Look you all. You are constantly seeking self-help and advice. If for example you are picking away looking at every detail instead of facing things you are going nuts. You need to learn by facing things as that is how you'll get through life. Instead of learning from people telling you all the time, it is more effective to just face it. For example imagine you are doing a homework assignment. Imagine getting it done in 3 hours had you faced it. Now imagine had you learned a technique for 8 hours and faced your homework for 1 hour. You see the waste of time? You wasted 8 hours doing a technique when you could have done it for 3 hours had you just faced it. That's the way it is with life. Just fucking face life, stop seeking answers.
>>33997031I have exhausted every form of existence that might provide me with some kind of purpose or meaning in my life.I've travelled all over the country, worked countless jobs, met all kinds of people, gotten into all kinds of hobbies, done all the self improvement shit, read hundreds of books, pursued all kinds of cinema, games, music, art.I have nothing. My family will die, my race will die, my culture will die, I'm bordering on infertility, women don't want to have children or start families anymore, and nothing works.I try to goon to forget about the world but after about a day or two even that doesn't work.All I can think of to do is turn my mind off and just stare at something, at least until I'm in a position to kill myself.There is nothing, no purpose, no meaning, no higher authority, no connection.We are all atomized and cut off from nature and our ancestors, and there is no good end to what comes next.I'm so jaded and fucked up from being fucked over by women and all the stupid sex and drugs I've done.I am utterly broken, and there is no hope of ever fixing my life. I just get to watch as all the goodness in the world is slowly eradicated, that's it.
>>33997120Excuses all cuz you can't find a decent woman to pop kids out. Your fault for dying off retard>>33997031That's true but a balance can be made, like what if you did 0.5 hours of technique which helped reduced homework facing to just 2 hours, it's hard to find the right balance but it does exist, the exploration vs exploitation tradeoff
>>33997231>Your fault for dying off retardYou're totally right, women never do anything terrible and the entire world is simply perfect except for me. Any advice on killing myself?
>>33997268Oh shut the fuck up, and tell your depression to kill itself keeping the real you alive. Your depression needs to die, but your spirit which is alive needs to stay. Yes life is a fucking pain. I understand you are probably struggling financially and am isolated, but you got to have fucking balls against this mundane mop bucket feeling hell you are in. Fucking persevere. FUCKING DO SOMETHING NOW! GO DO A FUCKING JOG OR FUCKING DO YOUR WORK NOW! STOP FEEDING THIS SAD STORY YOU KEEP TELLING YOURSELF! YOUR SAD STORY WILL DRIVE YOU INSANE!
>>33997288There is no spirit left within me, that's the point, I have done everything people say to do, literally all the things.I don't want to do anything, I have no energy in my body even though I workout, my body feels empty, light, I literally do not care about anything.People tell me things, I don't care, but I want to care, just that theres nothing worth caring about.I could do something if there was something worth doing, but theres not, so I don't do anything, just turn on autopilot and slowly glide towards death.So unless you have an answer I haven't heard a million times, or an answer I haven't tried a million times, then your words are worthless to me. You are mediocre, like everything else, the only difference between you and me is that I'm not capable of deluding myself into false hope like you.I need something tangible.
Yeah … I realized how my life isn’t THIS bad from reading this board and even this thread.
>>33997306Oh yeah sure. You and every neurotypical normal person are doing this same bullshit that I keep talking about. Convincing yourself that the basics are trivial and you need something more. Fuck that. You need a therapist and psychiatrist and you need to believe in yourself right the fuck now. I know exactly where this is leading. You think that one high iq answer is gonna help you, but in reality the real answer is you need to have balls being low iq. Yeah stop noticing fucking shit and do something now. Make the move genius, there is no smart answer, all of them are dumb.
>>33997373I don't think you understand the issue.I want normality, I want a wife a children, I want to be a community oriented person, but healthy communities have all been destroyed, and women don't want to have kids or settle down anymore, let alone do anything remotely healthy.My family are all diseased and dying, and what will I have to pass onto my children? They will have it even harder then me, surrounded by people that don't look like them, talk like them, think like them.I have nothing, and nothing I can pass onto anyone. Nobody wants what is healthy or moral anymore, and that's why I am alone, because nobody wants to do the healthy things with me, they just want to party and do drugs and get piercing and tattoos and spend all their money and wait till they're infertile to have kids, and castrate children and encourage buttfuckery.Even now people are justifying suicide with those suicide pod things, that's how fucked up the world is, and anytime I go out or talk to anyone, it's like that can't acknowledge the flaws of what's going on.I'm not a perfect guy, I'm not the smartest guy in the world, but I am powerless to do anything, or change the course that we're on.Things need to end, that's literally the only hope the world has to heal.
>>33997031I like advice and am not going to do that, but cool post, Zach.
>>33997031I'm scared facing things is gonna make me death-spiral into suicide
>>33997031Look at this dirty stupid namefag telling ME to stop using my Nigerian balloon-knot crafts forumIf you took that name off I could respect you but you fucking SUCK>>33997120>>33997306I feel you brother. I'm in the same position now at 29. Also on the edge of becoming jaded, then trying again.My most recent and big realization which I think is the most important thing - is yourself. I've done an analysis of all successful people, and I found out that as a baseline they all shower, they all dress well, they all have homes that they'll happily invite me into, they don't have secrets they're ashamed of that they would hide from the world like a dirty home, a medical condition they are neglecting, deep insecurities about their looks. They eat well and they sleep, and they perform well enough at their job to earn money or at school to graduate.I think that's what we're neglecting ourselves to seek the solution outwards as escapism, brother. I've been on the treadmill and I'm still on it as well - I'm part of 2 choirs, an acting group, a dancing school where I learn 2 different dances, I go to different cities for hiking meetups, social meetups, meaningful conversation evenings, board game and ttrpg meetups, I go to clubs at my school, and I form connections with people who are nice to me and we hang out.And throughout all that, I can't get a gf, so I let go of taking care of myself, and that's a negative loop.If there's anything I realized it's that I must always prioritize myself at the TOP and never ever put myself aside for someone else.The pyramid for me now is:Me > school > outside activities > girlfriend.With gf being the lowest goal because it's unclear to me how to get one again.But it's a real BUILDING, as in, if you neglect one of the lesser ones - YOU WON'T get or feel fulfilled with the higher ones.I wish you nothing but the best brother and I wish 'zach' that his CPAP machine malfunctions and he has to buy and wait for a new one
>>33997509Find a part of yourself that can talk to other parts of yourself like this.
>>33997539Right, so you have to be perfect, which I am not, so I'm just going to die. GG.I'm doing all those things but it will never make me not a fuck up, and of those men you claim are successful, they are typically shallow, in my experience.I don't care to put in the work anymore, I'm taking care of my responsibilities and then I'm taking a chemical bath and checking out, there is literally nothing worth fighting for.
>>33997556Hold in there pal, I'm not perfect by any means, I have type 1 diabetes and I don't sleep at night, I constantly have to take care of it, I constantly have to monitor what I eat, I live completely alone and my family are half a world away and I wasn't raised right, my mom was an abusive bipolar and so was my sister, I don't have good habits and I had fears of even going out just half a year ago which I worked and still working throughI can't stress how important it is to keep trying man, just keep going. Take care of yourself, only you. I know how you feel, gf is also the thing I want the most, but unfortunately like you said the world is just something else and girls are extremely picky, so we have to work with what we have - take care of yourself, she will come but by then she won't have as big of a weight on your life's success. I hate hearing this advice a lot, but I'm gonna be real with you - beggars can't be choosers. So at least I want to be as happy of a beggar as I can be, in the absence of my ability to get a gf, and in my romantic loneliness
>>33997594>just keep going.Why tho?I don't even want a girlfriend, I don't want anything but to want.I'm just gonna die, that's the only way to get what I want.
>>33997539Respect this:
>>33997846This is just typical moid behavior, literally all moids are trash.
>>33997854Sorry don't listen to hipster women who talk negatively. Too focused on positive women.
>>33997854I lov eyou
>>33997877I know you do.
>>33997875thats not me, funny guy though, would drug and peg him
>>33997895DM me, I'd rip your peg off and peg you instead
>>33997706If you find happiness being alone then life will be easier. If you don't you'll be like the other autistics who frequent this forum who would at this moment feel humiliated and throw a tantrum now fueling the trolls like:>>33997539and:>>33997854>>33997877Essentially, happiness being alone is about humility staying grounded yourself despite the world in all its schemes. I can tell right now in this thread, five people and a couple of others are gonna try their best to make themselves out as an alpha male by beating me down. Especially since the ones here are just all talk and no action. Bad examples or mediocre examples at best.
