The price of seeing the future is no longer seeing the past EDITION. https://youtube.com/shorts/44D1wGFjLuc?si=L3So8BaJyv9DRzgv
Some woman just knocked then rang my doorbell and I completely ignored her. Send it in writing toots
Something just snapped in me today. I've been trying to get over this person for over a year now, but for some reason it just hit me all at once.They were verbally abusive. They did not respect my sense of privacy and would spread things I confided in them, all for laughs. They pretended to care about others to stroke their ego. They would only tell people what they wanted to hear. They manipulated me enough and would only respond to me after I stopped engaging with them. After apologizing for having my mental state in a mess due to them and other life events, they promised to reach out, only to ghost me. They continue to lurk and talk to my own friends about me while begging them to not bring up that they were asking about me.I finally get it now. I can finally fully move on with my life after seeing how vile, malicious, and mentally ill this person is. I will never have to deal with them again, and that is so fucking freeing that I can't stop grinning. Here's hoping I can keep this energy going to eternity.
>>34009063It's great that what you said is not my perspective and I don't accept any part of it into my life and how I feel.
kms
>>34009063Wish I were you unironically
I keep running scenarios of my last relationship in my head. Can't tell if it's healthy or not, but I realized:I'm going through a mid-life crisis, a few years ago my mom died and I was exactly half her age. I started dating a girl right out of HS as she was dying, lost my job, got really reckless, lost another job, cheated on that gf with other girls, even prostitutes, something I NEVER thought I'd do. I was just so ravenous and all I could think about is primacy, just shitty in general. I hate that part of my life, but it's a part of me. I tried to escape it by going to another country. I found some peace but I got fired from the job that gave me a visa. I made friends quickly and eventually found something stable, and as soon as that happened, I met the girl of my dreams. She was really great. Beautiful, smart, funny, adventurous, cooked well, put a lot of effort into our relationship, but deep down I felt like I didn't deserve her, that she was attracted to me at first by my disheveled persona that I was ashamed of. she saw me as a bad boy, rockstar kind of guy when deep down I'm a nerd. I couldn't handle her hotness and genuine love for me. The sex was the best ive ever had. I became obsessed about her and pushed her away and let her disrespect me. I became a worm.I still think about her, how I could have done things differently with her. I need to focus on building myself back up, I dont think simulating these things with her in my head is healthy.
>>34008824Twisted to think that forgetting the past will reveal the future. That seems wrongass backwards. I mean, the scene is cool and all but what is it really saying but lies.
it's over.
It is kinda early.
Our truth never changes. That's how it's easy to continue.
>>34009455I'm sorry. There's a version with a song I like better because I like the song. I listened to it for like 30 minutes yesterday.https://youtube.com/shorts/FIoFib6hleM?si=zKiapbs44OBv3CsP
Without my vices theres only heavy feelings which iv been trying to hide from for decades. Its heavy and im afraid. My brain now its thinking about self harm just because it doesn´t know what the fuck it should do.I´m so tired, frens. Everytime im finally getting better, it comes as a wave.
>>34009697Try Internal Family Systems Therapy with Grok or something. You have spirits haunting your nervous system trying to protect you because of past experiences, and you need to learn to relax them when they are activating and tell them they are harming you not helping you right now. Regarding the emptiness, try and improve your life. My life kinda sucks right now too and I distract myself with piano, Japanese, weed, optimizing home economics, etc. so that life is even better when it does get better.
>First girl I dated was a complete narcissist to the point to when I showed disinterest she went ape shit because the thought of her not being able to secure me of all people quite literally broke her world view >2 years later I started dating another girl who just now has apparently had a complete mental breakdown and may be being sent to one of the largest psychwards in my countryBoth of them approached me first and I never tried to be manipulative or abusive towards them. I just tried to be nice and then they cook off like this.Is it me?
Had a dream about sucking dick again. I had quite the bi phase growing up but I never acted on any of my gay thoughts beyond masturbation. Now I have no girlfriend in my early 30s yet have too much male pride to experiment with other men.
I'm retarded and have shy bladder syndrome.
I should kms
>>34009980Why? Because life isn't a movie? You're living an American life anon. Try to be a bit more realistic. Enjoy the little things.
>>34010025My fruit is rotten. Thanks, Zach.
>>34009460hey that's supposed to be my post.
>>34008824i want to kidnap a moid and then not starve it to death so that it has to not completely hate me.
>>34010137Are you hot?
>>34008824>Keeping tabs on my 7/10 high school crush for 3 years now,>She liked me too and we could have done something about it, but at the time I had no idea what I was doing, sucked at catching hints.>We got close, talked fetishes, smoked together, and went on dates that I didn't even realize were dates, we even held hands.>Could have had her, waited too long, she turned me down after saying how I felt, I was too late. >She moves far away, ever since then I've developed an itch to see what she was doing with her life on social media. Which was nothing, typically.>A bit later I learn she loses her virginity to a fucking tranny.>cans.wavThey didn't even stay together for a year, And as of now, having graduated and in my early 20s as a fucking NEET, I would move on but I don't even know where to begin. I believe the hope for someone like her to be found in my life is looking more Grimm as I grow antisocial by the day.Taking a few moments every now and then to hatewatch her life. Secretly hoping it will crumble, and then I can swoop in and rescue her.I just wanted a celibate shut-in virgin loser gf to share a new experience and play vidya and be weird with, bros...Now I just want to move on, but I've got nowhere to go from here.Anyways, smoke em if you got em.
>>34010195Start getting your life together now before you end up like me. Start with the bottom and work up.
>>34010224This is a good start, thank you.
>>34010195>Could have had Anon>Wanted tranny insteadIt was her loss not yours
>>34010265I've been working on a list of advice. I hope you get things together without it, but hopefully I can start posting it in the next year or two if not. You still have plenty of time, I think. I started optimizing too late. I can help others go faster though.
>>34010297I just want to forgive and forget about it for good so I don't urge myself to go back anymore.
>>34010326You won't even know what you saw in her in 5-10 years if you see her again.
>>34010332True
Kek he can't compare to me. He's fucking pathetic in every way
iTunes is being retarded. Goddamn.
>>34010343youre the retard who told me to be chill and communicate clearly, even though moids refuse to do that...
>>34010033Fight!
>>34008824it's crazy to me that moids have a malice i could never remotely comprehend. and they hate children even more, because they are more attracted to childreni think "but i just want..." and i realize that's part of what they hate. they hate us for not wanting to be hated.
>>34010818Hope you feel better. Try Internal Family Systems Therapy.
>>34010825>moids admit that they are just monsters>i believe them>"go to therapy1!1"
>>34010735That's what works best for me I'm not aware What your action You took was based on that advice
>>34010864There is abberation in every group.
>>34010865you're full of shit. when women communicate clearly, you just accuse us of lying. i don't even fuck and y'all keep trying to tell me what i conveniently wantanyway, trying to enter a relationship for the sole purpose of hurting your partner is anything but chill. yet moids always do it.
>>34010875Foids do it too
>>34010875I can only comment on something that is directly going on with your interaction with me. As far as a generalization or something involving you and others, I have no comment.
>>34010904>all moids do a bad thing>"but some women do it too, so we're the same"
>>34011017Not all men have that naturally, some men develop that in them because there are foids that require that kinda 'medicine'.
>>34010935Your poos are just as stinky
