dealing with mental health problems.
In the month since, I have come to terms with some of my personal flaws that I need to work on. I've decided to get on a GLP-1 and address my obesity. I've made arrangements to go back to being medicated for my ADHD. I've stopped staying up until 1am playing video games and being tired at work.
It was a wake up call and though I do not expect it, I hope that in a year's time, when I've made real progress on fixing myself, she's in a better spot and we can try again.

I'm at a loss of purpose once again in my life. Fighting tooth and nail after being homeless for almost a year just to be in a state of not having hardly anything at all yet again. I can't keep up with anything as far as price. I have no support system in place. Selling every piece of my childhood that I had for almost 30 years. Just to pay bills, deposit, rent, payments for a shitty car that can't even fit most people. Let alone being able to haul anything that I actually need for my place. Having a child who hates me and a woman who cheated on me first chance she took. Living in a shitfest of an apartment where nogs are jumping up and down 24/7 above me and more nogs blasting shitty music in front and beside of me. NON STOP. I live with my headphones on trying the best that I can to drown it out and lacking sleep as trying to get the few hours they finally pass out or are at a more tolerable level so I can actually have a moment of peace. I can't find a job that pays enough to survive this bullshit. Despite working 40+ a week and watching my child for another 20+ so her mother can just waste more money. Ironically I even told her I didn't give two shits if she did OnlyFans or some Cam work online if that eased our load and we could actually put down on a place. As long as her whoring never became physical, I didn't care. She chooses to cheat on me with some man in his late 50s who works at a fucking McDonald's and has other family members on gibs in the home. My kid is living in hell and doesn't want to be around me at all despite they'd have their own room with me despite the noise. I don't have any friends. No other family in my life. I can't fucking keep doing this. I just wish at this point, I could just not pay anything for a month, sell what I possibly could that I have laying around, and fuck off to a completely new place where I may have better luck. I'd rather be someone's personal servant at this point that gets to live in their attic or basement.

It's like most people are born and raised with all the people that will ever care about them, and if something happens to them, that's it. No more concern for you in this world. That's the worst part of aging. At least we'll have AI soon.

I hope everything can be calmed down by tomorrow.

It's pretty much start a nuclear family or have no connections, I think, if you use real data.

I hate that I was born. I hope this thing gets better.

I'm an orphan since 14 my mom died at 6 and I left my dad to go to a host family bc he was abusive in every possible with me.
Im 18 now, the impact the abuse had on me is too much for me to bear, i have friends good friends and my host family became quite simply a "new family" for me.
But it didnt "fix" whats worng with me, a lot of things make me feels left out, with them or with everyone.
I left my first gf 2 month ago bc she "took me for granted" and wanted me to change for her in such a way i would have lost what made me "me" yk ?
I renewed with my family side religion (islam) since I was 15, it helped find me peace for a while at its helping me have a moral compass, but in the long run it didnt solved anything. I tried the gym, and seeing the numbers on the balance vanquished any effort I made until then to take weight.
To become "socially interesting" i've adapted myself to be more similar to others particularly to my friends and romantic interest, in the process while remaining "me" I think I've lost it quite a bit.
The impact of eveything i've lived until now is too hard for run away from it, it worked for a time, i've tried and I will continue to see a psychiatrist even tho 2 of them ghosted me and the fact that I only want to see women is not make the task easier for me.

I've tried killing myself, but god think it is not my time yet, I hope god exist otherwise we failed to become our savior.
I dont know for a much time I'll have the strenght to continue with my life, I envy people having an easier life, a lot of them don't deserve it.
I don't know if anyone will read my vent.
I know that i'm smart, funny, determined and okay looking but i am not strong enough to bare the uglyness of this world because I am sure that i've lived a majority of what the worst of humanity produced.

I hope god exist, i really do, if god is here i am one of his strongest soldier, if he don't I will die as a miserable being.

vst plugins do not sound enough like the guitar. i have just been drinking wine and smoking pot and it feels great. I can feel the long term build up of insecurity deflating.

i wish my parents would let me keep spiced rum in the freezer.

>>33921018
You'll be in jail for child support within a month

>>33921080
What do you play on the guitar anon

>>33921136
Notes, mostly. Sometimes chords.

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Why are most girls so weak willed when it comes to weight? I'm dating yet another girl who knows I'm into fitness, and she's starting to eat an inordinate amount of sweets every morning. Fucking ridiculous, every time.
>>33921080
Some vsts sound like real guitars.

He said "It should come in tomorrow." He never fucking tried to send it. he said "It seems to be straightened out."

You guys are fucking obvious as fuck about this. Why doesn't he just send it? I naturally asked for it 4 fucking times today. Super nicely, super calmly, super coy like. He literally said "It seems straightened out now." as if it's working. WHICH MEANS HE SHOULD SEND IT FUCKING TONIGHT. LIKE RIGHT NOW?

Why wouldn't he? What is he waiting for? Is he fucking busy? How can you make this any more fake? He said he would do it, so why isn't he? Why is he just sitting there doing nothing? Why wouldn't he do it immediately? How am I suppose to live a life like this where people are obviously following a script that is fake as fuck? What are the good guys doing? Why can't they get him to just fucking do it?

Why, THE FUCK, would he wait?

>>33921147
Did you pay him?

>>33921147
I'm going to ask him tomorrow before we leave "Hey, did you send the money last night?" and what is he going to say? "Oh it didn't work. The browser closed out. The internet didn't work." or some other fake excuse?

So I'm going to get him to take it out of the ATM. Why would he say no to that if "the internet didn't work."? They are dragging this out because USPS is shut down on tuesday and they know it. He should have sent it RIGHT NOW. He should have sent it yesterday.

>>33921155
Get a job

>>33921167
you're retarded.

>>33921168
Why wait for someone to mabye pay you. Your retarded go do OF if you need money for weed

>>33921173
Seriously, you are fucking retarded.

not sure why it never occurred to me until over a year later right now that this girl i was talking to probably to definitely wanted to bang when she was talking all about ovulation with me. it's alright though, it was a long time ago

>>33921173
SERIOUSLY, why would anyone reply like that to my post? Are you people really, REALLY that fucking stupid? You would risk your entire life to make a stupid as fuck post like that?

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Going back to work this week wish me luck finding a job

>>33921213
Best of luck to you, Anon

How fucking weird is it that you guys can just do this to me? That you can turn off my emotions like you're turning off the lights. You can turn off the feeling in my chest. You can turn off my anger or nervousness or you can turn them the fuck up on a whim.

I feel nothing right now. Maybe a little anxious that I have to do stupid shit tomorrow but whatever. I'll just ask before we leave and he has to say yes. It makes no sense for him to say anything else.

>>33921213
Good luck, Gare. It's not over.

Vague one of two sentences of self-pity. Please validate me and ask me questions.

>>33921279
Okay, done.

>>33921279
Your feelings are valid. Now what will you do?

Deadbeat gare paying for a 18 year old. heard ches just filed for child support on /x/ the other day and she finally got the sex of the other kid.

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>>33921174
No you!

>>33921307
You unironically need to learn about the caste system

>>33921312
I kind of know about it, do you think the lower castes have been inbreeding so long that it just creates a new race of humanoid?

>>33921296
The same thing again in a couple of hours not that my attention-seeking behavior has been rewarded. On behalf of everyone, thanks a lot.

I went all these years without caving in to using AI and chatbots to do my classwork for me and now I'm fucking defaulting to using it the moment I hit a roadblock. It's not her fault, but god damn it woman why would you introduce this into my life knowing that I take pride in not using crutches like this.

>>33921328
I wonder how hard it is for you being a attention seeker but no one watches or cares. I think you would have depression by now

>>33921319
I think the dalits are literally not even a part of the system but multiply in the eden that is India, oozing, and filling in every crack they can, good and bad, in a rigid caste system that has no place for them. A lot of Indian mystics you see are Dalits practicing their own branch of Hinduism, both to help and to scam and everything in between. The North Korean model is starting to gain its own "dalits" because so many children's family died during the famines, and these children have no place inside the official system. Then the higher castes marry for family reasons, and don't romanticize sexual love in the same way as us. Also they have insecurities about their masculinity and are displaying psychological tackiness in trying to compensate. Sorry to rant.

>>33921335
Yes I'm so depressed because no one cares about me. Please validate me and ask me questions.

Did my parents ever stop abusing me, or did they switch to more covert methods?

>>33921361
What do you in your spare time?
Do you have hobbies?
Do you have a gf?

it's over.

>>33921342
Kek I got banned.
Yeah they seem deeply insecure in such a way that its negatively affecting everyone around them. Like the culture of india is just imploding.
Also they have a fascinating hatred of toilet paper. They just dump water on their crack. No idea how that works.

>>33921418
Yes I'm married and have endless hobbies to devote my time to. My life is hard and I am very unfortunate. Please validate me and ask me questions.

I would literally have zero problem living in a female-dominated society where women had all the power and I had to take my wife's last name. The ones who would hate it would be women, since they'd find it gay and weird.

>>33921429
What kind of hobbies?
What's your favorite movie?
How many years married?
Children?
Do you drive?

>>33921437
Married for 6 years, we have sex every day. First child on the way. I drive and own all of my vehicles outright, including my boats. I own my own home. I have a good credit score and no debt besides my mortgage. I play instruments, I read and write, make art, do woodworking, homesteading, hiking, camping, thai kickboxing, coding, robotics, and experimental cooking in my free time and I'm really good at all of them. I don't watch TV or movies. As you can see I'm really struggling here, please validate me and ask me questions.

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>>33921420

>>33921301
Is it a girl?

>>33921573
Who ches' kid? no ultrasound showed a boy.

>>33921578
But ches is a compulsive liar so it’s probably a girl

>>33921578
Would be cool if true

>>33921578
Can you confirm this because last time she said it was a boy too

Im gonna try to be brave

>>33921596
She's an ex why do you even care? She showed me a ultrasound that I'm not sharing on here.

>>33921583
Whereas your a compulsive cheater and showed nudes of her on here. Gare who are you kidding.

Who’s this troon

Trannies need to go back into the closet. Crossdressing freaks

Say my name say my name

Why is it so hard to just let go?
Why can't I just quit my job and drive uber for a living. I feel that life is much better than my current one.

>>33921740
Change is hard. You also might be considering different worries about future stability.

>>33921740
Cause Uber doesn't pay enough just trust me bro don't do this

Alright, I feel better. I was just born wrong. I shouldn't worry about it so much. Accept my place.

>>33921740
>Why can't I just quit my job and drive uber for a living
Because you have a shitty car

>>33921752
Do you have some sort of sports car gare? Why are normal cars shitty to you

>>33921756
No I drive a GLE. You literally can't drive for Uber in your 2001 Honda.

>>33921765
Andre

>>33921771
Uhhhh wtf

I hate being ugly. I spent all day today looking at mirrors because I had a performance in a ballet room. I look like such a fucking autistic loser it makes me want to cry.

I feel my skin sag around my face, I feel how small my muscles are and how fat my stomach is, I feel every single strand of hair out of place. I feel my every imperfection, and even after I stop looking at myself in the mirror the image of my ugly face stains my mind.

The worst part? Being ugly means I'm unimportant. Beautiful people are protagonists in life. They get to live beautiful lives where everybody likes them immediately and they don't have to struggle with being worthless. I'm so jealous, I'd give anything to be like them.

Male btw.

>>33921775
W
Maybe take a break from posting

>>33921776
Fat guys are cute AF though so I don't believe you

>>33921778
Haha that's not even my name troon

>>33921782
Oh, good for you, then why are you responding?

Gare even if I was a Troon I think you should let me

At what point do men look at themselves and think “Yes, I am a woman”
I can’t wrap my brain around it

>>33921784
Gare stopped responding right here >>33921710 you just fixed this nigga for no other reason than he's too dumb to tripfag if he's gonna namefag lmfao

Troons troons troons troons
I want you in my room
To spend the night together
From now until forever, troons troons troons troons

I think gare should just makeout with a Troon. He's so fixated on them. He should mabye try having sex with one.

>>33921781
That's a nice thing to say but unfortunately I'm ugly because of my face, which can't be fixed by weightlifting.

>>33921806
I bet you have one in mind don't you hon

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This, but for biological sex

Gotta act even with the mental block

There's got to be transgenders in your city gare. Just pick one you think has tight asshole

>>33921818
What's your city bbboi

Trannies with deep voices

>>33921825
Chicago gare ever been

Lot of you anons have issues you could fix.

Insidious men pretending to be women

>>33921828
I been barebackin all through them projects son probably already hit it

saw my older female cousin at a family party today after not seeing her for about a decade
this cousin was basically the one person who taught me everything sexually
from everything to simple kissing to fingering, eating out, even sex
it felt so off almost like we both knew there was an elephant in the room and seeing her brought all the memories back

>>33921776
mf better have your shit in good working order when the spotlight gets around to you, its challenging when all eyes are on you
complaining about your face is very unmanly baka - cant change it and you will grow into your features at some point
diet and exercise are within your control

>>33921835
Damn that's hot yall firsties?

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there aren't many places where i feel like i'd be tolerated, so i think that's why 4chan feels like the home i keep reluctantly returning to when i feel lost. this is the only place i know of that seems to have people closer to me

i'm not sure if it's the site or me, but when i try to join groups on here, they're just so aggressively hateful, edgy, and hyper sexual sometimes. it's 4chan, i know—i've been stopping by this place since i was a kid a decade ago. But there's something that saddens me about going to a thread for lonely people, just to find that everyone's so poisoned by the culture here that it pushes away the very people they might genuinely want to connect with, the ones that feel abandoned by the rest of society and find ourselves here

i have the added issue of, what i think could be, a toxic relationship. i feel like i get so happy when i find someone willing to connect and be friends with me, and sometimes my partner seems happy for me too, but it feels like theyll also start to hate them. She eventually makes me stop talking to them entirely because she also thinks everyone on here is bad despite the fact that I *also* visit these boards, and only interested in talking to people who have genuinely been kind and actually share interests with me

i know why it happens now, we've noticed the pattern/cycle and talked about it, but i feel so frustrated with how those conversations end. she promises that things will change, but it only ever takes a night before she forgets about me and i'm alone again. i sometimes don't understand why she wants us to be together because i know she can do a lot better than me, but she tries to be reassuring and maybe it's that i'm being ungrateful and trying to squeeze too much out of her. it's just hard to tell if she actually cares about me because sometimes i just feel like i'm in a fishbowl choking on my own stale fish pee stillwater

Trans HolocACK!

>>33921840
>But there's something that saddens me about going to a thread for lonely people, just to find that everyone's so poisoned by the culture here that it pushes away the very people they might genuinely want to connect with, the ones that feel abandoned by the rest of society and find ourselves here
Boo hoo nigga

Why do the trannies talking to me in my head sound like men???

>>33921839
yea my actual first and hers too

>>33921848
Well first of all they are not men we are women.

Watching a movie

>>33921840
I feel similarly about 4chan groups. I have been in good ones. It feels like the person that controls the server or whatever is usually a controlling dick that wants everyone to worship them too. Good luck with your relationship.

>>33921847
Don't you ever get lonely. Don't just want to genuinely connect with a transgender gare!

>>33921851
Sorry tranny you can’t fool people in the aether

>>33921849
Nah bro like first cousins

>>33921864
Youre very bigoted. I bet if you met me irl you would be my friend though

>>33921869
Probably would but I’d misgender you on purpose

>>33921871
Then we would kiss probably

>>33921860
Yeah bro let's connect my fist and your inverted penis gorehole

I still have handcuff scars from when the trannies came and got me

I don't know how to talk to people. I don't know how to initiate a conversation. I don't know what to talk about.

If I did have something to talk about, which is almost never, I feel like my ego or personality is stopping me. In my mind, I say "fuck it, who cares" and just go about.

I wish I can get over this but I cannot.

>>33921876
Or you could connect your dick with my trans vagina

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>>33921874
Sorry buddy I’m super straight

>>33921885
You can't even take my fist how you gonna take my dick dumbass tranny

>>33921886
Even spaghetti stops being straight when wet

>>33921891
Please stop or the trannies are going to come get me

>>33921895
No way bro this is what you get for namefagging

>>33921856
thank you, i genuinely appreciate it and am hopeful despite how negative i'm feeling in the moment.

have you found any sort of tell-tale signs that a server might be good, or has it just been a matter of luck for you?

>>33921899
You don’t understand I live in a neocommunist dumpster country ran by darkies kikes and troons. They are going to forcibly convert me to islam or mtf or both

So gare is afraid of transgenders? Why doesn't he go out with one. Isn't you love what you hate. I'd like to see the transgender arc actually

Ever thought about transitioning and joining us gare. You'd make a cute girl

>>33921909
I’m not scared of clockwork orange people

Will Stancil? Didn't know gare watched that.

I heard a disturbing rumour gare likes his ass eaten

>>33921917
It does appear to be looking like that

>>33921919
Stop.

Cum and get me trannies hehe

>>33921919
Why would that be bad? I'm a guy and had it done by a gf

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God I miss getting my ass and shaft licked

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This guy is actually interesting

Blacked needs new talent, I’ve already watched all the old videos

>>33921941
I thought he said he watches lesbians exclusively and no other kind of porn

>>33921932
It’s very romantic and I do miss it but I have to move on now it’s for the best

>>33921949
With a transgender you wouldn't want to move on :)

>>33921932
>I'm a guy and had it done by a gf
That's so gay dude

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>>33921940
Wigga will

Will Stancil is what I picture incels on here look like

Goodnight. I do miss you a little bit

>>33921958
Every 4chan meetup pic says that is an extreme overestimation

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This is now a will Stancil thread

>>33921901
Luck and lurking but I have not tried in years. There are likeable weirdos on this site. Usually even in these servers there is one or a few people having perpetual emotional breakdowns, but if heavily out numbered it is manageable.

>>33921855
what movie?

I gotta act while im in the shit. I can't wait for it to be over.

My only piece of candy fell onto the floor... Fml...

I'm 30 years old and I don't like anyone anymore. Nobody wants to do the things I want to do.
I'm worn out doing what other people like.

>>33922003
This old movie called Holiday from the 1930s.

>>33922028
Oh gosh you're so cultured cuckbro

I gotta get my fruition up.

>>33922037
At least the imagery is relaxing.

I am so bored. I just want someone to chat with but I guess EVERYONE is asleep right now. I have so much stuff I want to talk about.

>>33922056
Tell me all about it (jk don't)

i talked to a girl online for over 7 months. I got my hopes up hard but she didn't feel the same. she gave me constant attention and it felt so nice, we only talked to each other and played and talked for hours and hours every day. Now our friendship is fading and shes made new friends. I know shes got to go but it hurts so much

and every day i can see her activity online on discord and such. i dont know why im still here doing this to myself. i dont have it in me to block her, its painful

>>33921884
I feel the same. It’s worse in person, where I just get paralyzed and my mind blanks completely. It’s a little easier online. I just can’t emphasize enough to ask questions. Ppl like answering questions about themselves and it gives the other person something to reply to.

"The King survived though his throat was cut, they say he's the chosen one
He leads our men from Babylon, the rebellion's worldly son
Against the Tyrant, we have joined with him as soldiers"
He tells me this while he shakes a bit - he's staring at his gun
The painful stings of flying things have worn away his flesh and popped his eyes
At the blackness, he lashes out and cries
"You cowards and your wrathful God will see what power means
When the Dragon comes, His will be done, in the fires you'll be cleaned
Oh let him rise! Oh let him rise

Mr. Mayor, the mission burns
The zombies are marching, they close on the square
Families are cold, look down at their souls
Huddled in camps on the old marble steps of City Hall
Faith in their God, that's all that they've got
Across the room, beyond the pane
The whole world is churning, bleeding and burning, hailstorms and ash
The moon is as blood
Over the soldiers who sag in the mud

we are gonna see how calm and collected everything is going to be today

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>>33922081
>>33922121
just do it, i went through the same exact song and dance last year. got to know a girl very well, she seemed very genuine, talked to her every day, enjoyed setting aside time to spend with her, the whole nine yards. when i realized how easy it is for her to make new friends and move on, and how much time i spent with someone who didnt care about me as much as i did them, its very eye opening.

if you block her, she will try to get your attention the very next day guaranteed. you push on. you will think about her often, you might consider caving, but do not. giving her time is throwing your time into a black hole, you will gain nothing out of it, and wish you had your time back to spend it with people that do care about you the same.

good luck anon. it sucks but you will do the right thing and, in due time, it will get better.