Subject best sums it up. I don't know why but I just feel fucking stupid, creepy, and partially sad for constantly having her in the back of my mind. We've known eachother for a couple of years primarily during my uni years but due to personal issues we had to step away from eachother. We still did text and occasionally VC'd and played vidya, however it felt distant and different then how it was in person.Cut to around 11 months later and here she is constantly on social media talking about her new boyfriend and it's just fucking hurting me on the inside, constantly making me thinking about what she's doing constantly, not just about sex either.She was practically one of my closest friends and we both helped eachother out during hard times. The more I think about her, the more obvious the signs were. I'm regretting my past deeply and I don't know what to do about her. Been taking a break from social media (outside of this shithole mongolian basketweaving forum) has been helping slightly, but I still can't stop thinking about her.It hurts.
>>34000590'Confessions' only happen in movies, anon. If something were going to happen with this chick, it would've happened. What happens is you get closer to a girl, she starts texting you nonstop, you hang out, you make a move, and either she gives you the greenlight or she doesn't.However this girl felt about you, it sounds like you weren't in a headspace to make that move. You were awkward, inexperienced, dealing with mental issues. Whatever. The moment came and went. You're 22. Life gets SO much worse than this. Relax and move on.
You and most men are like this because you can't accept being alone. Somehow trusting yourself is the hardest thing for you to do, because you can't help the isolation when being alone. I'll tell you since you are young as a 22 year old, the moment you accept this fate that you have to deeply be alone stuck with your feelings and whatever fate gives you, is the moment you will be happy. I've discovered it already and I'm feeling fine with who I am. It is the hardest thing in the world, but it will help you. Find peace being alone first before dating someone.
>>34000590yo, as someone who has lived something like this (but not as hard as you), hit her up and confess through message or in person. Just let her know how you're feeling and how you felt. Some fags here will say that doing so will make you a miserable nigger but just get it off your chest and then, move on. You're captured on what it could've been and it wasn't.
>>34001437For some people it's a bottomless pit, tho. Anon sends a heartfelt message, girl is touched but doesn't reciprocate, so lets him down gently. Because she was being nice, her wording is open and vague, and seizes onto the hope that if he just stays down long enough, she'll come around.
>>34001456and that's why twin's gotta push through it. A message that transforms all his worries and grudge into finally well deserved peace. OP needs to be strong, tho, not sending the message and then being around her all the time waiting for a message.
>>34000590Confessed? This isn’t an anime little nigga lmao, she doesn’t care or she would have flirt with you at least
>>34001437>>34001456>>34001469I don't think I can do that. I still want to try to be friends with her, despite how painful it is.
>>34001946This is how you remain in darkness and get no bitches and never move on, anon. You're 22. This doesn't have to be a formative experience.
>>34002303What would she think though? Would she think I was a creep for constantly thinking about her? For fucks sake the reason I stopped using social media is because I kept seeing her constantly posting about how excited she was to meet him properly.I don't know anymore... I'm sure there's someone else fate will lead me to. I think the best thing to do is just following >>34001132 and focusing on finding who I am meant to be in life, it's for that reason I left University after being so fucking overstressed and hating my major.
>>34002440I misspoke in my post. I was advocating NOT messaging her and moving on with your life. Sounds like that's where your heart is, so I support it.
This is just a life lesson to you. Always take the first bite.
