I felt guilty while this happened. She told me to fuck off, and for some reason, my mentally ill ass felt bad for her and wanted to apologize. I chased. Every day, I saw her friend at the gym, and I bet she was laughing at me too. It felt surreal.This went on for almost half a year and I saw her occasionally orbiting my part of town. I gave up chasing her and decided to hell with her, and I rejected her 3 times out of disinterest. I haven't seen her in 3 months now.I'm still sad and confused. All I wanted was to apologize and she became a bitch. I don't know how to let this fucking guilt go. What does she think of me? Will time heal this wound?
>>33997492u broke her ego, she's copingu chasing her made her feel in "power" and decided to break ur ego for vengeance and some sense of satisfactionu thinking about her & caring about what she's thinking is exactly what she wantedjust stop caring lol
>>33997525This seems most accurate. I sought therapy for the fact that I care and the psychiatrist told me I had OCD, which might be true. I don't know how to let it goShe has no idea I still care. I rejected her 3 times by the end. She orbited my work. I no longer pay attention, so maybe she is still orbiting, I just don't see her anymore and even if I saw her, I don't think I'd *see her*. I'd probably see a stranger. I don't ruminate at work as I do at home
>>33997566can't believe u sought therapy bc of the most basic mind gameu just have to ignore her, she now can permanently cling to the fact that u chased her like a dummy to cope w her broken ego. if u ignore her for long enough she probably won't bother u anymore
>>33997611I sought therapy because I couldn't get over her, not because of her actionsI ignored her 3 times. Does that save my dignity?She wanted to talk to me one time but I just walked past her like she didn't exist. I was focused on work, saw her, kept thinking about work and just walked past. 15 seconds later I realized I just walked past her. Then I had a coffee and drove home. My rumination always starts when I am at home
>>33997647>I ignored her 3 times. Does that save my dignity?u didn't lose your dignity at all, dude; u acted like a caring person and wanted to make her feel bettershe just saw that as an opportunity to be an asshole bc u (unintentionally) hurt her egonothing shameful about what u did
>>33997492Yeah.
>>33997704Fuck I needed to hear this.. what is my problem...
>>33997756u have no problem, keep being that waythe world needs more people like u unironically
>>33997778fuck anonI think I do have OCD though. These emotions all came after friday. When I'm down, I start character assassinating myself and become ready to kms despite having no problems like you said. My brother told me the exact same words, "you have no problem"I think it is OCD, I'm going to meditate tonight to figure out what I need to let go this timeIt's probably that thing that brought all these old emotions and guilt back. Hate this illness so much if it is what I have
>>33997849much love to u anon. from what i've seen you're just a really good person that overthinks a lothope u can get over these bad feelings, don't do anything stupid. you're loved
>>33997879thank you anon, glad you replied
>>33997492I bet you didn't reject her but you like to think that you did, your write up sounds delusional. Understand that you shouldn't chase someone who doesn't want you, and apologizing and seeming vulnerable infront of a girl won't get you pussy, that's like something you do when you're 8 and find out that's not the way to go
>>33998042Apologizing doesn't mean fawning. I wanted to speak to her and get to know her, and quickly say sorry for last time. She lost interest. The rest is what it is and that's why I wrote the OP. Now take your bitterness to another thread. I'm leaving this one myself
