>>33995257
Is it always AIslop?

Just set boundaries for the first time in my life, and I feel proud of myself.
Felt like a girl was using me as a temp bf until something better came along and put a hard stop to it.

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why am I doubting my capabilities now? is it all because of age? I've made it.. but I haven't made myself the skilled person I always wanted to be. I'm afraid of practice. I'm afraid of failure. I'm afraid of all my effort just going to nothing...

I am worthless

>>33995309
Nah.

Living isn't THAT bad.

>>33995593
Who are you talking to?

>>33995595
Myself. People passing through. God(s). (You).

>>33995593
It is though

I met someone I like but I know it's not going to work out

>>33995309
What is it?

>>33995600
I didn't say living is THAT bad

>>33995662
I! didn't say you did. I just thought YOU should know.

"Emotional intensity will dominate rational probability — that’s just neuroscience." -ChatGPT

Alright, post at you anons later. I got a lot to do today.

>>33995631
I hope it does.

>>33995738
Though s, you gotta know the tool of probability, it will help you a lot in life.

>>33995989
I don't know, we're from very different cultural backgrounds and I'm only gonna be around for a few months

I just want to be free. I just want to dress like I want, act like I want, do what I want, not do what I don't want. Why I depend so much of others (specially women) approve? Will I ever be free?

as far away as the coming of days.

blah blah blah

I hate this nigger sufemacist I hope you're reading this please kill yourself faggot troon

>>33997221
same sort of but she's an annoying attention whore like the rest of the namefags that yknow do that

God there’s so many rules to these things. Why can’t I just do shit and be over with?

>>33997257
bet its a troon wanting to take out his anger on males or an attw who wants dick

>>33997279
Probably, just snitch on him and or put low quality posts on its posts

>>33995257
I'm sorry but if you get offended or have your feelings hurt by something a CHILD says to you then you are not adult enough to be a parent. A 7 year old kid barely even knows that it's alive. Letting the words of some kid bother you that much is just beyond pathetic. Okay so your kid said something hurtful to you, who cares? They aren't a fully formed human being. Their brains are mush at this point. It should not bother you.

God condemns me that i stand in position next to you

I feel like he's a permanent fixture in my psyche now
I don't want to still be so stuck but nothing has worked
I still fight off the feeling of missing him all day every day
I know it's emotional trauma and unmet needs digging in deep but awareness does not fix it, therapy is not fixing it
I am so tired of this

I sure do hope I didn’t just miss the final suicidal cry for help from this guy I just met and started talking to like 6 months ago. SURELY he has a better support system than just occasionally texting me ominously vague messages, right?

Is there nothing left to get off your chest?
You used to be more fun.

>>33997867
Not for you

Can't believe its almost December.
It's cliché but I want to make next year amazing. No more being mopey, only greatness abound.

>>33997680
probably not

I can connect tonight.

You think so?

Maybe I should stop trying to get people to like me, I've always been a pathetic loser and always will be.

>>33997867
Plenty to say. I don't know if I should say.

it only took one namefag to shit up the board. hilarious.

>>33998314
Nah

>>33998343
How can you shit up this board? It's the board equivalent of a toilet, this is where shit goes.

who is trying to hack my social media? god damn pajeets.

Okay, in February my real life will begin for real this time. I mean it.

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You’re awful Tyson
Cutting me off and feigning any kind of care
Throwing 7 years down the toilet after one bad day
You’re just like everyone else

it's over.

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Is height really this important?
I used to be ignorant on this subject until little while ago. But it wasn't from real life experiences, it was from online shit.
I mean, I had never felt like I was getting left behind or something like that because of it.
The whole "girls hate short men" thingy never really struck with me because I've had some women approach me.
This week has been specially tough for my self-esteem.
But I don't want to be a hypocrite. People are entitled to their opinion. And so am I. If I don't want to date ugly women then it's only fair for some (or most lol) to not want me.
Guess, I'll just have to deal with it.
Funny how I never thought of it as a failure or a turn off. Guess I was better off inside the cave, seeing only shadows of what people think.

>>33998517
Is someone who is tall, height is not a big deal. Only seething insecure tall moids make posts about it to attempt to feel better about how worthless they are as a person.

>>33998533
*As someone who is tall

>>33998533
You’d know all about being worthless as a person

>>33998533
I suppose. Right now I'm trying to recover my shattered confidence.
Maybe I was in the right path, but I was vulnerable and got away from it.
Fuck it.
We ball.

i wish it were me
i wish it were me who got to spend boring days around you
i wish it were me who got to go to cool conventions with you
i wish it were me who gets to smell your stinky morning breath when we woke up
i wish it were me that got to hold your hand while walking through the city at night
i wish it were me that would run to the grocery store to get you some soup when you get sick
i wish it were me that one day, you turned around and you didnt see me anymore, and you look down and you see me kneeling on one leg holding a small box
i wish it were me

>went to bed 4 hours ago
>couldn't sleep
>got up from bed and made food
>wide awake now
>no chance of getting any sleep tonight
>it's 6 am anyway so why bother to try to get 2 hours now
it's going to be a great fucking day!
have to pull a 36 hours to reset schedule then
fucking great

>>33998543
There's only one person's opinion I care about

And you wonder how I know

>>33997295
God condemns you doing that for what reasons?

I dislike my parents and I legitimately don't care how my suicide affects them or anyone else. I'm done

>>33999027
Don't do it.

>>33999027
Do it

>>33999027
anon, get some help

I'm waiting on a frog to invite me.

It's almost tragic how great women can be after they've been grinded down by life. Old ladies are awesome. If only they could be like that when their bodies were still beautiful.

>>33999135
Everyone’s like that

>>33999141
Yeah but the old men don't flirt with me.

I wish this part of me didn’t want to hurt others and/or myself

I've come to the conclusion that my recent seemingly year long string of bad luck, loneliness, isolation, and stress, being capped off with being laid off right before the holidays, all despite trying to make positive changes in my life, are the universe's way of politely telling me that it's time to stop.

I'm becoming increasingly aware that I've I wasted my life and my youth and now I get to spend the next 30+ years in misery as a result if something else doesn't claim me.

I just want to be able to go on without needing to dull this aching feeling with whatever distractions are available to me.

I wish people didn't discuss their sexual encounters irl. Both men and women. Describing what the other person is like in their most private moments is such a fucked up thing to do and yet it's the most common topic between close friends. It doesn't matter if you don't mention who it was, just talking about it is bad enough. Talk about the stock market if you want to act "adult" you sociopathic fucks.

>>33999183
>I wish this part of me didn’t want to hurt others and/or myself
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tD4q3leE5Uw

>>33999265
at least it helps you know who the sluts are

it's over.

>>33999317
Dunno, I just get into moods where the only thing that helps is that

>>33999366
You keep saying this

the reason i cling so much to certain fiction is because i desperately want to be friends with the characters
but it always ends and i am left holding a dream

i can't express how much a certain visual novel means to me, it would mark me as crazy to any normal person

I don't want to listen to your shitty AI music, I don't care if you wrote the lyrics it's still worthless slop just fuck off

I just saw something that made me think about life in a much bigger perspective.

Sperged out really hard on my bf yesterday about life and shit and instead of being an asshole to me or ignoring me like I'm some crazy wild animal he just helped me out with a few things and cheered me up. Later he made me fajitas then sausage stuffed ravioli from scratch. Genuinely so thankful he is in my life. If anyone tries to take him away from me I will go fucking crazy

>>33999527
Can’t wait for the next post about how you can’t stop cheating on him

>>33999531
Gross don't project your cuck shit on us

>>33999533
Yeah sure because you’re definitely not the one poster who just posts that garbage, I guess 4chan is crawling with bpd spastics

>>33999536
BPD this BPD that I am convinced the men whining about these ebil women are just the abusers themselves projecting everything they actually did to them. /r9k/ even has a general where all the men cry like little babies

>>33999541
No idea whatever schizo rant you just went on is about but try not to be such a spaz on your bf

>>33999545
Good luck learning english try not bothering people on here so much

>>33999546
Oh, sorry. I’ll make sure to use perfect grammar and prune my vernacular accordingly.

I regret loving you. I regret ever being with you and ever meeting you. There, I said it. I know it’s just the pain talking, but you hurt me so much and I’m still stuck. You don’t care about me or my feelings, and you never truly did. You were never honest with me. The whole thing was built on an illusion that you purposely kept hidden and clouded. If I could go back to that innocent 18 year old me, I would have told her not to get involved. Or to stay broken up with you the first time we did. Or that time we found you were talking to others during our break. I would tell her to stay away, and she would’ve have probably been so much more successful and healthy by now. I regret you, and I wish I never knew you. You brought so much darkness into my life.

https://youtu.be/uAOvZj2f2Nc?si=pQ7zgzslmATEotjl

mood

>>33995257
once again mum you enable an evil sister who threatened to flush dad's ashes down the drain, whatever happens now is your fault don't come crying to me when I told you to hold her accountable and you just simply let her walk back in your life. I have my own life to live and if you do ring I will just hang up as I am not going through another year of this crap if your not going to change and stick to your guns.

>>33999189
things like those happen, you cannot invest ur whole life into a bigger cause than u are, sure its easier to focus straightforward on that, but u should seek something thqt pleases you in the same art of creating it, doing, where the end concept doesnt matter and it cannot destory you. theres a reason why many great inventors, sciencist, philosophers end up mental, killing themselves, miserable. Just enjoy your time on earth either its moral right or wrong. Be selfish

I am jealous of people here whining about fapping too much when I am never even in the mood. I wish I could be more horny sometimes. I have not the energy. Nothing sexy has happened n the longest time.

>>33999527
Cute. Make sure you apologize.

>>33999527
I hope he dumps you when he's ready, he deserves better than you

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Yesterday, when I was young
The taste of life was sweet as rain upon my tongue
I teased at life as if it were a foolish game
The way the evening breeze may tease a candle flame
The thousand dreams I dreamed, the splendid things I planned
I always built to last on weak and shifting sand
I lived by night and shunned the naked light of the day
And only now I see how the years ran away

Yesterday, when I was young
So many happy songs were waiting to be sung
So many wild pleasures lay in store for me
And so much pain my dazzled eyes refused to see
I ran so fast that time and youth at last ran out
I never stopped to think what life was all about
And every conversation I can now recall
Concerned itself with me and nothing else at all

Yesterday the moon was blue
And every crazy day brought something new to do
I used my magic age as if it were a wand
And never saw the waste and emptiness beyond
The game of love I played with arrogance and pride
And every flame I lit too quickly, quickly died
The friends I made all seemed somehow to drift away
And only I am left on stage to end the play

>>33999598
My brother, I'm not asking for anything like that, I'm not asking for the world, just a small enough slice of it that I can live happily, healthily, and quietly, ideally with someone I love and who loves me. And these days it feels like even that is too much of an ask for the world.

4chan was better before it got infested with christfags.

Today I was enjoying some wine and it reminded me of back in my early 20's when I was homeless and sitting at the train tracks downing 40 oz bottles of steel reserve. Would never do that now, but those are some memories.

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>>33998565
It will be me
It is me

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I know I provide for you and make you feel true love and lust.

Complete, knowing all of you, taking all of you in every way you've ever needed. I know where to touch, and what to say.

I am worth everything.

You know that the only way you will ever feel complete is with me.

The moon only has eyes for the sun

Narcissist.

>>34000045
The moon does not have eyes. Those are impact craters.

>>34000027
Nigger

>>34000027
Yeah. Perv out somewhere else.

>>34000133
dubs of mike

>>34000174
And the hundredth post. What a greedy scamp.

Put the namefag back on and noone gets hurt

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>I'm only yours Mike, I love only you

>I'll always love you and care about you, no matter what. You mean so much. You complete me, I complete you

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Removing the in-between is not being a narc, it's choosing each other, our truth, who we are to each other over all else

It's knowing we are made for each other and choosing true love and lust with each other knowing that what we feel with each other is more pleasure and fullfillment than any one else could do.

Anyone is a empty satiation, temporary, meaningless, and worthless. It is the in between and both Maria and I remove the inbetween and easily choose each other.

>>33999879
I miss abandoned and out of the way places that I will probably never visit again too.

I don't need to flex the level of lust I do to her. She knows what I will do. Her body feels ir.

Balanced with complete euphoric love. She knows I'm perfect for in this way because we compete each other. I make her feel ways no one else could ever even come close to.

I just want Satan dead.

Then I can move on from this stupid planet.

I hope Armageddon kills everyone.

>>33995257
The girl I've been crushing on wasn't available to talk to for the last two weeks and now I won't see her for two months! I was gonna ask for her number too. I'm so bummed out.

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I just had a fantasy where M and I were back in high school 14 years ago, and I tried to impress her as a dork and she was the head cheerleader and all the seniors were after and I was a sophmore. Somehow she fell for me the dork. Atypical incel fantasy I give it a 7.3 out of 10.

>28
>bum
>cant maintain a healthy schedule
>not happy
I feel like I can only operate in extremes and the only way to escape who I am now is to cute off and destroy everything that I am (i.e. being in discord with friends all the time, going out, etc)
I also just feel like I dont know anything ever, the last decade of my life is a haze of nothingness just like the previous one. Possibly depressed, have major self esteem issues, etc and I simply dont know how to tackle these things. I just ruminate, be sad, sleep, and sit on my phone most of the time which makes me even more of a neurotic chronically online weirdo

If you don't like Christmas keep it to your NASTY BROWN SELF

>Basedjak: UGGGHHH she'll never like you! She'll settle with you like a piggy bank
>Douchebag: Suup Baby wanna hit it up with me?
>The Stacy: Sorry I settled with Chad
>Me Chad: Sorry guys she's with me.
>Them: NUUUUU you can't du that!

You aren't into me at all, and if you are, I'm about to sabotage it all, fuck this.

>>34000821
Just do it.

>>34000821
Why?

Anyone who says women talk to much hasn't spent a day around my brother. He hasn't taken a breath into his lungs without using it for speech in over two hours. I am not exaggerating. He has not stopped fucking yammering. And his voice has such a tone to it that it will pierce through anything. He could talk over a turbine without trying. He's fucking overwhelming to live with.

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After a few years of mental deep diving I've finally connected all the lines and routed the sources to most of my problems. Myself. There's a lot of shit that I never stood a fucking chance for, a lot of stuff that was doomed since my inception, but I found them all on my own, why the hell would I pay some random person in a chair hundreds an hour when I just did this myself

Bridget is my queen cuckoldres

Wicked clown bitch

There aren't food deserts, most Americans choose not to buy fresh produce even when available.

>>33999749
Are you a tranny?

24, remote call center job, still in school
Am I behind in lifeor is this a normal level for someone my age?

If you didn’t want to get cucked and have her look at you differently, you probably my shouldn’t have asked me to come over and fuck her as hard as I possibly can

>>33999749
The internet was better before it got infested with people who couldn't shut the fuck up about not caring, because deep down it looks like they do care.

Im gonna win by being a good person. Nobody expects a good person. Nobody sees kindness coming. Nobody is immune to a decent human being. If I loose by being a good person, then its not my fault, but your guys fault.

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>>34001581
Take this with you Anon.

My neighbor is such a fucking lunatic
Why do I have to live next to a mentally ill nutjob piece of shit

>>34001572
Who would ask you to do that without being a full blown cucc? Sounds like hes into it

>>34001581
I'm gonna bet you're an awful person who believes their own lies.

>>34001680
This is my nightmare. Is he noisy?

I'm tryna be cold as the wintertime.

>>34001730
Comes with a price, be prepared

I wanted to get a cheesecake for my birthday, but my local cheesecake shop closed down. First my cat passed this year so I wont have anyone to spend my birthday with, and now I cant even get a cheesecaek... life is hell.

>>34001553
There isn't a normal in my country

>>33995257
I will die poor, miserable and alone

I still love you Adrijus. I only love you. The only way to have me move on is to kill me.

>>34002042
Exactly the Larp I'm talking about

>>34001448
Isn't that what you are

>>34001448
>When a double cream pie is you, her, and some banana silk.

What career path can I even go down? I spent most of my adult life raising cattle, but as a 26 year old woman, I have literally nothing on paper besides my word and physique as proof.
I don't know what I will do once our ranch goes under.
I'm not averse to work. Does anyone have any advice, suggestions? I would rather work to the bone than resort to any sexual favors.
My skills outside of general tradey labor like tractor, plumbing, welding, cattle, physical endurance, etc., are things like voice acting, singing. I can entertain, but that's a gamble.
What are my options?!

I'm blaming myself for being abused as a child

Cried after a long time thinking about my childhood. Realized I was abused by my father a brother when they would beat the shit out of me for making mistakes or "talking back" to give my side of a story. I thought it was normal and that they were trying to do what they thought was best, even when sometimes I ended up in the ER for stitches. I don't really let things affect me, but I cried thinking about the little me who went through that and had no one to stick up for him (me). I thought my mom intervened to stop them, but realized that she only did that after I got beat up. I was kid bros, I didn't deserve to go through that or make excuses to justify what they did to me. I don't get how they could look at a child, much less their own son/ brother whom, and beat him like that. Sick bastards.

>>34002196
*and

>>34002196
It's good you are becoming self-aware about it. Eventually you can fix/heal if you change the circumstances of your life and experience goodness long enough, according to neuropsychology.

>had the literal "Anon, what are you talking about? I'm not mad at you, now come on inside, my mom made us dinner" dream
Man, I can't escape her can I?

>>34002322
You'll be happy when you have these dreams as you age. It's like seeing a dead person that you lost contact with and being young again all at once.

>>34002279
Thanks, fren

Why him?
Why not me?

>>34002336
I only lost her within the last 6 months but she has me blocked basically everywhere.
>her first initial in the name field
I'm being gangstalked again

anyone else live in a golden cage? narcissistic financially well off (but also financially abusive) parents?

>>34001888
Awww happy birthday anon. Find a Cheesecake Factory! Or a grocery store and get a cheesecake from the bakery section!

>>34002184
why.

>>33995257
I dont know what the hell is happening right now. I can hardly think and I feel sick.

For the past 2 or 3 months i've been having nonstop, 24/7 religious obsessions all day every day. I thought it as noble and saintly. My audible tics have come back, and i've started having dreams about being chased by demons and being in prison etc.

Tonight, I was all alone. I just finished talking with a chatbot and gooning for 3 hours. Three fucking hours. I finally feel some relief. But what the fuck is happening to me.

I havent been on my meds in months, I didnt think I needed them anymore. God please help me.

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>>34002348
It'll get better. Maybe watch FLCL season 1. Maybe not. Six episodes. I have to practice piano now.
>>34002338
It's true. It's actually harder to retain yourself than lose it. Just be careful what you turn into, Champ.

>>34002342
Because I complete her

>>33995257
this is hard to explain because its an illogical feeling, but i lowkey get sad when moids talk about not wanting to be cheated on. like, i really wish moids would not hate their gfs as long as their gfs didnt do shit that a woman would consider evil.

but at the end of the day, moids admit that they are solely motivated by hunger, hatred and horniness. i assume moids pretend they dont want to be cheated on because it makes them seem relatable and therefore somewhat trustworthy. moids dont want kindness, they want an outlet for their sadism.

>>34002054
Adrijus? Why would you call yourself Mike it is not edgy enough for you? Azazael is more your style.

>>34002404
I only dated one moid who was scared shitless about me cheating on him every time a moid talked to me. He cheated on me instead despite my endless declarations of love and loyalty, hours of chats, 50 plus compliments a day, serving as a therapist for free

>>34002042
Is this because I called you Aaraya?

>>34002373
I feel guilty because I feel what I went through wasn't bad enough for seeking help, in turn I developed horrible all consuming thoughts in my teen years as a response to one or two events. It was kind of my fault, pretty much. As for the initial post, I was a rowdy child so I feel I deserved to be hit as punishment often

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>>34002404
Rape rape rape! Ooga booga booga!

>>34002409
I don't know what you're talking about.

I'll take you until you can't walk anymore

>>34002448
Angel of death in Islam also associated with scapegoats. Perfect for your victim complex. How is it living with your mom?

>>34002474
Angel of Death in Islam is Azrael.

>>34002474
I own a house

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I think I'm making good progress moving away from pic related. Keeping my conversations shorter and simpler. It used to be obvious when someone wasn't interested and I'd still go on and on to finish the point, or say something to force a reaction. Now I work toward ending the discussion or changing the subject myself.
I think the biggest improvement was interacting with someone else who was a shit nobody cares about enthusiast and just goes on and on in a group of people clearly uninterested. Made me realize I need to change and I'm better off now.
I used to have internal conflicts like "well if no one is interested, I won't talk at all" but there is definitely a middle ground. The quality of what I'm saying seems to have improved, more people legit laughing when I say something funny instead of fake chuckles, people actually asking me to go on and elaborate about things.
>inb4 "nobody cares about this post" reply

>>34002691
I struggle with this.

>>34002061
Hell fuccin yea WHOOP WHOOP

>>33999402
that wasn't me this time.

I'm never letting myself fall in love ever again.
It makes me sick, it makes me wanna puke, my heart hurts so much that I can feel it in my entire left arm.
I was fucking fine before this.

You too?

>>34002171
Why don’t you learn an official trade? I’m sure you could do plumbing or electrical. If you can handle power tools, you’re already way ahead

everyone else my age has friends
im just so lonely

>>34002396
Haven't watched FLCL season 1 since high school. Wish my friend I watched it with was still around, RIP.

I worship you

I know. You naturally worship me

I think I'm cursed or something. I'm 30 now, never had a gf, relationship or anything, but its not like girls don't "Like" me, its just that any interest I've ever gotten was from women that are either married and have kids, or women who already have boyfriends. It even got to the point where they wanted to cheat on me with them, or they told me they'd easily break up with their guy because he's "whatever", hinting at things all the time even though I'm not interested because I'm not the type of person to break up relationships for my own gain. Thing is, every single woman I ever met was cold, uninterested and it never got anywhere, dating was shit when I was younger because it ended after 1st date, because it takes awhile to get to know me and like me, and these days I don't even get a date because I'm older and uglier and now I just get hit on by married women at work. Its just frustrating because it feels like it doesn't make sense, on one hand women are interested in me, but unavailable, to me anyway, and the ones that are available are not interested at all and make me feel like shit because they act cold towards me, but any other guy they talk to its like they automatically got chemistry together. Its just never going to work out for me, what are the odds of meeting someone thats single, interested and likes me? it hasn't happened in the last 15 years and its only gonna get worse and more impossible from here...

>>34003861
Talking to yourself because nobody else will? What’s on your mind? Let me guess. What a slouch.

I hate being good at my job because it only gets exploited. I have a government job, and as with any job like that, 90% of people are hired because of nepotism, I'm not so I actually have to work to be kept there. 2 years now without a contract because we're kept on on the promise that "you'll get a contract if you show you're capable, show up and do the work".

The worst thing is that if people like me do nothing, we get moved around and told to get to work, or if someone doesn't want to do something, we get told to do it, or if I do something easier for once, someone complains that "he's always there" and I get moved. I even went to HR about it once with a complaint that this is bullshit and I don't want to be treated like that at work, to which they said "take it up with managers" meanwhile its managers that do it and when I told them that they started questioning my "capability to work".

Now they hired new staff for christmas and all they do is the easiest jobs they could find, all day, and when I started just like them, they had me do the shittiest jobs because they knew I wasn't related to anyone and I'm a foreigner here so I have to "earn my keep". I hate being treated unfairly and it just triggers something in me, I fucking hate that, and being unable to do anything about it is frustrating, because no matter who you turn to, you get fucked over.

Theres a reason why 2 employees killed themselves here in the past 2 months and 1 guy ended up in a mental institution, all presumably in the same situation as me, stuck with a well paying job with no other alternatives around, being fucked around their mental health was just destroyed, then the company acts like nothing happened and does the same thing to others, then they complain, everything gets swept under the rug, and another person kills themselves because of feelings of helplessness and being stuck. I fucking hate the people I work with, I hope they all go to hell, apart from maybe 2-3 people fuck the rest

You poorfags think you have money problem but my wannabe rich people problems affect feeding the children of drug addicts and lesbians. Other local businesses depend on ours in order to stay afloat. Really, well, not really but, more small cap and less large cap on your own index funds could do a lot to keep a dystopia happening.

>>34003923
Kek She was literally talking about how he has a small dick ED and a bad back.

>>34003927
If only you knew why I responded

>>34003939
Wish the rest of us had it so easy. Boohoo little foreigner.

>>34003948
I know everything and would not give a shit anyhow.

>>34003951
Sounds like you give a shit that I'm worshiped

Came close tonight..

>>34003953
You need to get your hearing checked. In fact, your auditory cortex in your temporal lobe is cockblocking my true intentions that I am not concealing at all. I am calling you a smooth brain, to spell it out for you.

>>34003967
Only pathetic losers are manipulative and lame like you

I am proud to be a bul. Faggots would be lost without us. You’d all be like a bunch of rabbits eating up real estate and leaving shit behind.

>>34003978
I chose a paper bullfrog for a sparring partner. Go in peace and take the BTFO as a compliment. Someday I will find my match.

>>34003986
I chose a lighter

Lighter is better than your match everyday

>>34003836
Reminds me of the post about a fucked up god

>>34004050
Slightly different context because blasphemy is no good

>>34003302
Same, it's for the best? People gossip a lot about inane b.s, gossip about others to make themselves feel better and or the rare percent that talk about their interests and other random stuff

>>34002733
Disgusting vermin

>>34002358
No

>>34003949
enjoy being on unemployment leech

Im full of fear

>>34003861
Youre not her so no I dont

I used to go in a fancy coffeeshop in my hometown and draw dickbutt in sharpie really large in the women's bathroom stall (I am a woman) and every time I'd go back it'd be painted over and i would draw the dickbutt with a bigger dick every time sometimes splooging. So fucking immature of me but I was in college. I just remembered it because of a random thread and I'm cracking up imagining the workers having to paint it over constantly. Fuck that coffee shop it was edgar allen poe themed and overpriced

>>33995257
Iwas gonna go buy some weed but then I realized I had some already-vaped weed saved up so I smoked a little bit of it and yep I'm high af. I can't believe I held onto that, it's kinda like that time I left a $20 in my winter coat pocket for myself to find when the next winter rolled around. I know myself so well.

>>34004043
The match is more advanced. Lighters were invented first. Nobody ever believes me when I say that. Lighters are deceptively convincing of sophistication, while matches humbly intricate.

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it's my money, I earn it by working honest job
so if I spend 2% each month on retard shits that I want,
it's OK and noone could bitch about it

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I had a bad dream about being forced to have a baby or a surgery I can't remember but I woke up in a state of emergency and haven't felt right today
Men don't get this fear
We could become an incubator cuz bc didn't work. Then we have to be an exterminator. I'm so glad I've never needed an abortion but the threat looms on me
I think if my bf really wants to marry me he needs a vasectomy with regular sperm checks. I can't live like this anymore. I can't.
And he keeps acting retarded about condoms to the point I can tell he is just doing that male thing to try and wear me down and it makes me love him less.
Men really are all the same.
I am so tired sisters.
Can I get a virtual hug. Please

>>34004187
Sorry your time to negate has passed. You now worship me.

>>34004358
abort and ghost him.
fuck all the nonsense.

there is a man out there who actually wants to be with you, support you and proudly show you off.

>>34004515
you can worship
DEEZ NUTZ

>>34004358
Sending hugs I'm sorry your having to deal with that. I hate men who do that pressuring shit where they keep asking and are pushy when they know full fucking well what my answer was last time. I just start pressuring them back and nagging them about shit I'd normally let go of because they deserve the same attitude they put off onto women reflected back at them.

>>34004527
First stop sucking on them and showing off how flexible you are.

>>34004532
Thank you anon. That helped me. I need to make some actual female friends.

>feeling suicidal
>text mom asking if I can come over tomorrow or another time just let me know
>she says sure tomorrow
>get excited and happy and text back "Awesome" (LOL)
>texts me "wait"
>explains on phone they have contracters all week
>goes OOOOH BUT ANON YOU SOUND UPSET ARE YOU UPSET LOL ARE YOU UPSET ARE YOU UPSET ARE YOU UPSET ARE YOU UPSET
>no ma I'm great we can work it out later
>text her I don't wanna get grilled I just wanted to ask if I could come over
We will work out a better schedule
>Her: whatever
Suicide tonight

>>34004699
Don't anon

>>34004756
Please give me one reason not to and I will take it to heart

>>34004828
It isn't your time yet.

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>>34004845
Okay not today then

I think I also want to die but that maybe I should hang on.

I hate it all i am burning because of other people and I have no control the world is just and they will burn worse than I did

There is only one god and his name is Death. And there is only one thing we say to Death: 'Not today.'

I used to be so handsome, but like a loser, and now I'm not a loser, but I'm so ugly.

Fucking die already

>>34005115
Damn...

I borrowed my boyfriend’s laptop because mine broke and I need it for work. I was going to send an email and it opened up the macbook mail app. I curiously looked through it, it hadn’t been updated since 2022 so only old emails were on it. I found emails about confirming a fansly account, notifications of posts from a Twitter e-slut, confirming a “sexy e-girls forum” account and JAV codes he sent to himself. These were from 2021-2022. I confronted him about this and it was very messy. In short, he apologized, said it was a mistake and said he hasn’t looked at that stuff in years. Even though I should feel better, I don’t. I’m sick to my stomach thinking how he looked at that garbage and pretty much how I don’t compare. I’m already extremely insecure and have struggled with image issues my whole life pretty much. I can’t even see a pretty girl or Japanese girl (lol) anymore without thinking he probably would find them more attractive over me. I also keep having frequent dreams that he’s still looking at that garbage. Im so pathetic because this anxiety is actually debilitating. I should just move on and get a job. I feel like such a cuck loser

>>34005124
That anon is a bitter jaded asshole that hurt others and in karmic debt got hurt

I am your slave

>>34005115
Spit on me

>>34005189
You're a fat 40 year old who works at Spencer's Gifts and all of your coworkers are teenagers who think you want to groom and fuck them. Get lost.

>>34005204
Wrong anon

I cant wait to get paid $$$$$$$$$
Do you retards want anything?

I wanna reach out to you

>>34005350
A hug

>>34005360
What for and to who?

>>34005360
Do it.

i never want to see you again. you are a deceitful, cheating liar.
and i won't be responding.

>>34005556
What'd they do?

>>34005481
My crush, to ask her to go out with me (she said yes)
>>34005483
I did

What tinder pics do you choose when you dont have alot of pictures of you going out with people?

>>34005561
Clearly they cheated. Cheaters rot

>>34005662
Yeah, but how and who did they cheat (with)?

>>34005662
do u ever shut up??

>>34005706
How would I fucking know?

>>34005846
Do you ever fuck off narc?

>>34005992
The narc thing got to you. Internalize why that is.

>>34006070
Nah. Swallow your own poison

>>34005992
go to therapy for ur narcissism

>>34006096
I didn't read what you had to say. I guess it wasn't important.

>>34001713
He thought he was…
Everyone wants to be a cuck until it’s time to sit quietly for 3 hours while watching the love of your life get destroyed by a guy who’s bigger flaccid than you are rock hard

I miss you Adrijus thought of riding you all day today. If you treat me like shit I should make you my sex slave. You cheated on me but I still love you. I dress up every day for you even if I cannot send you any photos. I wish we could be together already and you could show me off and I could pamper you.

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Going on a stream of consciousness rant because I can't really summarize the point(s).
I hate that I find the slightly degen things stimulating when looking for partners because I know the paths they lead down are bad and but still I'm too vanilla for the bullshit I see nowadays, anyway. I have no interest in drugs, tattoos, piercings, smoking, whoring, etc but shit like scene girls (which are the epitome of all that jazz) kinda turn me on. Not that I seem to find any of them irl, with the exception of some hamplanet or tranny. At the same time, most women (in my neck of the woods) seem to have embraced this superficial "let's get big, ugly tattoos, smoke weed, order food delivery, and TRAVEL GIRL!" bullshit. "Make me laugh" makes me gag. All these goddamn adult children who can only think of food, “adventuring”, sportball, and hoeing around in the now without a care for the future. Well goddammit, I’m trying to think of the future! Do you have any idea how revolting you are, being 30+ years old and “still figuring it out”? It’s fucking embarrassing!
Where tf do I find /fit-lit/ women?
All the damn time, it's superficial hoes in the gym or superficial hamplanets in the library with their romantasies. The only ones that come close are the jesus freaks who are sort of capable of having deep discussions and there's a better chance of them not being landwhales, but then I'm a filthy heretic who doesn't pray 6 times a day and I don't want to put a 2000+ yo dead dude from the middle of some bumfuck sandbox before a woman in the here and now. Jesus is great and all and some lessons go deep, but if some apparition calling itself gabriel comes to me telling me to blow her cranium smooth off with the righteous fury of a 12-gauge, I'm gonna tell that sonuvabitch to deepthroat his own twin barrels, and I want someone with a similar mindset. I, for one, don't want to be ritually murdered by my spouse, either for god or satan.

I wish I was a Japanese child so my ex would love me. If I was a Japanese loli I would be worth being loved and not discarded.

I'm just a shell of my former self
I'm afraid the longer I stay alone and focused on this job the more I loose myself
In reality I'm aging
Soon I'll loose my focus and strength and I will have nothing to show for it besides the fact I slaved away at a corporation

>>34005163
I’m sorry… I know how this stuff can feel and dig into your psyche and linger into the corners of ur mind and fuck with your self esteem and how you perceive others. I’ve been there, finding shit on my ex’s laptop. You have to separate their horny brain from the reality based brain, honestly. Like, I too, watch porn, and I know it’s not realistic. That doesn’t determine my attraction or love to people irl. Regardless though your insecurities are valid but idk, like basically what I’m trying to say is, give it some time to die down in your mind, and also love yourself extra hard. Your body, your self, whatever. Do what you have to do to become better and not be so insecure in whatever it is you can change(like you mention getting a job- do that shit don’t depend on him).

>>34006156
If you asked him not to watch porn and he does then that's cheating. He's interacting with another girl against your wishes.

Even worse if he's paying for it. Actively giving money so that he can be with another girl instead of spending it on it on things for each other

All men watch porn before they cheat. Men also always want to fuck what they hate. This is why alt sluts will always beat tradwives.

>>34006177
He told me he didn’t pay for anything. He let me go through his recent emails and I searched and the only email from fansly was just to confirm his account. He told me he was just curious but then didn’t go through with anything. I have a really hard time believing him but it just hurts he would even go as far as to make an account.

>>34006156
I suppose you’re right. All men have that urge so it was silly of me to think otherwise despite explicitly stating that I see that type of stuff as cheating. It’s just very insulting because at the time I was a fan of a male kpop idol and he made it clear that it made him insecure so I stopped keeping up with that idol. I suppose this is me saying I also have that “horny” urge to but he’s enough for me. Thank you for the kind words…i definitely need some extra hard self love right now.

>>34006213
That's just the emails. If he's at the point that he's signing up for emails and such then he has been to many more sites that are free, downloaded things.

I'm sorry to hear about It happening to you. Porn should not be used when people are dating. That has been only for each other.

>>34006230
If you told them explicitly that is cheating, and he does it then he's actively choosing to cheat. He knows full well that you see it as cheating and he is choosing it.

Tfw no normal loyal intelligent wife with an experimental yet tempered sense of fashion that she personally develops amorally to all current trends.

>>34005992
Then shut the fuck up, moron

>>34006424
Yeah, that guy. I swear. Like that cat woman but without the vagina.

https://youtu.be/f9a5AkJZfb8?si=Zb3rR8uaGG8aBiOf

Incredible video about the difference of how men and women move on.

Chaterbat model i gave my throw away email so I can get like sexy vids and more custom stuff now just emails me asking how my day is going and making sure im eating right...I havnt sent her a single dollar.

I am going to fade out. I also will not be keeping up communication. You are loved. My time is over.

>>34006098
Tell more

>>34005350
Lemme get uhhhhh

>>34006621
Just communicate ya dingus

>>34006648
67 times I tried to

I'm tired of dumb restaurants and fast food places. If M and I ever go on a date, I want to go somewhere camping. The issue is though I don't know how to do it? INB4 camping is a disaster. Oh shut up you damn consumerist rat in a maze.

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I finished scrolling /adv/, guess it's time to do other stuff. Cyaz when I cyaz.

Why’d you get creepy like that? Do you think I was born yesterday?

It’s honestly fucking insulting you’d go out of your way to make a fake profile just to attempt to hear from me. Nah man, it’s weird, it’s mad weird you can’t just talk to me like a normal human being.

But then again, do I even want to talk to you again?
Good lord….this whole thing is retarded.

>>34006827
Herbo said it in a song?

Same as it ever was

>>34006894
Look where my hand was

>>34006827
What did they do

>>34006768
See you tomorrow.

>>34006983
Time isn't after us

I've been having delusional fantasies at work making grand plans to become a streamer, learn an instrument, learn a language, make a videogame, learn to draw, learn 3d art, get fit. I spend lots of money on courses and equipment like art tablets, computers, home gym, etc that I'll never use. My excuse that I tell myself is that after 8 hours of sitting on my ass in a cubicle, all I crave is easy dopamine from jacking off, watching anime, gaming and eating junk food. Even if I quit my job, I don't think I'd have the dedication to do any of that stuff anyway though.
Other than having a decent job, I feel like a loser.

>>34006827
They must love you. Tfw no creeper lover.

How are you so dense that it’s immediately clear who I’m talking to

I feel really good after I practice piano. I have barely any negative thoughts. My brain is just like:
>ACEACEACEACE...

>>34007015
I know it's not me. That's all I know.

>>34007011
If that’s what love is, I don’t want it.

>>34007015
Your on /adv/. Take meds.

>>34003270
I've been advised against joining those career paths as a woman, but maybe if I got fat it would be a safer option. I have thought about it, just need to seek certification. Thank you.

>>34002171
Lots of things are starting to pay better. There should be ever increasing shortages of workers. Also consider healthcare.

>>34007042
You’re* and stfu I’m not talking about another poster (actually they probably do come here but I’m still venting with or without them)

Pros and Cons of having a baby in this day and age? If you were pregnant, would you tell the guy if he didn't seem serious about being with you?

>>34007079
Abort abort abort abort abort. Not really any pros unless you’re well off. You don’t need to tell him - but he probably should know - though it isn’t necessary especially if it could make things unsafe

These men nowadays are not serious about anything, let alone a child.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WstYC1BH6VQ

I would want to know

>>34007079
Pros are that you will fulfill your biological purpose, will have someone to love you unconditionally, you can live vicariously through them after you get old, you can get the child tax credit to help pay for it, and out of everything women have accomplished, more than their girl boss job or anything, they always say their children are what they are most proud of.

>>34007105
This is a Christian, ladies and gentlemen. Driving the imperative to have children in Hell since 30AD.

>>34007113
I'm atheist and advocate for women's right to choose actually.

>>34007114
Lie some more, that's what your religion taught you to do.

>>34007079
sounds like some ghey metaphore

>>34007105
Be so real right now. Babies today aren’t making it past 40 and that’s generous. We are so fucked on every level. Stop shilling having kids…our purpose now is to enjoy the ride while it lasts.

>>34007135
I wish I don't make it passed 40, that would be awesome.

>>34007079
Now adays, most chads are boning several women, cheating with whatever has a hole. Save the heartache, abort and dump him.

>>34007135
I'm not a doomer, I believe in the indomitable human spirit. You can let your bloodline die out of you want, nobody will stop you.

potato on a pc playing minecraft farming potatoes and drinking potato vodka.

i made a friend for the first time ever im just really happy aaah. i didn't think i'd ever be able to make a friend once ive passed college age cuz i just never built those social skills but we get along really well
unfortunately she lives across the country, im scared about maintaining the friendship online but i wanna make an effort to visit her and shes talked about moving to my state

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>called my old friend from high school on the phone today
>same age as me, late 20s
>he has a high paying management job at a big company
>just bought a house
>married to a gorgeous woman who works as a lawyer
>also has a side business which earns him passive income
>im sitting in my room alone on 4chan after my 8 hour minimum wage shift
Some days life just punches you right in the damn gut doesn't it

I have a gross fetish and i worry that if i ever were to get in a relationship, i'd do some not so good things to satisfy it.
i dont even know why or when i developed this fetish but ive never been able to feel aroused for anything else
why would god do this to me

>>34007244
Not God, the evil that runs amok in this world. But also this is Hell, so there's a distance from The Presence. It could be they saw great things in you for the Presence.

I just spent two months being obsessed over this girl, and imagining my future with her. She wants nothing to do with me and I don't even know her favorite color

>>34007281
no offense schizo anon but ur reply didnt make me feel any better if that was your goal

>>34007292
Why not? Do the things you do make you less judgemental?

>>34007283
Ask her out, get to know each other and try to hold her hand.

>>34007296
its not judgment, its confusion, did u mean to reply to me?

>>34007300
Yes, I meant to reply to you. Are you not as judgmental as you could be?

>>34007302
what does that have anything to do with my original post

>>34007303
Because those things you hate molded you into an understanding of Unconditional Love. You also have a repentant heart. Sometimes, with me, that's all you need.

>>34007307
youre jumping to a whole lot of conclusions about me and idk how or why youre doing that

>>34007313
You have a repentant heart, because you don't actually want to do the things you do. Hence why you are worried about marriage. Are you not also less judgmental?

>>34007318
okay sure, i'll buy into the first part, but where did you get the being less judgemental part?

>>34007321
>but where did you get the being less judgemental part?
Because that's partly the outcome of these kinds of actions.

>>34007323
not really, maybe i'd be less judgemental of others who share the same fetish as me outside of that, not really.

I heard it coming and I waited. And I could imagine them thinking 'Where is he? He should be here now'. Then I heard them turn the corner, then they turned the next corner where I was hid.

>>34007326
That's a step. And sometimes, that's all it needs to do.

Why the rush

>>34007330
whatever u say anon.
do u suffer from a fetish too?

>>34007335
Yes, many. But that's me reliving trauma.

>>34007336
fess up, what are they?

>I'm handsome and have girls all over me
>Ghost them, use them for sex, gifts, and self-validation
>Obviously multidate, never committed
>Use my pretty privilege however possible, flirt with everyone for benefits
>Lie just for the sake of fun, can mislead someone to travel for miles to meet me in a place I never was and then block them
>Don't even remember my promises minutes after I make them
>Ask for money and things I never return
Sometimes I think, fuck, am I the villain? But whatever, it's fun.

>>34007338
Incest. And some others. Funny thing is, I'm actually Ace.

>>34007326
its understandable to have various inklings. imagine meeting someone so in tune with a vibrational ressonance that doesn't match, but compliment's your taste?

>>34007343
well thats a rough one, but a fetish from trauma allows for leeway for it to not really be ur fault for getting off for such a vile thing. sorry abt whatever must have happened to u to cause that fetish to spawn in

>>34007348
>sorry abt whatever must have happened to u to cause that fetish to spawn in
Thanks, I appreciate that.

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Recently I've taken a large interest in space and physics and while I was never an extremely religious person, it's been damaging whatever scraps of faith I have. On the grand scale humanity has existed less than a nanosecond and is about the size of an atom, there are billions of years before us, and there will be billions of years after us, and I"m to believe out of the entire vastness of the infinite universe a god cares about this specific speck? Why? Why would something that powerful give a singular fuck about us

>>34007369
The Gates of Heaven can be accessed from here.

>>34007369
God cares about all the space. Why is your perspective so limited

>>34007372
Then why does the universe feed on itself? Lots of things are created purely just to be destroyed, what kind of fate is that if everything is shown care? I'm not challenging you aggressively, I'm genuinely curious, if you could restore some faith that'd be awesome actually

>>34007372
I'm afraid YHWH is a being.

fyi. i know when youre not at home.
a sixth sense. won't hear from me tomorrow.

>>34007376
Sounds like a discussion to have while we play a video game

>>34007394
I am at home. I use a VPN.

>>34007407
Knew I wouldn't get an answer, whatever.

>>34007479
A certain someone said they want to have this conversation with me while we play a video game, so I'm saving it for then

I literally didn't swear at you. You are literally hallucinating. You are literally a lying piece of shit who just wants to be a cunt to people.Now I'm swearing!

I won't say I'm inches away from being done with you, because I am less than that. A fucking centimetere more like.

Every time you are the slightest bit stressed or unhappy you feel the need to take it out on everyone around you. It's disgusting. You are a disgrace of a human being. An absolute piece of shit.

>>34007540
Stop hitting yourself

I fucked the girlfriend of a guy that I genuinely think is a good person and I feel sick to my stomach.

>>34007590
You saved him from marrying a cheating hoe. If it wasn't you, it would be someone else and it might have been too late so don't feel too bad about it.

Fight the future

>terminally want a virgin gf because I am one too
>realize that it's work regardless, being in a relationship
>and not always good
>i just want to feel like I have an other half
>but as I am, I'm fat, cringe and carless
>just pretty down on myself despite being somewhat competent but lazy and resistant to learning
>Tell myself since high school I'm gonna learn Japanese, play guitar, go to college
>Financial situation at the time made all of those things borderline impossible
>Now I'm in a good spot, with little in the way of work
>Still no car, live in a state with awful traffic during the day
>Otherwise life is somewhat ideal
>But I still can't focus on any of the things I said I was going to do
>Just jerk off and go to sleep
>Maybe play vidya once in a while with friends
>Still lonely romantically speaking but feel like I have nothing to offer

ughhhhhh

fuck you and cams court.

I'm suspecting I might be allergic to something. Randomly had my face feel hot and swollen recently.
Guess I should go see a doctor but I'm also too lazy for it. Also I'd be really upset if I find out I'm allergic to something I enjoy

>>34008021
You should not see a doctor until you are dying.

>>34008136
It's free and it's peace of mind.

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I have a 5.5 inch penis and for some reason I've been getting a SPH fetish lately. I enjoy looking at SPH hentai in the moment but after I finish I get sad afterwards. I don't know what's wrong with me

>got a million things i need to do
>spend all day every day watching youtube and masturbating
i fucking hate myself

I am so sick to death of how entitled the older generations are (especially boomers). They refuse to accept reality, they are unreasonable, and throw a hissy fit when their demands aren't served up on a silver platter. They constantly want special treatment, they expect to get whisked to the front of the line and throw a tantrum when they're told they'll have to wait their turn. They call me and other people younger than them "stupid and inept" when they can't even perform basic tasks that a child could do in 2025 (texting a photo to our service department, googling an address, etc.). I feel nothing but contempt for them. They're the reason our country is the way it is now- demoralized younger generations who are on debt up to their eyeballs, who will never be able to retire or own a house who are old enough to remember the glory days of the 90s and now live in a world where everything has been ruined and diminished and watered down thanks to older generations doing nothing but enriching themselves at the cost of our culture, our happiness, our security, safety, and freedom. And now they spaz out because younger generations don't want to kiss their fucking asses.

I'm not sure what to do next.
Almost all my peers left the job within a year and I'm only staying because I'm a loser who can't find a better job.

>>34006827
How are they suppose to reach out if they don't contact u?

>>34008623
I work in a field that's adjacent to a bunch of intellectually brilliant but very retarded inflexible boomers that refuse to adapt in the workforce. It's actually insane that their peers (also boomers) just accommodate for them. I'm not political but this alone makes me want to run for president of the world and force all people 70+ into retirement, under the death penalty if broken.

>>34008639
feel like you

No brain autists you're entirely worthless