I'm severely depressed. I'm not gonna kill myself but I genuinely cannot keep up with a full days work. I used to have a job and it's like my brain would just shut off. I spent most my time staring into space and ripping the skin off my fingers. Somehow they never complained, so I did it for a few years to save money, then went back to school.I'm back in school now. All my energy is spent trying to do three classes worth of homework, and trying to calm myself down. I legitimately feel insane. I don't shower or brush my teeth every day, and my laundry never leaves the laundry basket. I only eat raw ingredients, like, blocks of cheese and random pieces of ham and shit. I had to clean my shower today and it felt like climbing a fucking mountain.What are practical steps to get over this shit and just function normally? I'm literally a lunatic. I wish I was normal.
>>34003031you're not a lunatic, OP, it is normal for depressed people to feel like that. I used to do the same in school 2 years ago, just sleep through everything, and now I'm in the same shit, but not at school. Idk men, things happen, you start overthinking, the reason to live has disappeared... You left your job or they fired you?
>>34003047I willingly left, funny enough. They liked my personality.I'm scared I'll never get married because my house is a mess and I can't take care of myself. I want my master's degree and I'll kill myself to get it man. I love school so much but everything hurts.
>>34003058why did you leave? You could have saved even more money. You could go to school whenever you want
>>34003031Are you getting treatment for your depression?
>>34003120I hated the job and was more depressed at it. I was drinking heavily and self harming. My life really felt like a dead end. Now that I'm in school I have days I genuinely enjoy but it's not quite enough to get my life in order.>>34003123No. I don't want SSRIs because I already have trouble getting to orgasm.
>>34003148>I was drinking heavily and self harmingDid you manage to quit it?
>>34003148>No. I don't want SSRIs because I already have trouble getting to orgasm.There are many anti-depressants that are not SSRIs and which do not have sexual side-effects.
>>34003148look into Brintellix. absolutely 0 sexual side effects
>>34003031Did I sleep walk and write this? This is literally meI'll go the length to not do anything, at all, my laundry doesn't leave my basket, I don't take care of myself unless I have to, doing school work I'm good at it but I only do it if I absolutely have to. I destroy myself. Bad habits man. Really the only way is to step by step prioritize yourself first. It's like I have a phobia of doing good things for myself and I only want that good rush that comes from playing games, and watching videos and CUMMING CONSTANTLY>>34003058I love school so much but it's hardExactly dudeEgg fucking sack leeIt's terrible how similar we areI think it's because we're both animals and we're both hardwired to respond to short term pleasures and we're so dopamine coded that we neglect things that would make us feel good in favor for things that give us immediate happiness because we know that that thing will give us happiness NOW so as an easy math equation we pick that thing over what actually will keep us going and keep us together long term. That, and shit habits / lack of being taught habits by our shit parentsI don't drink, I don't self harm, I don't have problem reaching an orgasm, at least there's that. But boy am I going down the drain and I'm 29 too
>>34003665Yeah actually but I have had some minor relapses.>>34004077Will do thankyou>>34004117Deffo not being taught good habits by parents. I was basically a feral child lmfao. I'll keep this in mind. Someone gave me an adderall today and I'm gonna try and finish all my work on it.
>>34003031The issue is being too depressed to do anything will prevent you from doing practical steps, like if you don't even brush your teeth it's hard to do other stuff. If you can do exercise, go outside the cold, take cold showers, play with balls. Which all is hard probably. Other options would be Wellbutrin (no sexual side effects) or sleep deprivation.
>>34004521I have noticed that I can build up some momentum some days, like if I have a strict routine I can just keep going. Other days the routine exhausts me more and I haven't quite found what's triggering it. I do get worse around the winter months.I do think being in class helps. I had one class this semester that gave me such a drive to live it was actually crazy. Maybe bumming around the college should be part of the routine. And meds of course.
>>34003031you get a short manic period and fix everything and then you get severely depressed for the rest of the year
>>34003031https://youtu.be/lqZehFAwoTM?t=32It's over as soon as you turn 18 and leave the school system without a well established social circle. You go to work, but you won't make any friends, just coworkers. You join a sports club, same deal. It's over, because everyone already has their social circles locked in since childhood. You'll be nothing more than a coworker, destined to be alone for life. Social life and relationships are like trains you have to catch at the quay, a race against time that takes place during adolescence. And by extension, logically of course, no social life and no women.But normies don't understand this because they are clueless normies who think you can walk into a bar full of strangers and magically form a social life like in The Sims. Only women can start from scratch and create a social life and get a boyfriend from scratch because of their status as women.Whether you're 30 or not it doesn't change anything, maybe for the normies, but for you and me Chud, a year is like any other, the sands of time flowing towards nothingness, nothing more.. nothing less.
>>34004495How did you do it? Im in the same situation except cutting.
>>34004927I have made friends after college, then went back to college anyway. You might be catastrophizing, fren. I will say though with a solid social life I'm still depressed so who knows what the antidote is.>>34005069School helped a lot because I was thinking about alcohol less and my life has more structure. Also I had something to look forward to that wasn't a substance or the high of cutting. Academic validation is a hell of a drug.
>>34003058Hey man, at least you have a house. That's pretty huge, right? You can afford a roof over your head and you're not working, so financially you must have something going for you.
>>34005827I live with my grandma...
>>34005883Sorry to hear, brother.I live with my mom, who is grandma aged. Solidarity.
>>34003031im in them military and ive known people get prescribed depression pills lol. they just go ahead with the mandatory stuff (pt, (idk about shaving, i havent known a male in the military who gets pills), hygiene keeping their room clean, etc) because they have to lol
>>34003148Treatment for depression doesn't have to involve drugs. Therapy alone can work.
>>34003031If you have unipolar depression, get some pills to balance out your brain. The drugs help.If you don't want to take drugs, you need to prioritize what little energy you have. That means when you have a good day get the most important stuff done. Cut corners on everything else.I'm going through the same thing because it's a cold winter but I have bipolar. So I just have to wait it out.>>34004926That works if you are bipolar, but not if you just have depression. This is how I fix most of my problems, because when spring hits I get 10 times as productive.
>>34004926The overflowing sink and tub make it seem like she's trying to drown herself, but then you see the reflection of a lamp in the next room, so that can't be the case. Maybe I'm just reading too much into a mood piece.
>>34003031>I'm severely depressed.Fix this.
decide that you want to get better. start cleaning up your shit. you cant function properly if everything is a mess and disorganized.
>>34007080>>34007201did the bots suddenly show up? dead internet theory confirmed.
>>34003031>I don't brush my teeth every dayTry to fix this first
