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I feel like I should be happy or at least content
I have what some people consider a "good" life - my own place, a car, steady decent income. I am a "smart" guy, class valedictorian and HYPSM college and PhD. I started my own business and am pursuing my "dream" career but I don't feel happy over my "wins," I just feel bad about my "losses."
Currently, I'm spiraling out over the tiniest detail - I met an eceleb comedian I really admire and he made some jabs about me being autistic (fair) including asking me to quick solve a multiplication problem. I realized today I spat out the wrong answer in the heat of the moment because I carried a number wrong. I was drunk and it was two seconds in a meet and greet and he doesn't even remember it, but it's seared into my memory. If I had solved that problem correctly I would have proved I am "smart" and gotten some validation that even if I'm fat and ugly and autistic, I have something, I have one thing that redeems me and gives me some worth. But if I'm not "smart" I don't have anything. I'm just a big fucking fat ugly lump
It's not even like I don't have problems. I got into a fender bender a few weeks ago and also sliced the tip of my finger off while cooking, but for some reason this cuts me so deep because again if I'm not the "smart guy", what am I? Just a big clumsy retarded looking guy.
Nothing seems to help my self esteem. I have never once felt comfortable in my own skin, and any satisfaction I get from my achievements is as fleeting as footprints on a beach. The wins don't do anything to uplift me, and the failures just drag me down to miserable pits of despair no matter how minor they are.

What's wrong with me? What am I missing? It feels like I'm fucking cursed, how the fuck do I lift this curse? I feel like SOMETHING is missing but nothing I've tried fills that whole that stops me from obsessing over my failures to be "smart."
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Bump
I know I wrote a novella and it seems silly but from all the bitching and moaning I thought there might be some people on this board who actually want to advise on people's personal problems instead of "How do I get girls to like me thread #987,245,603"
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Just an example of the overcompensating intelligencel

Many such cases

No you're not smarter than anybody, in fact you're dumber cuz your brain capacity is all occupied by intelligence frauding and not doing actual useful shit in life
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>>34027914
>I feel like I should be happy or at least content
I think you are wrong. I think you THINK you should be content, but you FEEL you suck and something is missing. Instead of asking yourself, why do you keep telling yourself that you suck and something is missing, ask yourself instead, how do I suck and what’s missing. Then the answer comes up.

And don’t try to retardedly THINK oh is it this, is it this, ASK! There are other things inhabiting your body than you. Give them some recognition and perhaps you can negotiate the stories they keep telling you, instead of them having to bombard you with negativity to get you to pay attention.
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How close are you with your family? Do you have any friends, hobbies?
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>>34027914
>What's wrong with me? What am I missing?
Seen this before. Burnout and possibly depression. Almost every last PhD holder I've ever met is basically insane or dysfunctional from all the schoolwork and study they've put themselves through but somehow unaware they are burnt out. Ideally you should do prodigious nothing and have no goals or obligations for a month or so. If you still feel wrong go to a doctor.
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>>34027914
You got bullied and it haunts you. You have to do your best to live in the moment and let go of the past.
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>>34030212
There is no creature of lower intelligence than namefags
>>34031532
>How close are you with your family?
Not so close right now. I had a blowout with a lot of them and I haven't been talking to them much
>friends, hobbies
Pretty lacking in those at the moment, yeah, but it's so much of a bother. My city is also famous for having social groups that are hard to break into/that "freeze" you out
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>>34031850
Appeal to authority and ad hominem, very intelligent argument, there is no creature of higher faggotry than OP, who has zero reading comprehension and does not compute the words I actually said so decides to resort to name-calling
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>>34032561
>Appeal to authority and ad hominem
LMAO what authority? And it's not ad hominem to call a spade a spade, or in your case an attention-seeking retard an attention-seeking retard. If your actually had anything useful to say your words could stand on their own. >(You) are the one choosing to bring unnecessary unwarranted attention to yourself by being a namefag.
>does not compute the words I actually said so decides to resort to name-calling
That's because you're spouting nonsensical ebonics. How am I supposed to "argue" against retarded babbling? That's like saying I'm losing an argument to someone speaking in tongues.
>in fact you're dumber cuz your brain capacity is all occupied by intelligence frauding and not doing actual useful shit in life
My brain capacity led me to founding a business that in a few short years has made more money than you'll ever make in your fucking life, lol
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>>34031612
> Ideally you should do prodigious nothing and have no goals or obligations for a month or so. If you still feel wrong go to a doctor.
Sadly I can't take a break for that long. COL in my city is insane and I can't move right now. As I alluded in another post I cofounded a business that needs every bit of attention I can give it since we're in a growth phase
>>34031638
Yeah that's true.
>You have to do your best to live in the moment and let go of the past.
Cliched but you're right in that all the shit that bugs me is in the past, just memories.
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>>34032727
Authority - apparently cuz I'm a namefag I do not have the "authority" to hold a valid opinion. C'mon 4chan user, you think any of us has more or less authority to add an opinion piece to this abyss?

It is ad hominem to shout "low intelligence!!1!" Without any response to the actual content of my words

And no, why would I seek attention here? Attention for what? I'd do better posting feet pics on /soc/ or whatever. It's simply easier to keep track of my postings using a handle.

>My brain capacity led me to founding a business that in a few short years has made more money than you'll ever make in your fucking life, lol
Finally you actually try to defend your position with AN ACTUAL ARGUMENT! Congratulations, fraud. And now let me ask you. How is making money useful to you? What do you need all that money for? Are you actually gonna use your money to accomplish something you care for or are you just gonna use it to boast to others that you're better than them because you earnt a bunch of useless money that will go to waste cuz somebody earnt a shit tonne to simply cover up their wounded ego and appear "well off" and not actually use and exchange this money for something tangible and useful

Because all you chase is the social status that money brings, not actually earning money to exchange it for something you really want that isn't purchasing social brownie points for NPC's applaud you
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>>34032883
You're a namefag and also a newfag, your posts are very low quality
Well, maybe not that much of a newfag, because you apparently know how to sage because you're too much of a bitch to show when you post and you're just trying to get the last word in to soothe your wounded ego, like you had a point to begin with.
>It's simply easier to keep track of my postings using a handle.
That's VERY low intelligence, you can't even recognize your own writing?
>postings
>handle
ELS, Indian newfag, has not been on 4chan for longr than maybe a year tops. We need mandatory flags on all boards.

And I want to earn money so I can do whatever the fuck I want. For instance, if I had the money, I'd buy this website, find out your IP, private jet myself to your country, go to your hut, and shoot you in the back of the head. The world is an open sandbox MMORPG and I want to beat the game.
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>>34032947
Pfft of course I can recognise my own writing, I'm talking about keeping track of them if I ever want to reference them. It makes it EASIER, not makes it possible, idiot

I sage cuz this thread is boring shit, boring topic. My ego ain't wounded, I simply rustle your jimmies and see where you go with it

That's never gonna happen no matter how much money you have, so quit posturing. The hell do you want to do with all that money you got? Cuz sounds like it's going to waste, down the drain it goes
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>>34033026
>I sage cuz this thread is boring shit, boring topic
No, you're just bitch made.
Yeah, you're a real ass nigga, sitting in your shack while your five gens out of date iPhone reddit spaces your posts automatically giving you away as a poverty poor and a newfag.
You're too much of a little bitch to have your own life sorted out, why the fuck would I take any advice from you?
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>>34027914
Doesn't the opposite of this meme happen in the actual manga
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>>34027914
>I should be happy or at least content
Happiness is something you are, not something that happens to you.
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>>34033543
Source?
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>>34033491
Bitch made? This entire thread is bitch made, fucking whining because you couldn't do muh times tables in your head as if we're in kindergarten and you really want to impress the other kindergarteners or something. I sage cuz your thread is inane and doesn't deserve any further bumpages. Further spergings over my postings because you can't handle them doesn't really warrant bumpages.

Only poorfag is you when you out yourself as not even being able to handle the COL or move or stop working for even just one month, lmao. So much for trying to come off as if you're drowning in money and successes and freedom, aye. You have no vision of what you want. You just do things because you're desperate for crumbs of validation. That is all. Those bullies really did a number on you, huh. Still rent free after all those years. Still fighting some imaginary battle against people who have long moved on and don't even really exist anymore, just some outdated idea of them.

How about instead of collecting le shiny badge to add to your 39275 other badges on your chest, as if the next piece of shiny scrap metal is gonna make a difference, you actually go up to a person, a girl maybe, and talk to them. Cuz really, what the fuck are you collecting invisible smart boy points for? Do you think it's gonna let you come out of the next human interaction with an actual something by the end of it?
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>>34033566
You'd have more of a point if it weren't so obvious you're raging because I'd bang on about you being a phoneposting newfag Indian who has nothing.
I've already been calming down about it the whole day and getting over it, agreeing with viewpoints like >>34031638
>>34032742

But you didn't read that. You are full of ego, which is again why you're a namefag, why you don't want me to see when you reply, because you want to feel like you're some big bad man when you're a fucking 19 year old in Colcatta on his first iPhone.
It's not what you're saying, it's your fucking arrogance and ego and presumption mixed in with the very very obvious jealousy of anyone who had some academic success (fail those A levels, Ranjesh?). You came to shit on someone who has something you'll never have, not to offer advice. YOU were the one who were acting wrongly and in bad faith right off the bat >>34030212
You did NOTHING to offer me advice to help with my core issue which is finding meaning beyond just basing my identity off of "I'm intelligent and successful". Fucking coward fucking brown rat
>Only poorfag is you when you out yourself as not even being able to handle the COL or move or stop working for even just one month
You've never built anything in your life and don't know how money works. I sign my own paychecks you faggot, I underpay myself deliberately because the cash is reinvested. I'm not a niggerbrained brown that will spend funds I need for machinery, equipment, stock material etc on a Bugatti. If what I'm doing works, yes I will actually be able to do whatever I want.
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>>34033743
>jealousy of anyone who had some academic success
Why would I be jealous of these useless badges? You're already a living example and a walking meme that all of those things mean fuck-all and are used to overcompensate for a lacking in all social aspects in life.

>came to shit on someone who has something you'll never have
If you interpret my observation as "shitting" on you, then that's on you. It still rings true, doesn't it? Anyway, what is this thing that you have that I'll never have? More useless scrap metal badgery? Yeah I don't think I want that useless junk.

>IF what I'm doing works
>yes I will actually be able to do whatever I want.
No you won't because you HAVE NO IDEA what it is that you want. You have no clue what to do with that freedom if you were ever granted it.
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>>34027914
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WAWaZqDf-VE
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>>34027914
They've done studies on this. They stage a scene where someone says/does something cringy, and then survey the witnesses.

1/3 didn't even notice because they were immersed in their own dramas
1/3 noticed but then got right back to their own more interesting dramas
1/3 noticed, laughed or cringed, and then got back to their own dramas.

When questioned again a week later, almost no one in the last group remembered the incident.

The point is that YOU are the only one still stewing over the embarrassing moment. No one else cares or even remembers
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>>34034457
>The point is that YOU are the only one still stewing over the embarrassing moment. No one else cares or even remembers
Sure, and with distance from the incident I'm starting to feel better, but there's a greater issue here that I base so much of my self esteem and identity on being "smart" because I really don't have much else going. I'm a clumsy, doofy-looking oaf that people would think is retarded until they hear me spout some brainy shit and realize "ok he's not retarded he's just Rain Man." I once got emotional in my grad student office while talking to the other PhDs, and I forget what let up to it but I loudly declared I was a "freak" and everyone else got quiet, because they had nothing to say against it.
I used to have an active and healthy social life and did all the things people say you should do. Activities outside of work and school, was part of a jiu jitsu club, tried to be involved in grad school politics, all that. For years in my 20s, genuinely. But it didn't "stick," eventually people sloughed off in my life like rotten scabs. Women leave me, or they become intolerable so I leave them. I'm so clumsy and uncoordinated that even with years of practice I only ever became mediocre at jiu jitsu. Now I've built a business that is doing ok for now, with the potential to become truly huge, but that's just a tangent of the "he's the smart guy" identity. As cringe as it sounds my driving goal is to just be like Lex Luthor or something, get a bunch of money and power using my mind and just fuck with people. But damn is that fucking depressing...I feel like there should be something, something that makes me feel like an actual human and not some caricature that has to be constantly smooth and suave and perfectly calculated, because otherwise he's just retarded.



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