You can call me pussy or whatever, I don’t really care. I did terrible thing of cheating on my gf 8 years ago and it’s haunting me everyday since. I told her everything not long time after .Some days are better, some are worse, but it’s never good. We are married now and have a child, but I feel like I’m falling apart. I developed a swing/cuck kink only becouse I feel like her cheating on me would be the only thing to heal me, but I never told her that. I would love to end my life but I don’t have enough courage.I don’t want to go to psychologist becouse I’m worried everyone would find out. I’m so embarassed for what I did.I can’t stand it any more. I know I deserved that, but I just can’t. You can roast me, I like to feel like piece of shit(which I am).What sould I do?
Has she forgiven you? Truly, really?If she has (If you got married after you cheated, I think she has) accept that and move on with your life. You'll gain nothing whining about it.
>>33931438>Some days are better, some are worse, but it’s never good. We are married now and have a child, but I feel like I’m falling apartThis is the reason why sometimes breaking up after infidelity is for the best. I cried and raged and begged to stay together with my ex after I cheated on her, but she was stalwart in breaking up. I truly believe now it was the only outcome that would help us find happiness in our lives, since we very clearly weren't finding it in each other. And T B H, it really wasn't the break up that hurt me as badly as learning she had an emotional affair going with some guy at work and immediately started dating him as soon as we broke up.>I don’t want to go to psychologist becouse I’m worried everyone would find out. Shrinks are bound by anonymity, if your shrink told anyone they'd be breaking the law. I genuinely think you need a psychologist and probably couple's counseling too.
I just always break up before the infidelity. I always had the feeling that something like this would have happened even if I could get away with it.
>>33931956Oh and by couple's counseling, I mean by an older, married man who is a psychologist and will actually work with you to reach the root of your issues instead of just being a mediator while you both air your grievances.Women are right out because they'll just forma sisterhood and sabotage you. A younger dude, married or unmarried, might try to take advantage of the situation to bang your wife because there do be slimy couples counselors out there using that as their game.
Fuck any and all of her friends that think you're sexy.
