Any ideas to at least tone it down? How to deal with it without saying or doing things I'll regret?Everyone frustrates me, I try not to react and hold my tongue but anger builds up and it feels like my blood turns sour.Last week I glared at a professor, almost snapped at him and I hit a colleague with a bottle. I'd hit him again because I'm still pissed (I won't).Journaling, walks, deep breaths and all that bullshit are kinda useless, especially when something has just set it off. Maybe I'm doing it wrong.I have to keep silent because I'd end up saying horrible things to people I care about or simply because my reaction would be disproportionate and unnecessary.Not only suppression causes more frustration, somehow expressing it welcomes more anger and makes me prone to mean responses.What do you guys do?
>>33997063I am the same way OP. We can’t fix the world. Don’t beat yourself up.
>>33997063there’s no such thing as irrational anger. figure out why you are angry and fix things at the root.
>>33997161Agreed every emotion/reaction has a root/origin, nothing just came out of a schizo vacuum, even schizo's all came from some belief system constructed at some point by certain players
>>33997161Not OPI have to brute force the world around me to get anything to work like it's supposed to... Everyone else manipulates things effortlessly... if I try to use a can opener I drop it and it rips a hole in spacetime... hence I feel like smashing a can of beans with a sledgehammer to get it open. That's everything in life. How the world doesn't work for me. It's indescribably hopeless and frustrating. powerless and ineptOn top of that I feel tense every minute and and I think even when I'm asleep, cause everyone is out to blame me for everything and I have been a fuckup nonstop since birth and I should have been in the retard classes in school. Bullied in school now bullied in the artificial extension of school (The rest of life)I want to smash just smash my body and head against something until it stops moving but actually I'm too pussy to do that. Want to go to a bounce house and just scream gutturally and throw myself at the walls
(I'm OP)>>33997081Wish you good things anon.>>33997278I'm so sorry. People have been disgusting towards you so you have the right to be angry. It's injustice.>>33997161You're right, thank you.I don't know how much there is to fix. I'm overall okay, what usually affects me is my relatives' behavior since my mother died. I don't know how much pointing out their wrongdoings towards her or their hypocrisy will help. It's fine I suppose.The other day I was talking with a guy who asked about my mother and this other guy came up and whispered in his ear that she died because he didn't know about it. It's nothing but I'll probably keep resenting him for a long while because of this. I'm overreacting but he could have minded his business. His action shut the conversation completely, as if she has to stay buried in every way possible. Would it be stupid to talk to him and tell him not to do such a thing ever again?I know he probably wanted to help but I only found it to be a shitty move. He needs to mind his business.I simply do not understand why my frustration extends to everyone else, I can't stand my roommate who has done nothing wrong to me and is a dear friend.Things feel eerie but it's whatever.
Faggot
Something really weird is going on. It feels off. Someone is always watching. You are all not real and lying.
>>33997063Cancel it out by realising you ain't shit and are probably a closet faggot too
>>33999367Already done that.
>>33997063I take it out on my wife and kids
>>33999399Sure. And your dog and your cat and your parrot.
>>33997744Seems to point to you need to process something relating to your mother. So process meaning talk to someone, or by yourself for example on paper or in your mind talking something.You can ask but I don’t it makes any sense to him, he doesn’t know what exactly he did wrong and how to avoid it in the future. Maybe if you can specify to him more don’t to these these and these kinds of things in the future please thanks.
>>33997278Being blamed and people overreacting to your failures seem to be at the root. The sound proof bouncy castle or a moving car seems to be a great next step if you are not around those people anymore. If you are around those people, then the first step should be to get distance to them, moving out etc.
Don't ignore your emotions but inspect them. They are messengers. They are trying to say something to you. If you had something to say and somebody would intentionally discard you, you would be pissed off too. If you refuse to shine a light on them - they will pile up in the shadow, get sour, and control your life from there. Simplified emotion processing pipeline could look like that:1. notice you are triggered2. take few slow breathes, center yourself to reduce the chaos of triggered emotion3. name the emotion you are experiencing, acknowledge that in fact you are feeling this emotion4. ask yourself why you are feeling that5. ask yourself is it important to you6. decide what to do about it (don't be hasty - judge your decisions if they are beneficial to you)7. stick to your decision (the hardest thing)
>>33997063Narcissist.
>>33997063Think about signing up for the dojo. Ther you will learn martial arts. Sublimate your anger into a fight with your opponent. When you win, you will get a great feeling of victory, it's pure pleasure.Anger, if processed correctly, can be very useful.
>>34000198Niggerfu.
>>34000065>>34000119>>34000198Thank you for the thoughtful replies anons. I hope you guys are doing fine.I feel calm right now but I skipped lectures today because for some reason I couldn't get out of bed, I only did it to shower, eat and clean. If this is simply grief I must admit it makes no sense. I feel very uneasy and everyone seems so strange, I otherwise feel nothing at all. It's like what I felt a year ago before I was given antipsychotics but toned down. It was a useless idiotic medicine anyway and I didn't want it.
>>33997063Anger management classes are an actual thing. Take some.
>>34000610They're not a thing here.
Do you have things you have to get to, that may be causing the anger?I found once I started addressing my issues, my anger became easy to handle, and so did all my other emotions.Are you not living in the way you would prefer, and you could get much closer to how you'd like to live?Do you need to do something about these people?Or some other people or person?
>>34000691Do you need to express yourself more?The things important to you.Typing, writing, speaking.Do you need to get rid of some people or some person, or limit your time with someone or some people?Do you know what all counts as abuse?To protect yourself.And reduce your exposure to abuse.Do you need more independence in your life? Do you need more control over you and your life?Is anyone asking too much from you, more than you want to give? Or more than you can handle giving?
>>34000716>>34000691Thank you a lot, truly.
