>always had bad response to outside stress both bad and good>tried to run away twice because of stress at home and school>whenever a girl would be nice to me I would always choke>bad choke to where I won't even hear what they're saying to me and ill say something weird>I realize I've had a lot of opportunities and I threw them away.>because it would mean change>when I did try to change like losing weight from 300+ lbs>i had a chronic tightness in my stomach which I now recognize as a stress sign.>I was given the responsibility of a car loan with work and I crumbled>now 29, started multiple different careers>did something to make others not like me>no degreeWhat do i do? I made another career change to something I thought I always wanted and I went 2 weeks without sleep after signing the contract.Im prepared to go back to my old job and never speak to my family again.I think I have a good idea of where it comes from, I like to chase things i can't have and I don't believe I deserved anything good. I realize the career i always wanted was just a symbol of someone unbroken. I wanted to be someone who wasnt damaged.How do I fix this?
>>33956401I got a tightness in my stomach from working out overweight, lots of push-ups, but I think it’s just from drilling my core which I wasn’t doing before. So I think it’s normal depending. The stray for me was just deal w it for a while, then one day stretch out and do deep diaphragmatic breathing towards that area. It went away. Might want to go to the doctor if it doesn’t though but it probably will
